i know you have all been dying to hear my reaction to Lucien Freuds potrait of the queen , but i have only seen a detail so i will reserve judgement. ( although Mr Freud can usually do no wrong)

i have watched moulin rouge 8 times in the last 72 hours and read the best of lists . its split in the middle between love and hate. i adore musicals so of course its my fav movie of the year , i have a LONG bus trip tomorrow so i will elucidate over christmas

flipping thru the channels today i saw cnn. it showed a clip of the argentine president in a helicopter rising effortolsy over the streets of beunos aries . the economy has collpased and the citizens are rioting , and when the government has decided to flee in such a conspicous way it doesnt bode well

The refugees are taking over detaining facilites in austrulia, proving that if you treat people like shit they will rise up .

(i know an over simplifaction )

Canadas new imigration policy says you have to be fluent in either offical langugage and have a masters degree to be welcomed and if you are a refugee you need papers . Well i guess a multi culti only means upper middle class and if you are in a disease and chaos ridden tent city , your first instinct should be to hold onto those papers ,

i bought 6 cds last night and a couple of books , rented a movie, had lunch with a friend .

i am trying to hack thru milton and the more i try the more i hate him

i bought an english import marriane faithfull , which means i know have twice as many of her albums as the rollingstoes . I think she is one of the most important interpertive singers in the last 50 years ,The two Dylan songs she covers here are intensly erotic and meloncholy, more sexual then i assume dylan meant them but as lonely as he did , including the heartbreaker "its all over now baaby blue" , the song in which where even the furniture retreats and the dead stay put . Its cast of skeletons and theives and ghosts and pure isolation , faithful makes it sound world worn and ragged and as i said erotic , while dylan just makes it sound a bit odd .

jimmy the mod writes the most elegant dialouge here , beutiful and aristo and so cloe to the city and pure pleasurre to the tounge and ears. it reminds me of isherwood or o'hara

i strive for this kind of causal grace but cannot seem to find it . i think i over write, over extend, 10 lbs of shit in a 5 lb bag but i keep trying. i got a great e-mail about my d.o.a column last week and geoff says he likes my blog but i guess i dont trust my skills,
i am going to buy trousers and compact discs and have greek food w. my buddy peter . im thrilled.

i have tried to downlad the new robbie williams (rowr) and nicole kidman single about 20 times from morpheous , all twenty times have failed.

christmas cards are out, pressies are out, my d drive is not working and needs to be sent in ,

Today i felt exhausted and directionless after working a twelve hour shift , i ended up at an army recurtign station and watched the video. i felt dirty afterwards .

Lets say you are rich and powerful but still have a rep as a peoples preimer. You have rich and powerful freinds, you drink , but do not get drunk, you get into high spirits . You finsih a v. expensive private dinner at midnight , what do you do ? Stop by a homeless shelter and verbally abuse the destuite , throwing money on the floor and yelling "get a fucking job " . Well thats what our preimer did , the fuck wad .

There is a Borges fable that suggests the afterlife is a giant library consisting of every book that has been written, that will be written, that exsisted in other books , in fact every book ever conceived in any capacity and in any languge . The way the books are catalouged affects the way the world is run , what happesn in this mortal life.


With the way my life is running, someone has put Kafka in Organzational Behaviour .

Canada will have a poet laurete in its history ! I am thriled !!

well my d.o.a is up

it must be christmas cause i just talked to a buddy in toronto

i really like the odds , they kinda registered on my radar a few years back but know i think they are very clever

oh and please Emailthe fuck wad at Bowie State University Maryland for calling the marching band dancing faggots
I waited for 3 hours on hold for shaw to repair my cable and it fixed itself

Martin Creed won the turner prize for an empty room and a light switch. For someone who usually makes the venacular ( paper, baloons,blu tak) both minimal and beutiful i was disappointed at this work. But if he won for this :









then it would be a race well run.

I got the job, not sure i want it but i got it .

I was looking thru momus guestbook and i saw this woman from edmonton. Now here in the hinterland momus fans are rare , so i shot off an email and we got talking via email. The freind who got her into momus ( because momus is amway for hipsters ) was a gentleman named Ashley. Ashley went to high school and was an aquentince w. my best friend Danielle . Danielle is in Toronto right now so its this really odd small world feeling. Anyways he sent me a mail today w. this list of Musical Artists i love and i thought no one listened to in Edmonton . I was excited.

i see on the bus all the time these punks, with carny colored hair and ears pierced like coil bound notebooks. Often they are in pairs or groups. People curse at them , dumb teenagers . well i find them refreshing. they work for political action, feed the homeless, plan gigs and just play at being fuck you . They care and work hard at caring . It seems like the last kicking against the pricks, the birthing pains before adulthood.

I have spent the week tracking down g'vt stats , talking to newbie interns, asking awqkard questions and having people take my information and not return my calls or emails. I have talked to my MLA who said these cuts were a rollback, 1 % across the board and so i called every minster and every minister has no idea what is going on. I know people in Enviroment and Education . I know people who are ill and are affected by the cuts. I know teachers , and nobody knows anything. There are shreds of info in the newspaper. Cutting down housing allowences and kyboshing rent control.

i am writing my d.o.a column and having trouble, ive written pages and its this insane semi ranting weirdness. i talked to my buddy in victoria for an hour and shes coming home for christmas so we get to spend new years w. her, i missed her, havent seen he sense june. i have got two job interviews , part time i think or temp. Zellers and Intial Security. I did security for a year and it was filled w. pyschopaths but they are cattle calling hte interviews so maybe i will get it , fuck i quit jobs so badly with this melodramtic head flianing i have no refrences. fuck it.

i didnt make it out tonight. i have been really blue of late and i just need to do something , i have been ignoring everybody.

Boney M is playing Reds Tomorrow . I think i may go .

I have a project for this months D.O.A column, i want to find exactly where the government thinks they are goign to get 1.7 billion dollars to cut as they promised. They are talking about private clinics but frankly thats illeagal. And they want to elimanate all early child hood education programs but that would only solve a couple of million ...So i am going to play Brenda Starr and make a few phone calls.

i am drunk and have the words queen bitch sharpied on my forehead
i bought art , two prints and a light box with a picture of meditrainion food in it.
i had beyond a good time , gossipping like filthy children, eating hummous and watching a fashion show.

i am going to be half an gour early for the party so instead of looking awkard i am killing time in an internet cafe. i am tired but looking foreward to this. Geoff said he was quitting smoking and i was paitcuarlly nasty instead of supporting him . i feel guily for this and the fact i have not written anything worthwhile in weeks.

i have an art party to go to later today. i will buy art and get drunk on chaep and not very good red wine.