i have so much to do and my mother is sick, so i am racing between work and government offices as well as trying to get her well . i have had no time to plan for wednesday and i have slept 12 hours for the last two days .

Lets try those links again :

dadaist poetry

an example of manirettis typography

Geoffs Poem

Geoff Parked recently sent me piece of his web project and asked me to critique it . Much to my shame i looked over it and i sent him a one line email . To my defense i bookmarked it to look over later . I had been reading mostly traditional poetry When i was really young my mind was more supple and made much larger jumps . Now i had trouble picking through the piece he sent me . I was puzzling the meaning and not and not looking through its structures . I went to the library today and sitting down i looked at the poetry it reminded me of . Namely Hugo Ball who used preverbal onamanapeics and Maniretti who used typography to express explicitly political themes. The thing is Geoff's work full in the mouth and gastronomical in its pornography. The metaphor of consumption means the words spread through the page. It erupts, ejaculates . But this betrays the deliberateness of his metaphors It manages to be so well constructed its mercurial nature looks simple. It also riffs between Spanish and english. Geoff was worried about translation and a web presence. I do not think it needs to be translated , Pound didn't translate the more obscure of his references , trusting the intellectualism of his audience .

(OT: I think Pound would have loved the web ; His poems stuffed to the gills with textual references and his paranoia as well. )

Links

Geoffs Poem :

Maniretti Poem :

Hugo Ball :

( a dadaist poetry site )

Today i heard four teenagers giggle and sing "say my name" . it reminded me why i loved pop . then they sang im a slave 4 you and i knew the producer and that kind of made me sad . i cannot remeber the last time i felt so joyus about i song i wanted to sing it along with my buddies . i share music all the time but i have not had a silly loop of joy racing thru my head in ages. i tried paul simon and i tried ween . nothing matched the exuberence .

In 1996 Jack Pierson displayed a sign made from discarded billboards and neon that said fuck you mocking the recent trends in abject and obscene art. Recently the word Fuck has been vital in the bejing art underground, popularized mostly by Ai Wei Wei. It is shocking in beijing not because of what it means but because it is popular and english . full circles .

Today i spent 3 hours installing a show. The artist is quiet and gentle but makes nasty and obscene art full of vital fluids. I own a painting of his with a guy giving auto fellatio and the word genuis underneath him . But the joy of installing is not meeting artists , it is making your hands raw with sand paper and yr clolthes stained with paint. It is constructing, the achemial thrill of making something from nothing . I have to go to work and i am white with plaster but i really dont care.

Today there was 9 anthrax scares in the capital. We live in Bumfuck Alberta guys we aint the whitehouse so settle the fuck down

i spent the day at the dentist, then curled up with a CD and a new book . It was dull and comforting .

from artnet.com news :





CALDER MOBILE FOUND IN WTC DEBRIS

The New York Post reports that part of Alexander Calder's monumental sculpture Bent Propeller (1970), which stood on the plaza at 7 World Trade Center, has been found in the rubble. Alexander Rower, Calder's grandson and head of the Calder Foundation, had asked volunteers at the site to keep an eye out for the work.

you know those two girders fused into a T that people thought were a message of god, the above makes me much more likey to think that God may still be looking after us .

my email has changed to anthonyeaston@shaw.ca , i have netscape so my Messenger name is NPnkMse .

I still use icq most often though , which is 11237968
just in case you think you want to talk to me

i was reading this article in Jane on sex addiction and thinking about the problems with the twelve step program pattern. There seems to be no connection between who goes there. In sex addiction it is meant for anyone who views there sex or romantic or fantasy life as destructive. So everyone from a 21 college virign who jacks off once a day and a middle aged woman in an unhappy marriage who devolps a massive crush on the UPS driver to a pump and dump pyschotic and violent sadists or pedophiles could be at the same meeting. Can we not tell the college kid and the people who revel in fantasy that they are not evil ?

At overeater anonymus if you talk about your addiction it becomes a temption. For example they do not say cheese they say produce product that may be cubed .

At AA they cannot tell the difference between a complusion, a habit and a binge. Addicts are complex and need to be treated differently depending on there addiction and there habits. People act out differently and twelve steps cannot motivate all .
Those who are complusive will change to coffee or cigarettes or even meetings . If you have an addictive personailty , does the compulsion that underpins your personality ever change ?

