i need to do research at the local baptist college but every time i go i end up staring at the luscious farm fed body of some mamas boy whos come to the big city to learn all about the good lord, and that boy will go back to his small town, with his fancy learning, and tell us them all about the lord.
all of them, their painful earnestness, their belief in the authority of the kjv, their fear of all the gnostic secerts, the way they intone lord, their hymns about blood and tears, which make my mind wander into other fluids.

i read thru texts and wander thru corridors, and go to church there every so often, just cause i am taking some theology courses at the u, but mostly i go and see people from bashaw, rimbey, blackfaelds, high level, red earth, grand prarie, balzac.

discuss.

erica jong has a new novel out, this time about sappho.
vf interview, she qoutes Nuala O'Faolain, who says this:
"If you are lucky enough to love, why quibble about who the sex of your lover is"

SeanCarruthers: What you need then is a good old fashioned heating pad and gentle stretching exercises and the love of a good wombat!
on my tummy ache

when magadelenes tomb was open in 1269, somwhere near provence, a green sprout grew on her tounge.

peter pears loved benjamin britten.
thats what i told bryan last night at dennys.

im not sure what it means, we talked about other things as well.
god, sex, terror, love, art, krazy kat, calvin&hobbes, me against the world, redemption, 18th century liberals, the state, colonies, how when i think of soilders i think of my lai and liberating dachau at the same time,
we drove, from bearspaw to dennys, from dennys to whyte, from whye to royal gelnora, parked, walked up thru the park, looked fog&moon/electric light make the river glow, thru to the legisature with its sodium lighting turning everything yellow, arround the back to the universal flame, hung a right to see the lawn bowling club and totem pole, learnt he was a hansard page, got home, and went downstairs, we talked, endlessly, all we do is talk, and what we say is imbued with this second meaning, its self discovery.

Brian(note spelling) took me to bible study again; and he drove me to bryans, and i immediatly walked in, got a glass of milk, took my socks off and settled in,
good.

i just spent an hour reading eton stuff instead of stuff for the paper.

Had the queer talk with Jerry, dealing with stress and fear about which I am. He thinks its wrong and sinful and asked how I could be a catholic,

How do I explain it to him, that I'm queer, and spurn the Homo/hereto binary, that its about performance, that I see the recent talk about sex and language as focculdian progress, that really the priest is a eunuch and therefore they are promised the kingdom of heaven, that Christ loved the whores and adulteresses and all the sexual others, that Paul didn’t know what he talking about, that Leviticus was about temple prostitutes, and the epistles were about roman decadence, that all of my acts are queer, that I love my body and celebrate its gifts, that I was kicked out of one church, that I have prayed and begged god to make me love women and it didn’t work, that Christ ordains love, that Christ didn’t set down a sexual ethic, that I want to fall in love with a boy and be happy ever after, that I don’t really think about it, that I think of Theresa de Avila and remember how much pleasure the holy spirit gave her, that the sensual nature of the church connects to sex, that I think Christ had a most beloved disciple that may or may not have been a boy, that I think that Boswell was correct about how queer the early church was, that I think that Augustine and Jerome repression was, how I imagine Christ’s penis, what happened with the LDS and elder Kevin Guy Luke, that I am still adding to the puzzle, that I saw Jacob and the angel as erotic, that I saw BDSM in the stations of the cross, that sebastion, with all of those lovely phallic arrows, that I see our people in the strange lives of monks and nuns.

I started by asking him if he masturbated, and whether he confessed.
He said yes and yes,
How can you talk to a boy who feels so shameful that he cannot touch his genitals without confessing the joy of sexuality?
I wanted to reach over and hug him, hard, not for sex, but for touch, I wanted to tell him that it was ok.

I stopped talking.

as twenty something cynic
i've has given up on love.
with boy meets girl I¡¯m a tourist looking in,
and all I see sentiment and expectations;
property, pair bonding and other disasters.

boy meets boy isn't much better,
here we are lions at the gates
not showing our teeth
rewarded by cake and a ceremony with tuxes

you say to yourself, this isn't love,
this is code for something else.
besides you still want someone
to play all the domestic games with.

queer theory one oh one,by someone who knows better

Lollies were going to be Rock Stars, Poly Styrene fronts the Shangri Las, Lyrics bitter, funny, sexy, and life affirming. Had Kate there, who played with the best of them, and media savvy to boot (american in london, had dinner with her last year, and she had this way of mad striding, this lovely way to conquering)

I wanted them to be NME crosses the pond famous.
here are photos of the last show

1861 dictionary of chinook jargon

Salomón Huerta
Not sure how I feel, the colour and line suggest a rigid and formal variation of owen, who i mentioned earlier.
The problem is that she has made the whitney, she works thru new york, her first work is of the back of shaved heads, and are intense in their realism, none of the ambiguousness in owens, these new ones though, she claims that she has gotten decorative, admits to caging from Elle and Vouge, the pastels, the colour choices, spring fashion, would look good in a boutique.
also, these new ones are of houses, but houses with out any content, no one lives in them , the triangle on top of the square, the kindergarten iconography of "home"
turquoise, rose, butter, cerulean, sapphire, fuschia, hot pink, crimson.
richer, in terms of intensity in terms of wealth,
the colours of these paintings are the lurid ones of tropical north america,
the flouteinbleu in Miami, in and out burgers, Manns chinese theatre, mexican catholicism, swimming pools, the oceans.
(is this Ruscha, no its much less commercial- i talked about Fashion magazines, but really Ruscha dealt with the nuts and bolts of commericals, every building on the sun set strip, 66 gas stations)
(is this Hockney- no he liked humans, he had the boys coming in and out of the tub)
(is this Dieborken-no he is abstract, and the mark making is much more messy)
(is this Thiebaulds new work-no that is much messier, more chaotic)
flat, no surface, superflat ?
is american superflat coming thru la ?

