Provincal Nurses got a raise of 24 percent this year

Provincal Doctors got a raise of 16 percent this year

Provincal Lawyers got a raise of 12 percent this year

Memebers of the Provincal Legisature got 21 percent this year

Teachers , payed for by the province , got a 4 pecent raise thgis year . Two percent next year

Teachers Mentor,Coach, Edit Newspapers and Yearbooks and spend the enormity of time gettign the shaft. Well this year they decided to say fuck you.


THEY ARE ON STRIKE and the strike vote was about 70 percent in favour.

i have been listening to 60s pop from california lately. The soft sublet lovely sounds of people who drive arround and look at the sky and never really do anything. The exquiste locheness is comforting .
Everything sounds lush from the overproduced strings to the croooing voices. They think they are creatign a better world and maybe its the lack of heat here but goddammit is sounds they might be right.



And they all have this travelling rootless air.

I am cold and want to go to 7-11 but really cannot be arsed. Laziness or the weather ?

There has been almost a foot of snow in the last week and its getting close to 20 below celsius.
I yearn for Vancouver where no one is helpful and its rainy and the view from the airport surrounds the water like a translucent amorphus web

Where i can walk for hours

Where there are cedars,holly,junipers and ferns. Where the air is so moist the salt clings to your skin.

Where everything is fecund

If you know where to go you can live all yourself on sushi and lebanese pastries (the ones with figs and hoeny)

Theres a show every week and there is a train that races the ocean if you want to go to seattle or california
where i can go to 12 galleries a week and see good art instead of having the same convos in the same two galleries with the same people . I am bored here , i need to feel the earth move and my body shake with something other then exhaustion. An exhaustion that makes me post the same entry twice and lose the prolouge .





Geoff is in Brisbane and i miss my 2 am icqs though hes mailed everyday and i want to get drunk on gin and pineapple juice and have sex in the middle of jasper avenue . But i will write and keep warm and with my blanket on my shoulders like a cape . In June i get to go east again , all the way to june.

Well i am no longer angry at the NDP . I am disgusted. Tommy Douglas founded this party to make eure the working classes were well taken care of . Alexa McDonugh has given that up. Fuck the working classes there is money to be made and seats to be gained. Yah we know the health care system is in shambles,Welfare is being gutted . We know that Canada is pushing this WTO thing . We know immigrants are being fucked over and the reserves are just as bad as they ever were. We know tution is being upped and EI is being reduced . Food Banks are doing record buisness. The NDP used to do silly shit like pointing this out They used to provide a critical oppisotion . Now, well lets sell out. Lets stuff that heratiage up the dead ass of the sainted Mr Douglas. Why do we need to actually care about the way people are fed ,clothed, made safe if we can get elected. The only working class that Princess Alexa has seen have been cleaning her shitters.

Well i am no longer angry at the NDP . I am disgusted. Tommy Douglas founded this party to make eure the working classes were well taken care of . Alexa McDonugh has given that up. Fuck the working classes there is money to be made and seats to be gained. Yah we know the health care system is in shambles,Welfare is being gutted . We know that Canada is pushing this WTO thing . We know immigrants are being fucked over and the reserves are just as bad as they ever were. We know tution is being upped and EI is being reduced . Food Banks are doing record buisness. The NDP used to do silly shit like pointing this out They used to provide a critical oppisotion . Now, well lets sell out. Lets stuff that heratiage up the dead ass of the sainted Mr Douglas. Why do we need to actually care about the way people are fed ,clothed, made safe if we can get elected. The only working class that Princess Alexa has seen have been cleaning her shitters.

