AnthonySEaston (1:17:51 AM): the thing is its going to seem perverse, but i like britney in a way i never liked jagger
pattismithsmense (1:19:11 AM): pseudo differentiation - same effect, different face - after all, britney went from virgin to hit me to hit up wot mamma, and that's just the last 5 years
pattismithsmense (1:19:39 AM): although i gotts say niehter micks nor birtney's lips have ever done a damn thing for my hose
AnthonySEaston (1:20:03 AM): i think satisfaction is the pivot, and well jagger never had one,
pattismithsmense (1:20:50 AM): no, it's all illusion, which britney does better - yes you may open my vagina with your massive artillery shell as opposed to i'm a horny british man will you suck me
AnthonySEaston (1:21:51 AM): i dont even think she has a vagina, she has something cleaner and more precise
pattismithsmense (1:22:06 AM): imaginable vagina
pattismithsmense (1:22:19 AM): without the blood, sweat and tears ;-)
AnthonySEaston (1:23:11 AM): thats why we hate her kid and her husband, she made the vagina real
pattismithsmense (1:24:14 AM): yeah exactly... although we don't seem to hate jessica simpson as much, but I guess she never claimed purity
AnthonySEaston (1:24:51 AM): well she dropped it quickly, and we are hating her--have you seen the nick news, hes weeping like the wronged woman, and posing like the cover of honcho

more research on lyle lovett:

Stand by yr man orignally on the 1989 LL and the Large Band:

"a disarmingly earnest cover of Tammy Wynette’s “Stand by Your Man,”
matt delinger, nyer, 2004-02-23

The singer, many of whose songs have a strain of misogyny, capped his set on a note of twisted humor by belting out the Tammy Wynette classic ''Stand By Your Man.''
Stephen Holden, NY Times, 1988

The most interesting thing about Houston's own Lyle Lovett is the way he's never quite what people assume he is. Even when people see past the surface of his laconic, gentlemanly demeanor, they seem to get it wrong. The Crying Game notwithstanding, the disturbing thing about his cover of Tammy Wynette's "Stand By Your Man" doesn't lie in gender-bending or homosexual panic: It's the almost subliminal way the lyric goes from tearful female masochism to leering male sadism without changing a single word, just because of the gender of the singer. Lovett slips a lot of (perhaps ironic) sadism and misogyny into his lyrics, from the bedroom ropin'-and-ridin' imagery in "Cowboy Man" to the murderous husband of "Pontiac" ("And I might just leave her still / after the sun goes down"). The theoretically down-home Lovett is also a bit of a cosmopolitan sophisticate: He met ex-wife Julia Roberts while acting in a Robert Altman film, and on his latest CD, My Baby Don't Tolerate, he offhandedly boasts, "I've been to Paris / and I don't mean Texas / I met Wim Wenders / One time in London." Still, how many of Lovett's fans care to parse his layers of reference and irony is a moot issue: He remains a great, subtle jazz-via-country singer, and his Large Band is a force of musical nature.
Stephen Feingold, Houstan Press, Sept 15 2005
(That lyric is a refutation or a fuck you to WE Aint The Jet Set)


.. When critics accused him of misogyny, Lovett responded on his third album, Lyle Lovett and His Large Band, with a deadpan version of "Stand By Your Man."
Texas Monthly, Sept, 1992

If you've really listened, you appreciate the fact that his recordings are beautifully crafted. When I first heard his straight-as-an-arrow rendition of the Tammy Wynette classic "Stand By Your Man," I was knocked out by the perfection of the arrangement, and by how close his voice comes to the edge when he holds that note while singing "...give him all the love you ca-a-a-a-a-a-a-n." After spending years trying to figure out his angle, I've finally come to realize that there is no angle..
Stephen Wacker, July 11 2001, here: http://www.wackerwordsandmusic.com/MusicEssays/LyleCraftsman2.html