I am sure the ritual helps , 12 steps to let you move one foot in front of the other and group therapy is a carthatic
it must help.

today i saw seven, fight club and twelve monkeys back to back. i am willing to entertain the notion that brad pitt is more then a pretty face. i am working on something about the mthod and how it fails for me .

here is a link to the moore, its real video, but powerful

Today i went to teh dentist and they asked me if i wanted white or silver. i said silver thinking that murakami called it the only superflat color .

Yesterday at work there was a fire alaram and we all had to huddle in the train station, i took my book out of my pocket, sat crosslegged on the floor and started reading, thinking all the time of moores underground drawings .

Is this passion or pretension and why do i care .

some links an entry to follow this evening
nasty

death and the army , a southern tale

art or trash , at least hirst was a good sport

the anthrax spreaders cannot tell the difference between tabloids and news, neither can i

i think jesus would be into porn and poltics, like the rest of us netizens
with people reading
the air will never be safe

31 anthrax ridden in washignton

Anthrax because it is well known, cheap and dangerous enough to cause symbloic terror rather then real damage ?

Experiments
I make money playing guinea pig, that was one of these days.
today i got stuck in a tank of water. i was naked and the water was warm and salt saturated.
I had this short clicnican talk to me through out it, like a fire plug, when i got out and they mesured the displacement he offered to tell me my score , i feel comfortabel with my body. If i had numbers i would feel less comfortable. He then got the calipers out . Every inche he mesured, talking softly, his touch gentle. Once again he offred to tell me the numbers, once again i refused. He left the room to let me get dressed in an odd act of modesty. He had seen me naked, examined me thourghly. The removing of clothes and the replacing of clothes , the two most intimate acts the clinican never sees.

When i was dressed he was waiting in the lobby, he lead me to a classroom with 20 other people . We had to fill out surveys about height and weight . We had to sign another set of relase forms . We were handed two decks of cards. There were 6 cards in each deck . The cards had ink drawings of people , one deck men , the other woman.
Cards one picture was skeltal, Card Sixes was corpulent
You were supposed to tell what person you were and then what your acceptable man and woman are. well men are sexaul and woman are aesthic but every one is acceptable , no ?

SMALLVILLE
New show on the WB feautring an adolsecent clark kent. it is set in the here and now and it features a naked man on a cross (as a freshman stunt that someone died earlier), Lex and Clarke saving each other lives, Lana Lane as intrepid girl reporter, Clarke finidng his strength by stacking pickups like dominos in the parking lot of the home coming dance

It seems to be reaching all these refrences from those early discovering your idenity subtexts which seems to tie into superman the comics constant early subcurtenous refrences to identity as a jew and an immigirant. As well it seems to connect to the recent finding literal monsters instead of subconcious monsters (cf Buffy and Rosewell). It has the highschool jocks and freaks compenoant of most teen soaps, the wb pop soundtrack as well. A fascanting excerise in postmodernsim . WATCH IT !

election for mayor yesterday let our current fuckwit of a mayor get a third term

I voted for Tess Ellsworhty, an anarchist dyke who has a heady rep as being too left and clever for her own good.

food critics who needs them

We take the Greyhound down on friday heading South to attend my grandmothers funeral. A week ago i saw her silent, mute deaf blind . For ten years her memory betrayed her . She would move to another nursing home until she ended up in the hospital , where she lived for three years. I let other people speak for me at the funeral. The eulogy was awkard. It did not give credit to my Grandmothers work on the farm or in the war as a member of W.A.C. Acts of great heroism were preformed by Prarie farmwives and War Relief Workers. They involved nesscary acts of service kept quioet by complacency. They did not grow the grain or kill the Nazis but an army and a farmer live on their stoamch. They made arms, nursed the wounded, kept hungry under rations, they cooked and cleaned and raised children often under crushing lonliness. They settled accounts and kept bankers at bay. They made sure the animals were tended. they had harvest suppers and made sure the church was filled on Sunday . They kept everything in the hosue as wide and straight as the furrows in the field. An act that is much more difficult then most imagine.

After the funeral we made through the dirt roads to the community hall. The barns were still there and every so often a pumpjack. This was land for hay and cattle , the farther southwest you go in Alberta , the more cows and the less grain. The telephone towers have yet to be replaced w. fibre optic cables; To prevent eroison and wind stands of birch , spruce and pine are planted. Every so often you see a verdant patch among the yellow straw. The hay was baled and covered in polyethelne sheets, every so often you saw horses ( roans, arabians, palminos and most commonly quater morgans) Th
ere was even an ostrich farm . The sky was spiting rain and driving in my aunts van i saw a goshhwak .

