i have gone to this confrence for 6 years now , about sex and spirit , usually its good and it gives me enough time to really think about my G-d and My Queerness , but i feel like i dont want to be there , not sure why , maybe cause i dont like the inbred midwest pc collection here, maybe because i feel like am 14 there and it always percipates a crisis of faith. Maybe because i always make an ass of myself , fucking up some level of protocal . Thats the problem w. phags , way too much protocal, we are a people who voluantarily invented a court system . Anyways ill go , because the folks who founded it are 75 year old former ministers of the united church and sweet as the day as long as well frankly i get three days of food, knowledge , net working et. al for 40 bucks. I think i am more confident , feeling like i can id as a writer and a catholic , less of a mormon and maybei can go in and behave like me , saying fuck you to them all.