reading the studio savant blog, amy fungs work, going to two or three openings in the last two weeks, and being on the queer arts festival committee, i have realised that only is edmonton boring, its still really provinical, w. v. few exceptions, i just dont care what happens in this town. (& having ashley spend so much time angsting out about it, just drives me nuts)

saw greg hollingshead at blair's opening, and he introduced me as a writer, which made me feel like a dilletante. but we talked about kit smart, and how maybe his poetry was reprinted in the 60s and 70s because of artuard, and the anti pysch movement, etc, and the idea that the crazy can be visioanry seems out of date now, so we dont spend muhc time with it.

blairs show of drawings, a whole room of them, the term drawing used as loosely as humanly possible, are godly, filthy, smart, lingusitic, visually sophisticated, heart breaking, familal, and familair (in the witches cat, and the subconcious and the best friend sense). i am really glad he is keeping working, and the gutpunch, worddrunk glossalia doesnt really disappear, its present in the branding as much as its in this polysemic glorius mess. (show at snap, till mid july, go now)

arts hab opening too, saw peter (last name) photos, of pwa in africa, that had an honesty and regalness, which was nice, and the usual suspects, which i should have taken notes on, but i didnt.

elaine, who was going to be in the banff thing, just ignores me, and i am pretty sure she hates me, but i am unsure why. (amy from prarie artster kind of knowingly giggled when my name was mentioned last week, as well, and there in general is a difficulty finding new patterns when people remember yr fuck ups from high school onward, like seeing ross moroz drunk and sloppy at the black dog, saying you dont ever change, and thats what i love about you, and thinking, well i have changed, and yr an asshole, and quit digging and poking when yr sober, and hugging when yr drunk, its bullshit)

the work is going well though, and i think that i will spend time concentrating on non edmonton work, because i feel happier when i get foreign/toronto stuff then when i get edmonton stuff. (i over analyse edmonton stuff, when heather says passionite at the committee meetings, what does that mean, why do i feel so much tension with adam, do i really want to spend 6 mos with todd, is tedd genuinely that nice or is he playing being kind to the retard games, etc etc)

joe said v. nice things about me on his blog, which i appreciate, immensely. (which continues my jesus folks calming, queer/arts folks head expoldey)

has this burnt enough bridges, yet?