One of the side effects of Remeron, the new tricylic i'm on, is slight drowsiness-which i can deal with if it means slight drowsiness. What it means is that I go to bed tired and frustrated ca. 19:00 and get up groggy ca. 10:00. I have a 9 am class, I have deadlines, I cannot sleep for 15 hrs a day and still funcution. But if I go off my meds, it's a miracle that I get up at all.


The trip to Van. starts at 7 am on Thursday, with four other people. Fuck -14 hrs in a car with four other people, can you say claustraphobia and panic attacks-why am i going to this thing, i am so anxious about it, im thinking of just giving up.