odd day, long meeting, awkard as hell, its the queer thnig, and i just feel like im fucking up, constantly, i just dont get the structure, etc

and then verge of nervous breakdown, got lost, et al, but saw a good 90 minutes of aarons show, which was excelent, then drinks and stuff with him and his pals.

i noticed this at the bbq last sunday, and then today with aaron, in that it was abutting the queer thing...i think one of the reasons why im xian or why i feel comfortable w xians, is that they are sue to or kindly benevolent towarsd other peoples fuck ups. they are good at handling the fuck ups. & im a fuck up