1. cat power - (i can't get no) satisfaction
2. rolling stones - (i can't get no) satisfaction
3. devo - (i can't get no) satisfaction
4. bjork an pj harvey - (i can't get no) satisfaction
5. guitar wolf - (i can't get no) satisfaction
6. Britney Spears - (I can't get no) Satisfaction
7. The Residents - (I can't get no) Satisfaction
8. Television - (I can't get no) Satisfaction
9. Fushitsusha: (I Can't Get No) Satisfaction
10. The Masked Marauders: (I Can't Get No) Nookie
11. Samantha Fox: (I Can't Get No) Satisfaction
12. los apsons - satisfaccion (no soy nada)
13. blue cheer - satisfaction
14. trad, gras och stenar - satisfaction
17. Jonathan King: (I can't get no) Satisfaction
18. Jimi Hendrix - (I can't get no) Satisfaction
19. Rolf Harris - Satisfaction
20. The Vienna Symphony Orchestra - (I can't get no) Satisfaction
21. Paul Revere & the Raiders - Satisfaction
22. Nicky Hopkins - (I can't get no) Satisfaction
23. Andrew Loog Oldham Orchestra & Chorus - (I can't get no) Satisfaction
24. Sam & Dave - (I can't get no) Satisfaction
25. Space Cowboys - Satisfaction
26. Eddie & the Hot Rods: (I can't get no) Satisfaction
27. Alien Sex Fiend - Satisfaction
28. The Troggs - Satisfaction
29. Aretha Franklin: (I can't get no) Satisfaction (live)
30. Manfred Mann - Satisfaction
31. The Grateful Dead - Satisfaction
32. Tight Fit - (I can't get no) Satisfaction
33. The Thirteenth Floor Elevators - Satisfaction
34 Vanilla Ice - (I can't get no) Satisfaction
34. ? & the Mysterians - (I Can't Get No) Satisfaction
35 justine bateman [from the movie]
36 del rubio triplets
37 incredible bongo band
38 phyllis diller [from golden throats]

(from this thread: http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=3101723)

the only two worthwhile ones, britneys and cats

britneys ive talked about, cats is more complicated, more problematic--cause its so soft, and so insistent, and so desperate, and because it takes away all of the double negatives, and reorders thoughts, ideas of desire, and because of that plaintive, almost western, swing in the instrumental bits--and because when she sings baby baby baby come back, it reminds me of all those heart breakin' crooners--like skeeter davis' end of the world, or tammy wynette stand by my man or even the brad/sara aint it sad to be famous schtick, amongst others--britneys is a musical deconstruction of it, cats just takes it away)

country blues to blues to rock and roll to pop

orignal hiway 61
what the fuck is that sound in the beginning, the electronic whirly bits
american mythic cryptic beat bullshit, with all the violence
derrida or lacan who talked about jacob
who are geroge and sam here
the work is more difficult to lsiten to, more angular, more spiky then the stones,
mac the finger, etc
1000 telephones that dont ring--the impossiblity of communication in an age of communicaiton, freshman, wank wank wank
61 is 66 is becuse its easier to rhyme
3rd daughter, 5th son, family, incest themes, etc, its all in here
the squelling, carnival, whirls and pulls again afetr the 3rd and fourth verse and again towards the end...
just go to the dylanologists, they do the hard work of unpacking

rolling stones (out of my element, cant write about it well)

the tambourine.
the instrumental orginal opening
i cant get no, i cant get no, i cant get no (the stutter start literalises shooting the wad--the whole song is about shooting yr wad b/4 the time that is approite.
cant be a man/cause he doesnt smoke/the same brand of cigarettes as me
the terror of unstable gender, or something like that?
its a criticism of capitalism, a conflation of sex and capital, a sort of commenting on women as sexual beings, and them as whores?
the half sentences, the constant repetion, the grinding guitars, the propuslive ryhthym meant to be a metonymy of coitus, but that metonyomy seems almost a parody? (5 years later, that same soundtrack becomes sexphobic, becomes afraid of pleasures and bodies, with punk)
is this proto punk
why c ant i read this?

woodie this land is yr land--

things to note
1) the abstraction of the locations, the iconic nature of the locations
2) how it really seems fairly costal (ie first verse: california/ny highland/redwood forrest/gulfstream water)
3) hiway/skyway/below me/valley
4) even from minnesota, its about the idea of america, as opposed to the reality of america, (but then, so is america the beautiful, my country tis of thee, et al et al, even battle hymn (vowells essay in briars and roses edited by marcus)
5) dustbowl, voices chanting may be less ideal, less progressive, the hints not stripped from populist usage.
6) the mythical sixth verse, and touch on that...
7) what the hell does sparkling sounds of diamond deserts mean, people forget how rhetorical, how constructed a singer guthrie is.
8) he also cant sing (ie all my favourite singers couldnt sing)

Lyle Lovett--Stand By Your Man

(note the self reflective irony, the wit of lovett, and his work as a sort of anti cowboy, and also note that the song was first recorded for the crying game soundtrack, its status in drag acts, and the political implications of that movie)

notes on it:

the song really does have a masculine superiority vibe to it, and if a man sings it, it would (could, more likely ot) sound phallocentric, imperial almost--its a song sung by women for women (in a domestic, secret knowledge kind of way, like sirks movies were performed by women for women)

this performance of the work, the strength of Lovetts prerformance, is how pitch perfect it is, it rises when Tammy rises, it lowers when tammy rises, and hte instrumentation are pitch perfect

then it is not an act of drag as much as it is an act of great tenderness and devotion, lovett loves this woman, loves this song as an artist and performer (find qoutes for this)

Britney Spears Satisfaction

electronic opening, effuslive, and shimmering, like the sound effects for a disney movie signifying magic--its all over this, the sparkle

the first time she says i cant get not satisfaction, its talk singing, in a ballad style, and it real does sound like shes signifying sex

there has to be a button somewhere, that says "start me up"

i like it, because its so glam, so robotic, so much about a sort of preprogrammed desire

is this pradoic, commentary on, or something else, how clever is this

really quite a standard (other covers include:

girly action can me:
some lesbiantronic thing (ie mtv movie awards thing, with the
a baptists belief in the impentrability of the text
a femminizing of desire--instead of girly action meaning action done by girls for mean, girly action could mean action done by girls for their own liberation (ie the girls are doing it for themselves)

"tight my skirts should be/white my shirts should be/my own idenitiy)"
white shirts=a borgie, 3 peice purity
tight skirts=an ambiguity towards being a good girl, the end of this spec. performance, perhaps?

she ends up singing to herself, in trios, trick of studio production, but the cloning , and multiplicity of self i think is impt towards something?

its an ugly song, and propulsive in ways that the four to the floor orignal isnt, but the sheeny, harm of the song, makes it different somehow)

im reading delillios white noise, and yesterday morning, all over town new sirens and loud speakers were being tested. it was eerie. (esp since i couldnt hear anything being said)

The democratization of media, with cheap digital cameras, memory sticks, small and portable cameras that are very durable, and a surveillance culture lead by the Internet have all lead to photos from war zones being sent by soldiers, insurgents, and others outsides of traditional photo-journalism. This leads to work that was considered too shocking, bloody, banal or amateurish is now among the central view of how we view violence committed to others.

There are a number of examples, of this kind of new publishing. For example, the creation and dissemination of the Abu Gharib photos: from the web, to mainstream magazines of every stripe, to CNN and then Congress. There are others, the forums on Now That’s Fucked Up, made for soldiers, that have images of either sex/nudity or violence/death, and the slippage between these two halves of the site—including free memberships for posting amateur nudes is as indicative of these patterns as GQ running a photo essay of military pictures taken by those serving, adding a forum on their website and then a book published by a prominent art house.

Though all of these examples are about those in war zones, it attaches itself to such varied phenomena as amateur footage broadcast on the nightly news, the popularity of non-professional and gonzo pornography, the yahoo owned photo upload site Flickr storing 100 million pictures, and the slow death of film manufactures like Minolta, Konica, Fuji and Kodak.

Tying economic reportage with cultural analysis, using military culture as a springboard, I want to deconstruct the implications of this digital ubiquity. There is something new here that invades modern/post-modern ways of looking, and this needs to be analyzed.

Reading List for Sanctuary Book

Ancient Isreal in Siani
Hoffmeir
BS 124.52 H64 2005
U/A


Boundries of the Law...
Anthony Museen, ed.
KJ 147 B68 2005


No god but God : the origins, evolution, and future of Islam
Reza Aslan.
Maybe not available


Women in the sanctuary movement
Robin Lorentzen.
BV 4466 L869 1991

Sanctuary : a story of American conscience and the law in collision)
Ann Crittenden.
BV 4466 C935 1988

(all u of a, good places to start/poke around from there

Singles (Country) So Far this year:

Garth Brooks Allison Miranda
Toby Keith Get Drunk and Be Somevody
Bubba Sparxx Be Right Here
Tim and Faith Like We Never Loved at All
Kris Kristofferson--Pilgrims Walk
JEssi Colter-The Phoenix Rises
Carrie Underwood--Jesus Take the Wheel
Josh Turner--Your Man
Neko Case--John Has Yr Number

Albums
Jessi Colter--Out of the Ashes
Neko Case Tiger Brings the Flood
Toby Kieth White Trash w, Money.

saw the first half of helen mirren playing Bess tonite, and i loved it, for the following reasons

1) her seductive qaulity, her wit, and her fury, made her seem more real to me, then for example the glacial coldness of cate blanchett or what ever the hell bette davis was doing (i havent seen glenda, yet)
2) the violence was really hard core, the double chop of queen marys head, the disembowleing
3) the sheer boredom of the court, the intriuge, and how limited it was--i keep being obsessed about the symbolic meanings of the minuet, the control of the body, the control of the state, etc
4) it made her hatred of catholics seemed to be an extension, a narrative, that came from natural sources, the intriuge of mary the scott, adn the armada, etc...
5) how it complicated the gender signifers of elizabeth, how she played femme when it suited, and man when it suited, and how she was something singualr and different...
6) how unpretty (ie unstylised) it was

we get the elizabeth we deserve, i think...the movie is remade every decade or so, like joan of arc or hamlet, as a way to put a mark into where our progess is eurocentrically at least...

& the lyrics--i think one of the things thats most impt in the whole queer struggle, is fucking, is fucking for all sorts of reasons, and i think one of our best weapons against homophobia, heteronormative behaviour, and heterosexism, is to realise that our culture fucks differently, and that (as a gay male) the goals of solidatary, fellowship, pleasure, tenderness and radical otherness can be centered in places where breeders fear to dwell...

what i like about rufus, is that hes not afraid of his history--of all his history, and gay messiah for me, is a fantastic text because it allows nostalgia but does not veer into the dangers of sentimentality...

he writes well.

here are the lyrics for gay messiah, the song that i linked to below:
(remember the gay jesus poem that got the english poet in trouble in the mid 70s, the last case of blasphemey that was successfully proscuted there--well this is a post queer, post colonial remix of that v. dull excercise in shock politics)

He will then be reborn
From 1970's porn
Wearing tubesocks with style
And such an innocent smile

Better pray for your sins
Better pray for your sins
'Cuz the gay messiah's coming

He will fall from the stars
Studio 54
And appear on the sand
Of Fire Island's shore

Better pray for your sins
Better pray for your sins
'Cuz the gay messiah's coming

No it will not be me
Rufus the baptist I be
No I won't be the one
Baptized in cum

What will happen instead
Someone will demand my head
And then I will kneel down
And give it to them looking down

Better pray for your sins
Better pray for your sins
'Cuz the gay messiah's coming

its apparently blog against hetronormativity day
nubian from blac(k)academic says so here
so heres an mp3 about cocksucking
YSI

For Brendas 80th

19th century illustration from the first biological survey of cuba:



SQUIDDIES

Permutations of an idea

L O
VE

AI
DS

R I
OT

HA
TE

Robert Indinia
General Idea
Gran Fury
Gavin McInnis

A fantastic blog post, where a guy writes smart, short commentaries on the American Demographic maps of Religion--most of which I knew already, but well worth having an image in yr head:

here

(the quirks are the best bit, the large sections of lutherans in texas, the differences b.w the missouri and ecla synods in the midwest, the counties in the dakotas and arizona/new mexico, where they seem areligious, until you realise there is a first nation thing going on, the absence of methodists in the western half of the country, the persians of LA counties, and the general islamicism of Dearborn Michigan, etc and the unclaimedness of oregan

speaking of God--The Opus Dei's anti muslim cartoons are ony with a working knowledge of Dante and they want a little disclaimer on how the da vinci code is being mean to them, note
the hypocrisy but dont spend too much time on it

this guy paints people in custom mao posters the latest in commie chic, infused with western captialism,


John Brosio
Breathing
Oil on Panel
2006
He only paints pictures of Tornados, hes good.

Marc Quinn on Kate Moss (a working out of similar issues, wrt classicism and the grotesuqe, the opposite of his sculptures of living torso alison lechtel


Kirk Cameron witnesses to fags in WeHo and the Castro--like going into the Warsaw Ghetto to prosethise to the jews (esp. hilarous b/c he views his hamhanded attempts at tact as christian love
video here

I hve no idea what this means but Wal Mart just dumped 6.5 billon in inventory

Tony Fitzpatrick might be new favourite photorealist:


I 45, 2005


Penzoil Building (From his Amazing Curtain Wall Seires)

(both acrlyic on canvas--i love the colour, the cropping, the forced perspective, the reuse and reclaiming of mies word for impersonal monuments of glass and steel, and of course i have an obbessive love for the p/r shit, and late modernism--esp those slip on panels of solitary colour...)

We can quantify the deaths caused by both communism and fascism, but we will never know how many deaths have been the result of capitalism; of nothing more noble than a rich man wanting to be even richer, and sacrificing the health and lives of millions of workers to achieve this. Don't even try to count how many people capitalism has killed, because not only will you not know where to begin, but also it will never end.
Julie Burchill

rachel let me read her thesis, its wit, skill, surface, readability, design and structure act as a trojan horse, allowing ideas of fetish, gender, sexuality in--dangerous ides, biographical ideas, sexual ideas...

one of the best, most solid, most interesting peices of theoritical writing i have engaged in, and lacking the prenentiousness expected.

wow!wow!wow!

From This Weeks Us Magazine:

American IDol judge Simon Cowell, 47, dissed host Ryan Seacrest's romance with Teri Hatcher 41,on the April 4 ox Show. "Im not the one trying to look like someone out of Desperate Housewives. Lose The Beard!" the British bully scolded Seacrest, 31, who had recently grown facial hair similar to that of James Denton, 43, who playes Hatcher's long time crush on the ABC soap.

Note:
Beard is common homosexual slang for a female used to pass as a heterosexual. Simon Cowell was obliquely commenting on the rumours of Seacrests homosexuality

As for the business reasons for the change in emphasis, I doubt that there are any. I think this is all about Lacey's self-image, his compensating for his intellectual insecurity by imposing a big blustery capital J "We go out and get the stories" journalism bullshit on everything. That's based on how he comes across in the few interviews I've seen. I could be wrong. But if Westword is any indication, the man actually has no interest in getting the poop on how "the deal went down," despite what he says. Westword's office is six blocks from both the Colorado state capitol and the Denver city hall and has rarely covered either (I was going to say "never," but I really don't read the thing enough anymore to say this for sure). So there's been little attempt to probe into how power and authority actually work anywhere, though Michael Roberts has reported on Clear Channel's attempts to bully their way into dominance of the local concert scene. Basically, Westword is lifestyle, consumer guides, and human-interest stories, none of which I have any objection to in principle and none of which preclude actual ideas, if only the writers had any; the artist profiles end up as puff pieces, mostly.
kogan on poptimists.

thots on elvis' and big mama thortons hound dog

1) he adds the rabbit metaphor (ie you never caught a rabbit and you aint no friend of mine, which confuses me, what does the rabbit signify
2) its nastier, meaner then hortons
3) its louder, faster, it snarls, its more propulsive--its the start of elvis the pelvis
4) there is a distinction b/w pelvis and phallus, pelvic is most often signified female or queer (ie: gillian welch elvis presley blues (also useful for the resuerction motiff), anyways the pelvis qoute "shook like a chorus girl/and he shook it like a harlem queen/he shook it like a midnight rambler/like he never seen/like he never seen (notice the almost statacato shifts b/w gender, race and sexuality) also shook like a hurricane/shook like to make it rain/shook like a holy roller/baby/w. his soul at stake, his soul at stake) he shook it and it rained like silver, he shook it and it rang like gold/he shook it and it beat that steam drill.baby/bless my soul/bless my soul/whats wrong with me (conflating john henry and elvis--we dont need to talk about drills) like a chorus girl/harlem queen/midnight ramble/baby/like he never seen/never seen (the only chorus repeated)
5) From 51 Seconds to 1 minute 7 seconds, and from 1:19 to 1:38, there is no words at all, and not yodelling, scatting, etc--the guitars continue, and he just opens his mouth, and sings aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, ecstacy and sacred singing, glossalia, etc.
6) questions of class (you think yr such high class, but that was jsut a lie)
7) almost all chorus

Big Mama Thortons
1) The Rabbit motiff is absent, and the phrase sniffin round my door (door being slang for vagina in a blues argot
2) really more of a blues song, v. spec related to a spec genre
3) less cryptic (you told me i was high class/but i can see thru that/and daddy i know/you aint no river cat)
4) i aint goin to feed you more--the relation to care, to the domestic, the desire for settling, is refused w. a lack of stability. (aint looking for a woman/looking for a place like home)
5) lots of free form talking, almost reaching, searching, asscoiative, but does not detach itself from the written word, and the instrumentation is less connected
6) made me feel so good/made me weep and moan
7) last couple of seconds, frenzied barking

some qoutes:
(Elvis) was seriou sabout his work...Whenever (a vistor) went by the house, he found him wih a stack of re cords--ray charles and big joe turner and big mama thorton and arhtu big boy crudup, that he studied wil all the avidity t hat other kids focused on their college exams. he listend over and over, seeming to hear something that no one else could hear, while able to carry on a perfectly coherent conversation at the same time...(last train to memphis, 195)

hound do had been written by two white teenagrs, jerry leiber an mike stoller, who sepcalised in rhythm adn blues, and was a v. odd choice for a male perfermer, since it was written from a female point of view. nonetheless, it was the showstopper...and it sparked a determination on Elvis' part to incorparate it into his own show... (ibid, 273)

it had veered still further from big mama thorntons original latin flavoure "rhumba boogie" feel...and become a hard driving number powered by DJs tommy hun attack and a solo that SCotty later labeled ancient pyschedlia. whit the twenty sith take sholes thought they had it, but Elvis wanted to keep going. After the thirty-first take sholes annouced over the PA: okay elvis i think we got it (ibid. 298)

(i have no idea how the fuck guralnick gets rhumba beat, and of course, he doesnt rush to actually do any analysis...typed, so all grammar and spelling fuck ups are mine)

Now, the organization of the paper is being changed. Much of the front of the book is being overhauled. Mr. Ridgeway’s column has been killed, and so has Mr. Schanberg’s Press Clips column and Toni Schlesinger’s Shelter column, which provided quirky interactions with apartment and loft dwellers. The film-review budget has been cut by two-thirds, according to a source, and some film reviews are now being contributed by freelance writers from other New Times papers. According to Voice staffers, New Times has also dismissed The Voice’s three-person fact-checking department and laid off two of the five copy editors. Last month, Mr. Lacey killed interim editor Ward Harkavy’s blog, the Bush Beat. The end-page essay has been discontinued. Voice writers now have to use the New Times stylebook, and according to a source, there are words—including “meta” and “subversive”—that are now banned from the paper.

From the Observer Story, linked below

Story here

auf zur disko (10:29:59 PM): chuck eddy has been fired
auf zur disko (10:30:04 PM): new york is in mayhem mode right now
AnthonySEaston (10:33:39 PM): holy fuck
auf zur disko (10:33:45 PM): yeah
auf zur disko (10:33:48 PM): you didnt hear?
AnthonySEaston (10:33:56 PM): link, context, holy fuck, wow
auf zur disko (10:33:59 PM): it happened this evening
auf zur disko (10:34:03 PM): you can look at ILM
auf zur disko (10:34:06 PM): look at hte voice threads
AnthonySEaston (10:34:09 PM): i spent the day working on an essay
auf zur disko (10:34:14 PM): really really horrible
auf zur disko (10:34:16 PM): they told chuck
auf zur disko (10:34:22 PM): in front of a bunch of people at a big meeting
auf zur disko (10:34:25 PM): that his music section
auf zur disko (10:34:27 PM): was too pedantic
auf zur disko (10:34:29 PM): and too academic
auf zur disko (10:34:34 PM): and that he was fired, effective this friday
AnthonySEaston (10:34:46 PM): what the fuck did they want,
AnthonySEaston (10:34:49 PM): im going to yell
AnthonySEaston (10:35:22 PM): STUPID MOTHERFUCKERS, STUPID COCKSUCKING MOTHERFUCKERS, WHO BREED STUPIDIITY LIKE SLUGS BREED OTHER SLUGS, IN THE DARK DANK MUCK OF IGNORANCE
AnthonySEaston (10:35:32 PM): FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
AnthonySEaston (10:35:36 PM): AND ALSO FUCK
AnthonySEaston (10:35:38 PM): there
AnthonySEaston (10:35:43 PM): sorry to make you yell
auf zur disko (10:36:59 PM): yes i know
auf zur disko (10:37:04 PM): i cycled through all these feelings already
auf zur disko (10:37:08 PM): in the past hours
auf zur disko (10:37:09 PM): i am very drunk now
auf zur disko (10:37:14 PM): i went to the east village and got wasted
auf zur disko (10:37:22 PM): because i couldnt handle it
auf zur disko (10:37:27 PM): he was the editor who gave me my big break
auf zur disko (10:37:32 PM): he was the first person to publish me
auf zur disko (10:37:34 PM): in the village voice
AnthonySEaston (10:37:47 PM): it makes me really upset, because smart writers, and cogent writers, are being punished. he liked me, he didnt publish me, but he gave me a pazz and jop, and he liked me--he respected me
AnthonySEaston (10:38:05 PM): which was strange, this little fucker in a hicktown
auf zur disko (10:38:58 PM): yeah
auf zur disko (10:39:05 PM): i dont know if pazz n jop will exist much longer, to be honest
auf zur disko (10:39:08 PM): without chuck
AnthonySEaston (10:39:27 PM): can i be really selfish for a second
AnthonySEaston (10:40:53 PM): the only writing i do well is academic, i dont think its pedantic, but its smart and im scared that there isnt a place anymore for polemic, for rhetoric, for an opinon, for people who read
AnthonySEaston (10:41:02 PM): and chuck eddy was one of those last places
AnthonySEaston (10:41:42 PM): and you, dave queen, edd hurt, frank kogan, xgau, tosches, etc was part of this
auf zur disko (10:41:48 PM): yes.
AnthonySEaston (10:43:00 PM): what the fuck do we do
AnthonySEaston (10:43:06 PM): im jsut starting out, you have places to go
auf zur disko (10:43:11 PM): i don't know, anthony, i don't know
auf zur disko (10:43:16 PM): i'm as confused as you
AnthonySEaston (10:44:12 PM): do you have his private email
auf zur disko (10:44:47 PM): no i dont
AnthonySEaston (10:46:05 PM): next time you see him, tell him ill take any balls he needs to
AnthonySEaston (10:46:17 PM): can i blog this
auf zur disko (10:47:13 PM): i would think so
auf zur disko (10:47:20 PM): its public knowledge that hes been fired now
AnthonySEaston (10:47:47 PM): me and our conversation, brb

Italian AIDS awareness poster:

To Listen:

Britney Spears/Cat Power Satisfaction x (Rolling Stones) x
White Stripes Jolene (Dolly Parton) x
Lyle Lovett Stand By Yr Man x (Tammy Wynette) x
PJ Harvey Hiway 16 Revisited x (Bob Dylan) x
Tori Amos Kim x (Eminem)
Elvis Hound Dog (Big Mama Thorton) x
Roy Acuff Blue Yodel
Doug Stevens x
Sound Track to Enio Miccioine
Rode Music
Long Virgina Roads/ Hyacinths and Thistles
Patsy Montana—I want to be a Cowboys Sweetheart
Bob Dylan (God on My Side…)
Woodie Gutherie (This Land is My Land, Ingrid Bergman, Wilco, Bragg)
Don’t Get Above Yr Rasin’
Toby Kieth (various) x