I am sorry if my blog did not make sense . I meant i was heading to the University for a concert. I got in on Claireview with a full train. But there was a hockey game at the Cloiseum and the train was empty for half my trip. The concert itself had 20 people while across town the hockey game had 1000 times that. Sometimes how far you are away from other people is made beyond clear .
The concert Itself was magnifcent. There was a whole new instrument and a midi manipulater and a jazz master playing counterpoint to a tape and a disklavier . It was an maazing hybrid a way to find the warmth and richness of acoustic instruments and the randomness, automation, and mainuplitve powers of technology. As well it featured an instrument i had never heard of.
Its called the Axio and it is roughly cruciform . On the left hand is what looks like a palm pilot attached to a joystick. It moves left,right,up and down. It needs to be used with great delicacy and can control timbre and direction of sound . On the right is a mini synth. with about 16 keys that produces acoustic rather then elctronic sound. Over the Shoulder like a Cello Fret is another keyboard that thru an apple program manipultes the sounds and adds new ones. By direction i mean there are eight speakers set up in a nontognal room so the sound becomes immersive.
The last bit was a 20 minutes jam between a bass clairnet , trumpet , the axio and a midi system . The music was played, anayzed and disscaoted at the same time . Sorry i did not have the oppurtuinty to write this last night. Geoff emailed ne slightly confused

In the last three days i have heard the rumour that Morissey and Michael Stipe is dating. Hot , i tell you .

I just came back from an amazing concert. 20 people decided avant garde electroacoustic music was good. 20 000 decided The Oilers were good. It makes me feel awkard.

stripped pine floors

birch furniture ( esp. the Aalto stuff).

Frank O'Hara Poetry ( esp the line In that orange shirt you look like a/better happier St Sebastion )

John Cage Sonotas (3:15 into the first one for prepared piano) .

The prose of Mavis Gallant.(esp her French Stories)

Midnight in a hay field looking at the stars .

Mother MAybelle Carters Voice.

Plaster Statues of Catholic Saints ( Rain Damaged)

Silver Jewlery imbeded w. Citirne or Peroidit or amethyst.

The Milk Kitchens in Synagouges .

3 am on a train from Edmonton to Vancouver.

Swimming at the Mount Douglas Park ocean beach in Victoria.

The Color of Flesh in Titian .

Agnes Martins Pencil Drawings.

Spensers Sonents. Ophelias Flower Speech in Hamlet.

Fra Angelico painting Buildings.

The Jonas Salk Instutite in Le Jolla Ca.

Clavicles, Wrists and the triangle of hair when one button is undone

Eames Chairs

The Friezes in Angkor Watt

The deer in Persion Minature Paintings

Dan Delillos the body artist

Vargas Girls

George Platt Lynes Boys

Auden

The Seafarer translated by Pound

The Anthology of American Folk Music

Boots Clacking on hard wood floors

Nina Simone yearning

De Koonings Black and White ink drawings

72 views of Mount Fuji by Houksai

The way a hard penis arches like a graceful bridge towards the belly

A Pinot Noir from California

Roe,Tuna,Salmon,Urchin and Eel on a greygreen sushi platter

Graneries at dusk

Mashed Potatoes with Rosemary and Garlic

Grand Central Station

Japanese Tatimi Mattes

White on White Chinese Poetry from the tang dynasty

The Ausertity of Glenn Goulds Goldberg Varitions

Pink Narcsisous

The Last Scene in Umbrellas of Cherbourg with the Snow and Denuve hidden in the Mercedes

Quilts

The Spirit Of G-d Jublaition Protestant Hymns


My Answers to the thread What is Really Beauty

I turned on CNN a few days ago and a White House robot announced that the rebels in Chechnya "were" no longer freedom fighters but "are" now terrorists with "clear" links to Osama bin Laden.

CNN provided no details about whether the transformation occured in a sudden miraculous flash like the transubstantiation of the host in a Catholic mass, or happened slowly and gradually like Darwinian evolution.

In a related bulletin, Russia pledged its support in the War Against Some Terrorists, and will presumably start with those bastards in Chechnya.

Robert Anton Wilson

Dec 1 is international Day W/O Art . Get your plans in now because non creation takes as much planning as creation

Its been a while i know . I am thinking of reading infinite jest .

Found on a John Cage messageboard: "I was searching through napster recently and i was curious to see if anyone had 4'33 as an MP3 on their computer. It turns out that 27 people had it, but not one of the recordings was 4'33 seconds long. Pretty odd but im not sure what it means...."

mine was 4:33 but i deleted it , i thought having it was a waste of memory .