spam

06 March 2003

Prime Minister Ariel Sharon,

Did you hear of all these tunnels full of war materials and rockets and
other explosive devices in Lebanon, but more so around Damascus? There is
so much, a person told me, that if you were meaning to do so, Israel could
hit the right targets and it could make Damascus to fulfill what is written
in Isaiah 17:1-3, a rubble heap.

And the remainder of Syria would turn to make a peace agreement with Israel
and Aleppo would be the new capital of Syria.

And Jordan and Lebanon would follow their example to make a peace agreement
too.

BUT IT IS TO I THE GOD OF ISRAEL THAT THEY WILL DO THIS IN FEAR.
ECCLESIASTES 12:13-14. THEN EGYPT WILL SEE WHAT GOD OF ABRAHAM SERVANT
MOSES WILL DO TO FULFILL ISAIAH 19:20. TO START WITH, THROUGH HIM I WILL
TURN THE NILE RIVER TO BLOOD. AND OTHER SIGNS ARE TO HAPPEN UNTIL THEY TO
FEAR I THE GOD OF ABRAHAM AND MAKE PEACE TOO WITH ISRAEL.

AND SO THE BEGINNING OF THE LAND OF I THE GOD OF ABRAHAM SHALL COME TO BE
TO FULFILL GENESIS 15:18. FROM THE RIVER EUPHRATES UNTO THE GREAT RIVER
NILE OF EGYPT SHALL YOU BE WELCOMED AS TO RETURN AND BUILD YOUR SYNAGOGUES
AGAIN, OR REPAIR THE ONES LEFT STANDING FOR A LONG TIME.

ARIEL SHARON, IT IS GOING TO BE THE GREATEST NATION OF FIVE STATES, WITH
ITS CAPITAL IN JERUSALEM, THE WORLD HAS EVER SEEN.

AND THE TEMPLE OF I THE GOD OF ABRAHAM SHALL BE REBUILT WHEN ALL THIS
ABOMINATION OF THE DOME OF THE ROCK, A SHRINE TO THEIR iSLAMIC FALSE
PROPHET mOHAMED, WHOSE gOD IS A MOON gOD ICON AT mECCA, THEIR UNHOLY CITY
AND TEMPLE, IS REMOVED.

SO BE READY TO SEE ALL THIS TO HAPPEN AFTER APRIL 17, 2003 OR ON PASSOVER
2003.

His Servant,

Eliyahu the Tishbite


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The looting appeared to have its heaviest impact on a security guard at the museum, Abdul Rahman, 57, who said he had tried to stop the first band of looters breaking through to steel gates at the rear of the compound on Thursday morning. He said he gave up when the looters started firing in the air with pistols and rifles. "They were shouting, `There's no government, there's no state, and we will do what we like. We will take anything we want.' They said `Open up, open up, there's no more Saddam so we can do what we like.' "
from the nyt story on the looting

In the history of reading alberto manguel talks about the two stones, one with a petroglyph of a goat, and one of a sheep, that may have been the first written words, he notes that he saw them before the first gulf war and hopes that they were saved from the bombing.

The national musuem in Bagdahd has the largest collection of art and antquities from the Near East, from the sumerians to early 1900, illumnatied mansuscipts, huge assyrian portal guards, small tablets, gold, silver and copper religous objects, one of the first potraits of a human as opposed to a god (found in Uruk, made ca 2000), huge carvings of the bull gods, cermaics from the dawn of civilisation, persian minitures, glass and enamel work from the 16th century.

or did between the bombs, the looters, and people who just seek to destroy, most of these objects were lost, by rifle, sledgehammer, gas soaked rag, crowbar, bludgioning tools, etc.

not lost destroyed.

28 articles in the gateway this year.
i have a bound edition.

well josh misread me and blocked me.
dislike passive agressive, so ill post here.

naacp is fairly conserative means that if you look at the whole thing, from the republican black caucus to marcus garveys back to africa or the black panthers or angela davis, the naacp runs about half way thru the middle.

also, i didnt insult his mother, what i said was that perhaps african americans might not appreciate being told what to do by a white woman. not that his mother is not noble for helping the poor, etc, but there is context there.

amptoons posted this via mickela, nasty but good

first fight with bryan, who is stuck in the 19th cent, he makes me more of a post modernist then i am, but thats what every postmodernist says (useless word, i compared it to 20 bunnies in a hatch, and everyone talking about the hatch rather then the bunnies) bryan thinks i should say more, but right now i am really raw and am not sure why i care so much.

he refuses to get duchamp, and thats the beggining, if you dont accept the fountain (its not really art, its anti art, and the craft is in the theory, bryan fetishizes object making, which i have moved far past. )

josh has been really good lately at the theology kick, and he and i agree on many of the issues facing the church, reading his work or talking to him, i wonder why i am still in catholicism. will talk to bitter today about con vs trans, among other things. (which reminds me fthr dave is an expert on chomskian lingustics)

speaking of the glory of christendom: