neurotic but not pyschopathic, caring for people but realzing that you need more help, more attention, more care then the average bear, so being forever deeply paranoid about other people, about other peoples balance and care. leech stuff, again of course, some recent examples and paradox that come to mind.

martin and im, martin and money, martin and his exhastion w. me
glenys reconsidering the conference, glenys realizing that i should be more out with aspie, glenys misreading after 7 years, glenys telling me the only reason she can stand me is that she makes concessions for aspies, money.
major fuck up w. drew and well we are bored of each other i think.
worried about silly things w. ray like who phones who, upset that his sched trumps mine, which is stupid
trying to resurct realtionships, w. val, erik, jeff, dave but that is working less and less
stood up ashley again, i am not sure i like him as much as e likes me, and his respect for my work, well overblown
fucking lack of self esteem cripples.
how am i going to pay back 2400 bucks ?

stop worying!

also, i am not sure how to get back to toronto