I got to the hall and it was packed to the rafters filled with countless unknown family . The slab tables had plates of squares and open faced buns slathered in diced meat or egg. I have been to funerals and wedding teas and anniversarys in Sask., Manitoba and Alta. every time they had the same meal and it provides more comfort then you kn ow. I ended up fetching coffee and tea, bringing plates of sandwhiches from the kitchen. Once again more of a woman here.

In town we stayed at the motel. In Olds there was a high school rodeo and football game and everyone but us were rowdy and drunk . They were in there souped up trucks with peacock shirts. I did not escape from black and grey. Picking up a Coke from the supermarket kitty korner there was a notice about the funeral. It was supposed to only go to the post office and the drug store but it ended up everywhere. The legions flag flew half mast and the tacky little polyfab buliding was full when the funeral happened.

There was no minister , a family freind delivered the aforementioned eulogy. the famil;y had its only little ante chamber. The hymns were not grand but plain and practiced . Everyone who was a conrad seemed to be big, not fat or tall but massive and hulking , Like the Black Angus cattle that settled into the crests of couleees

She was too be cremated and entered beside her husband . Thank god that ghastly mechanism that lowered her to the fire was not used. There was no displaying of her body , no ashes in a magony finial or porcelian urn .

I got home two hours ago and this is constructed from scant notes and memory .

Bushes Press secertary said that the news should not release footage of bin Laden "unedited".

That means its our jobs to find all news that is unedited !

In Between 1890 and 1920 the photographing of men in intimate poses was a convention in American Studio Portraits that is explained quite well in this months Art In America . I do not mean erotic photography but fully clothed men with there arms around each other , or on each others thighs or sitting on one anothers laps. Today they look Sweetly Queer , like a piece of found history. But they are more cryptic then that. Aside from the obvious cowpoke on the frontier troubles with cementing core identity after the fact (no woman , you get it where you can) the fact is that men seemed to be more affectionate physically. It seems before Gay became a sexual identity men touched . No one had any suspicions that they may be sexual implications. Living in a Patriarchy where woman were given servile or different positions Men and Woman often had there separate camps . These photographs are cryptic , they seem to live in a place that used to exist between merely friends and lovers .

The other thing the article said is that these photographs are being horded by rural gays. They are found in attics and flea markets and out of the way spaces . Thye are being collected by people who find one of them by acident andd it becomes an act of belief to find all of them .

today i learnt that the promoter and the venue of the momus gig may not know whats going on

i have put almost 750 on this gig already ! If it falls thru heads will role

Today i felt turned on watching fight club, the brawl between Leto and Norton. Then i felt revulsed and guilty . I am not sure how to process this , i have not felt shame about my sexual fantasies in a long time.

Tomorrow i have a dentists appointment . The fear of the dentistis over rode the toothache i have having.

I may be wrong about evidence

Thoughts on Kabul

*In Bushes speech last night he said we need new defenses . Star Wars failed us on September 11. How will it work now ?

*Osma Bin Ladens group work in decentralized cells. It is like a spider web, break one strand and the others can keep working

*They are apparently dropping bombs and food on Afghanistan . How ?

*I have yet to see any really solid evidence to prove Osma is directly responsible .

*Aside from the Texas Journailist and Bill Maher there has not been alot of direct crushing of dissent. But when Fox News, MSNBC, CBS, NBC, CNN, CBC, the assicated press et. al. have the exact same news and i have not heard alot of alternative opinons it seems that dissent has been stifled

*What the fuck does a Homeland Security Advisor do ?

*What are the long term implacations of Bush declaring his agreement with a Palestinan state ?

* This is an idelogical war with no clear aims and no one ever wins those , because we cannot declare a draw . ( cf Vietnam)

*No one has won the Kyber Pass. They pull the swiss defense and no sexy computer guiding missile defense can do boo

* This has been a war since Ishmael was envious of Issac , Reread the Pentatauch

*The FBI is claiming the passengers on board of the airliner that crashed near Camp David " engaged in a fight for there lives " and the US miltary did not shoot anything down

*The phrase Surgical air strikes " . How delicate can you be with tonnes of mass explosives . As well the last time i checked scapels were meant to heal not destroy thosuands of woman and children. The gulf wars strikes were less then 30 % accurate. If a surgeon made 70 mistakes for every operation he would lose his liscence.