Broken and the link missing at the rib... and the halo lowly cast ...
Scott Walker


I went to a mormon baptism today . James, the person being baptized was Catholic, then after infancy his parents become fervored protestants) There were hymns , then a speech, then two sopranos singing about the holy spirit , then the baptism itself. After the baptisim i snuck off to the empty mother room. I turned on the Public Address System and read the bible while listening to the people talk about "the one true church". Usually at this point I want to Purge its influence

... St Theresas calling her , the church up on the hill is looking lovely but it didn't nterest... the only thing she wants to know is how and where and when to go ... how and where and when and why to follow ...

Belle and Sebastion

This Summer has been pretty bad . I had two friends who killed themself. My grandmother finally succumbed to alzheimers . I quit one dead end job and started another . I found refuge in some things but the Catholicsm that sustained my intellectual and aesthic senses failed to comfort my soul .

I talked before the baptism to a fellow who converted the other way (Catholic to Mormon like James), trying to explain the reasons why i am catholic . They are not of the spirit . They are of the flesh or the mind. He said your church and my church . I guess the Catholic Chuch is monotheist, but i have been trained to doubt . My father taught me about pluriasm and my mother taught be about tolerance.

The Truth is Rarely pure and never simple
Oscar Wilde

This was James's day and he is giving up his family for Tara and The One True Church . This stabilty proves comforting. When you are taught about the multipcity of truth then nothing is real . Everything is questioned and doubted . You learn to read for bias . You recontextualize until the author is dead and the text is irrelavant . This is helpful because it means that nothing is simple , it makes you feel clever .

Maybe its like the streets in any big city. Thousands of people follow the same stretch of concrete everyday and they do not notice the seweres,subways,electrical lines under that stretch. Maybe its a mirage , one of those hopewishfever dreams or those streets in the backlots of Studio City .

Does it matter if the movies are tricks of light and shadow when the memories keep you warm in the theatre that inhabits your brain. Does it matter that only plumbers get to see the acess tunnels . Do you have to be in a fever to see the mirage , does realzing its a mirage give you more comfort

But Love has pitched his mansion in /
The Place of Excerment .

Yeats

Crazy Jane Talks To The Bishop

I was Excommunicated by the Mormon Church. I was a homosexual and i should have been shamed . The Church humailted me . They told me , made me sign a sheet that said i understood the gift of the holy spirit given to me at baptism had been rescinded .
Kafka has been misunderstood. The word Kafakaseque should use the kind of betrayal made cold by beroucrats . They told me i was filthy, they told me i should be worried about heartbreak because i was incapable of love and death because of AIDS . But at the baptism i felt the still small voice . I felt the holy spirit . The logical inconstinceies of systems ? I know James will feel free and happy there . Maybe because he is in love but mostly because he fits in . The Mormon Community is warm and gentle . They remember you with fondness even when you have been forced to/left on yr own.

In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you

John 14:2

When i was a child i was told that this would mean a reward of heaven . I think this is not the case , i think this is a case of plurualism . I think God recognized he was unknowabel and humans are petty . They needed a tactial example . They needed to know that there were many rooms and if you found discomfort in the company of one room , it did not matter . This is Gods House and it is large enough for many mansions . Forgive my anger , i have forgotten my mansion and become envious of yours James. I couldn't live there but i am glad you have found a place in The Fathers house.

Today i was hanging w. a buddy in the engineer lounge and i saw a huge sign that listed the corprate sponsors of the Engineers Student Assoc. I have activley protested 5 out of the 9 companies. This is why artists starve.

The International System is used by most and it makes more sense, so quite being stubborn



I am thinking of joining a bowling leauge .

Oprah is a borgie bitch whose book club slections are weepies that even Barbra Stanwyck would run from fear from.

Can i get my National Book Award Now ?

b> Random Thoughts , News, Links, Quotes , art talk, way too personal information

1) I cannot find any web information on Atilla Richard Lukas. I love his work but only have seen 9 paintings and a dozen sketches.

2) I am bringing brownies to a mormon baptism on Saturday . This baptism is really confusing me because i am not sure of the intentions of those involved . Of course it is none of my business what the intentions are but the gentleman getting baptized is risking losing his family over this . No faith is worth that much

3) Google supported Monets birthday by painting the into screen in an impressionist style . It made me realize how much i loved Andy

4) I want to fuck a coffee server at my local cafe. It has become a minor obsession. I am too scared to ask him though .

5) At the Momus Gig last monday people called Momus Nick. He was in a stage persona it seemed wrong .

6) Apparently there is an odd English show called the Moomins . I have heard there names 5 times in the last 12 days , i thought i should mention it because it has become so common in my life

7) I really wanted to get stoned in Vancouver and at least a score of strangers offered me the honour but i really did not trust the source , now that i am back home my craving has gone .
8) This is what Suzy Corrigan said about Tracy Emin :

Transparency is good. I found the early work raw (for me, a word with positive associations) and was touched by it, particularity the building-up of a narrative through the use of mementos, some of which are incredibly painful for me to look at, eg. the crumpled pack of cigarettes removed from the pocket of her uncle at the scene of his death, in a crash. I see the noose/condoms piece and think of sex and death, but I'm part of the generation who had to cope with this thing called AIDS from about the first second I ever considered having a sex life, which I know for a fact is something Tracy has done a lot of thinking about (that's what the tent is about, according to one interpretation she gave at the publishers lunch for our book launch).

I see the cataloguing of things which are 'fleeting' and recontextualised in an exhibit, kept in the permanent collections of museums. The contradiction entices me. I think she is a very powerful female artist in the first ten years of her career; she uses a lot of materials (quilts, felt) that we associate with softness and femininity and makes them hard, or hard to look at. I think she is VERY intelligent and makes some of the more dysfunctional aspects of her nature understandable to the rest of us, and I personally do not ever feel like I am watching a freak show or being wound up through attempts to shock. Much of the time I see also her annoyance with the male gaze and male appraisal, eg. the Margate 'slag' video piece. Then she turns her relentless eye for cataloguing back to herself, and has the different parts of her personality talk to each other and fight over what she should do with her life. What she is showing is all true, which makes her distinct from spin doctors, although she does have many of the same talents for storytelling. I think it is TOO EASY, when an artist uses the visceral, to say that it's all down to shock value. She is one of the least superficial artists I can think of working today.

This is really cool because i have been trying to get Tracys work forever . I thought it was because it was abject, filthy . But i think she is correct , Ms Emins work has caused be discomfort because it is so naked

9) Geoff and I are working on a web project. 100 queer erotic poems . It is meant as a sampler of sexual tastes, identities and practices through out history. There has been in our attempts to gain social justice a leeching of our sex . I wanted to celebrate how and why queers fuck and who they fuck as vital .

10) In the book Gay New York which i am reading shows the diffrence in identity in the first half of the 20th Century . Roughly the passive homosexual was considered a different gender then the Active Inserter or a WOman . Often Working Class men when unable to find a woman would find a fairy

11) As early as 1890 there were live sex acts in the Bowery . Between Men.

12) 1.7 billion dollars are being cut from the Albertan Budget this year !

13) There is an Avedon photo of a nude Joe Delliano (sp) and a nude Candy DArling . They are at the oppisote ends of a gate way folder .

On the right is short but butch. He has tattos curling up his arms , his cock is half hard, his hair is Paris island Short . He has his arms crossed across his chest .

Candys cock is vestigial and her tits look like Jane Mansfield. Her face is caked in Max Factor and she has blood red lips ( its a b&w photo but you can tell)

13a)Joe slept with men but claimed he was not gay
Candy had a penis but claimed she had 365 periods a year

13b) Candy died trying to be a woman and people remember her for that , She was the Madame Pompadour of the Factory

15) I feel Nostalgia for the Mormon Church

16) i got new glasses they are rubber and thin steel wire . they look handsome . However you can now tell i am an artphag w/o the 30 sex. of conversation .

17) My blog, the one you are reading is on google . i feel really bizarre and yes i did a vanity search .
18 ) . my d.o.a column

eggnog,fruitcake,peppermint ice cream in that most lovely pink color,mandrian oranges .

