sean patrick and bryan are going out tonight, and i wanted to go.
like i wanted to go to the 24 marathon and the cowboy bebop marathon.

i want to spend time in a pack, with the rest of them, not one on one, though i shouldnt bitch cause danielle patrick and i spent a weekend together, and bryan and patrick and i spent two weeks together.

but i am remembering how much fun it was when bryan, pat, anthony and someone else had.

beer and pizza is becoming an excercise in gender norming, as i expected, since erik first invited me as way to socialize me, and with the addition of more grand prarie folks the discussion turns into tits and ass.

wanted to talk to jeff about church, but he has not called or emailed me back, which makes me think i need to pull back and stop panicing.

i had a massive depressive episode on sat. and i couldnt reach someone until bryan called late-i need to stop depending on people.