some things i have been thinking about:

neko cases version of kansas city, makes me wonder--when does a song become a standard, when you have a certain number of versions, when one version trumps the original, when there are debates on one version or the other, when an interpertation becomes cannonical, etc---the weird thing, is no matter how much i love the shangri las--and i do, i think i like neko cases version more.

mom has bought a car, and i think that her driving is stupid, if she can barely walk from the bedroom to the living room, but maybe boredom is a reason that she sleeps until late afternoon or early evening, i mean i go to bed closer to dawn then dusk--often past dusk, but still, makes me wonder about questions of independence etc.

need to talk to raymond about the civil war, in relation to navouu and early american armed forces, well not only ray--how many miltary historians do i know (well dave, but he isnt answering my emails and hes russian) -- i am mostly curious about wether it works in relation to the second ammendment, and how b ig the army was, and about the devolpment of the concept of standing army, and of course their colonial history, american history sort of clumps in my brain, and i need a better map.

fido calling me at least a dozen times in the last month was not about a bill or anything resembling a bill, it was a motherfucking survey, and them asking me questions like how much money do you make or are you nervous all the time, etc--i keep the thing because i want to move back to toronto (before sept--the plan is a year in toronto, and then 5 at william wellman, if god is good and im not an asshole)

i wonder if i should get a second opinon from dr roberts, he has not made any stabs at diagnoses or any chart notes or anything like that, if the papers i got were any indication since 2004--and another reason to get back to TO is that there are more t elemetry placements in siani then there are in the entire province of alberta. i also wonder if its not brain but nervous (not anxiety, but nerves etc)

big studies about gender come out lately--one from sci am talking about how gender is immuitble, forgetting that brain chemistry and brain structure change based around things like human contact, etc and also forgetting large amounts of evidence related to things like chromosonal and hormonal, and also how, depending who you ask, from one in a hundred to one in one hundred thousand infants are born w. genitals that are non integrous--ie intersexed, even if their is a boy brain and a girl brain, there is a huge ranging field of things inbetween---and much of what those boy brains and girl brains do are socilaised

burned bridges, i think w. todd

redoing my resume tomorrow (having two)

going over my flickr account and realising that, if my ego can speak, im a damn good picture taker.

glenys goes to manilia in a few months, and shes being good--sorting thru the colonial and post colonial baggage, sorting thru the implications of what it means to be a queer white women there, in a culture that is deeply divided by sexuality, religion and gender--and it still reminds me of the fresh faced boys going two by twos and well i cannot get over the colonolism of mission work.

conserative christians are apparently going to colonize the tory party, nationally--which proves that the reform where chest suckers that destroyed any semblance of pcs, and also (in addition to their work with the bq, and their rural policies, etc) prove that harpers party is stil lthe regional protest party it always was.