i just did a quick check to figure out if i talked about chris who is in my sex and marriage class, before i gave him the url, vis a vis a conversation we had at the tail end of this class,

nice guy-painfully nice guy, in that understated, complex, smarter then a whip, knows where is going, not really ego filled way.

and to continue my pattern.
he likes girls.

so if he reads this, will he fuck off, will he add a comment, will he talk about it with me ?

(the realization about god:

i am being called by god.
i am not being called by the church.
this has given me a deep feeling of isolation.
this sense of isolation i think has stayed for good.

the course is strange, all b/g g/b, so i have to insert my queer ass in there, and its difficult, a whole class about men talk like this and girls talk like that--some of it applied, esp. to bryan but then he plays at the whole butch leather girls wanna fuck me jag.

i wonder if it applies to pat ?