Its november and although i am busy writing and learning and trying to save my job ( never get into a pissing contest with somebody with larger kidneys) i am taking unestimable joy in the food

soon we will get figgy pudding and wasial ( i learnt there are at least 3 diffrent wassaling songs) . I am tired and cannot be arsed to write much more . tomorrow i will post a bunch of personal stuff.

Please keep a minute of silence for soilders and citizens that died in miltary action at 11:11 am today.

Even if you are a pacfist , those who died in battles should not also suffer our disrespect

This is not jingoism , this is mercy

When i am in edmonton i have 5 dollars of change hidden in my backpack for people who need it more then me. Sometimes it lasts the day , most of the time it lasts the week. In Vancouver it didnt last the hour, i was 25 dollars short in two days. When people are hungry and i am spending money on luxiries i feel guilty. But you can only afford so much and i gave up. I looked in there eyes and said sorry.

As a human it feels like a common bond to make sure everyone is fed. I cannot do it alone. Our governments are gutting social programs and providing tax cuts to large corprations . Not for profits and concerned citizens can only do so much for those are desperate.

Christ told his people explicitly a dozen times about the evils of greed . He rallied violently against usury . He made sure the pariahs were healed and the pharises were and what do most churches rally against. Homosexuailty ( using a fairly obscure section of Romans), Abortion ( Christ did not mention it once) and making church cool for young folks. Well in the name of Christ how about following the words of Christ , I cannot provide all the hepl to all the beggars but lets pressure the government to "turn swords into plowshares" , lets tax corprations. Let them pay even 1 % of there gross net profit irrgeardless of shelters. I know it wont be the eye of the needle. Lets seperate church and state, let the rome for the ceasers . Lets share our loaves and fishes *( the miracle there was not creation out of ether but people giving that which they hid ) Remember Matthew 25:35-46.

I know there will be athesits and jains and jews that read this. These laws seem human and i am relating them to christ because i know the bible well enough to make my case. This came to light after hearing about John Howard winning in Australia . He claims he is a Methodist, a man of Christ but destroys refugees, makes the hungry starve, and encourages War. The same with George W. Bush . Maybe Neitsze was right, maybe the last Christan died on the cross.

Today we had airline tickets on Canada 3000 to edmonton . They went belly up and we were stuck in Vancouver for 6 hours until we could find air canada tickets. AAAAAAAAAAAARGH !

anyways i am back from my week away and need sleep so i will blog everything tomorrow , plus my D.O.A column.

On 9/12/01 an honor gaurd came on the qaud of West Point. They played tap on the bugle and amazing grace on the drum. They had a minute of solemn silence and there obligation done they went on with their business.

On 9/12/01 in Berkely the anti war demonstartoes were at the same place, with the same scrawled signs at the same time.

On 9/12/01 Barry Sandler had a No. 1 hit for the first time since the end of the Veitnam War and Bob Dylans With GOd on Our Side was downloaded the most often.

Now our Gold is safe and we are seeking vegance forgetting the Holy Texts say thats Gods Job . People are marchign for peace and People are signing up to die . This American Chasm seems to have occured since the Qaukers and the Purtians arrived.

Speakign of which Four hospitals/Storage Areas shared by The Red CRoss/Red Crescent and Doctors without Borders have been destroyed by Missiles. Doctors without borders helped with triage and are helping the Afghans as well. They need money to make sure people live and are fed .So give them money

Its Ramadan and religous concerns override basic hunger

I went to the optratemist today and i need new glasses, my eyes are getting worse. i got fired yesterday and am exhausted . i spent two hours in a cafe drinking coffee and reading American Gods by Gaiman . Its good , manges to move quickly and still be realtivly deep. It has alot ot say about the immigrant experince. i know i promised a long entry but i have felt blocked lately. I am working on my clumn for D.O.A about vancouver and writing a thing about Catholicism. I am editing some poetry as well.

this will be the last really short post.
i am goign to vanocuver on the weekend and i am a bit harried.

today i walked downtown with a woman dressed as a pyschotic clown , she intoned the word labia a dozen times