*A delightful qoute from Texas Senator Phil Gram, " The Storm Unleashed Sunday will continue until the evil is eradicated. It appeats this is another crusade .

*My partenal grandmother said this weekend that this is what happens when you do not seperate church and state . Shes right .

A couple of other things. I spent three hours listening to Joni Mitchell on the road home. It helped esp. California,

The new pictures of leonard cohen are fab. They are black and white and he no longer seems brooding. He looks transcendant and happy and VERY well dressed

They are bombing kabul because kabul bombed us who needs butter when we have bombs

Yesterday i had dinner at my aunts. it was painfuil enough to make me call the Maybanks who i love and are are the realtives of my great aunt. We went over to there house. My queer uncle (61) and his partner
( 56) were at the kitchen table, with my second cousin once removed ( who is a dancer auditoning at the royal winnipeg) . We bullshitted, caught up, listened to music, gossipped . It become an exchanging of history this weekend !

Today i went to the presbratrion church which seemed overly somber , i wanted to go to Mass and hear the joyful hymns. now i am having Thanksgiving dinner at my Aunts house; as per usual i am curled up in the spare bedroom, listening to Moulin Rouge and typing. They have a farm in the rocky mountain foothills. All the tress seem to be stands of birch caught between the pines. The color is amazing .

The olds presybration church has pasted a notice over two hymns . They say they are not allowed to sing them because the bible did not advocate Female Represantions. Noew if they felt like this why not just avoid singing them ? As well they are not censored in the large print additons.

I am in olds pop. 1200 . My great granmother grew up here. My aunt lives 3 blocks from city hall. Its growing up bit since i saw it last. They have a McDonalds now but aside from that it has not changed.
I can tour downtown in two blocks. They have one cd store, a farm insurance, a liqour store, two macs, a grocery store and 1 1913 lunceonette . LAst year it was the Pig Out Cafe , this year it is AJs. Everyone knows it as the publicl unch counter

We stopped in a roadhouse and had steaks and pie. They overcharged and it gave me gas.

The first thing we did was go to see my grandmother. who cannot recognize us, is blind and deaf and demented . I am typing this from the public library which the librarion has greeted every patron by his or her first name. It has 12 shelves but 8 computers . Progress ?

Bush said the war would be failure Dr Freud please pick up the house phone

The New York Times refuses to allow information about Flordai Elections because it may upset motale. No one knows where Osma Bin Laden is. Does this remind anyone else of the Reichstag fire ?

Its been three days since i have updated this. i am packign to go south for a weekend. Its thanksgiving and it may be the ast time i can see my grandmother. I will hole up in any room that is quiet and either work on the computer or read the tin drum. i really find my extended family nasty, neurotic, and petty. In my house you find a plate , raid the fridge and settle into a corner. There are no places that have rules. I own no coasters ( literally and symboliclly ). The Aunts house i am staying at is a house of order . They have coasters. Every surface of my house has books . We have shelves but they are more often to be found on any availble flat surface. A book that is on there floor gets put away two seconds later.

As well i have a pink mohacian and talk about socialism , they are socreds all the way . There is an imlicit power struggle the minute we walk in the front door . They are the only ones who do not know i am queer.

Today i thought my grandmother had died

she has had alzhiemers and is dying slowly over the last ten years

my aunt left a voice mail and said she had a heart attack , maybe i thought she was release w. mercy.

They defibbed her which seesm to be an act w/o mercy

Thanksgiving is this weekend and we are driving south to eat turkey and avoid any semblanace of emotion .

Geoff

has said some interesting things about comics as well

Some Auxrially information about september 11 :


Trashing another Faith Promoting Legend

Hitchens has a well defined and singular moral sense that is nesscary in these times. Here he takes the piss out of Chomsky

Why have comics become so powerful a form of dissent ?

We have already gotten trouble for overdecorting re: halloween and now paranoid parents wants to elimiante it

War is Peace

Now two happy thoughts :

Beavers are safe in arizona

And i do not drive but if i did it would be a Gay Car

Today i rushed out of the house to catch my ride downtown. Takign the stairs down the subway three or four at a time and not buying a ticket i make the right train. The first thing i see is four very solemn woman in black clothes facing each other. They are sitting down and in their laps cradle well coifed maniquien heads.

a tom tomorrow comic to start your day.