reading summerhill by as neil while watching a special on child beauty pageant, i realized how close i was to neils model, and how far away i was from anything else.

the problem with neil is how freudian he was, for example his obsessions with elimanating filth, his discussions on masterbation and his assumption that homosexuailty was constructed from a shame cycle.

looking at how perversely sexual the children on the documentary were tonight, and thinking of my own shame training, i do not think that he was wrong about wanking and fear of the body, (esp. in a religous context) and he may not even be wrong about shit playing. and he is right on how and why children are sexual--he is wrong about homosex, but that could be time and place.