To Watch:
Johnny Guitar
Last Picture Show
Paris Texas
Brokeback Mountain

To Read:
Air Guitar (essay on Hank) Hickey x
Hu Yellow x
Don’t Get Above Your Raisin’ –Bill C Malone
Kaustenbaum Queens Throat x
Sandberg—Selected Poems x
Lacan Ecrits, 6 Lectures on Pyschoanalysis
Jane Jacobs—…American Cities, Dark Age Ahead
Judith Butler Gender Trouble
Judith Butler What Happens Now
American Surfaces—Shore
Los Almos—Eggleston
Bob Dylan—Chronicles Vol 1.
Baudillard America x
Prolux’s two volumes of western stories (and the audio interview w. jong)
Bernanrd Levy In The Shadow of Toqueville (letters to atlantic monthly, reviews of the book in the ny times, the ny reader, the lrb)
Howard Zinn--…American People, Southern Mystique,
Wendell Berry Farming: A Hand Book, The Unsettling of America, The Discovery of America
Toqueville—Democracy in America

Otto Dix, Dead Man in Trench, 1916


Its really fucking EC, does anyone know if the EC fellows saw Dix and his graphic work?

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yeah the big boss man he likes to crack that whip,
I ain't nothin' but a number on his timecard slip.
I give him 40 hours and a piece of my soul,
Puts me somewhere at the botttom of his totem pole —

Toby Keith

easter vigil yesterday, he is risen, etc
three hours, and then dinner afterwards, and it was lovely.

saw jeff, who isnt happy, and val who is...
seeing val is always a revealing force, and her friend meredith of the same tendencies, a fondness for heresey, a desire to move beyond gender, a nascent femminism, an affection, slight bitterness, and a fuck you kind of energy, eating and almost cuddling with her, made me realize how much i missed her.

graham lettner, i think i like and its weird, hes touchy feely, more the hugs, rubbing shoulders and touching of great tenderness and intimacy--and it doesnt mean anything of course, its just graham, but i wonder if my cancelling and my inability to keep appointments is a combo of the ambiguity of my feelings for him (ie hes fuckable), and my fear about taking advantage of him (ie hes the SU president, he will be politically useful)...

trayce, gerads fiancee is a fantastic person, great for jacob, beautiful company, and gerards family lets me have a weekend, and i feel less and less anxious about offending...

(other things: its 7 years since my baptism, and i think that my enmeshment with mother church is complete, and my ambiguity, and gaurdedness about what i exactly believe--in the easter vigil there is a moment after everyone is confirmed that the priest asks will you defend the church and all it does, and well i cant do that, even with the wrestling, even with just the basics, that was what was so revelatory about really sitting with the apostles creed, and meditating on it, and praying on it, is that i am not even sure i can defend the basics expected of me as a xian, and some people it doesnt bother, i mean spong says no virgin birth, no resuerction, lets move on--and it bothers me...deeply. and i mean, as a poltical radical, i think that the reseruction is a bit of mcguffin--30 years of lets fuck shit up, and then dying for it, as treasounous, and then well isnt that an ignoble end, lets fix it--and that fixing i mean organic folk mythologies, how many people see elvis in kalamazoo 7-11s, etc its all too neat, too polite...and arguing about it, gives a convienet rheotorical place, and well im all about maintaining convient rhetorical places)

(rewrite: i dont believe in the reseruction, mostly because it cements my role as a heretic and because of my cynicism of the poltics of the early church. The more orthodox my company, the more radical my denials are--much of the intellectualism for that disbelieving is whole stealing from radical 20th century theologians, because their exgesis makes it easier for me to be comfortable, and comfort is not one of the goals of xian thot)

muriel spark just died.
i think as a writer she matched my world view the best, and her subtle, wrathful, asp on the worlds breast approach to life, and how small and slight her novels were, but how wise they were to the human condition.

she was bitter, and angry, but refused to spew, constructing traps for all our sins, traps of great skill and astonishing effectivness.

abess of crewe, her allegory on nixon, was the best book on power and responsiblity written perhaps ever, but no one paid attention to it, 100 pages, about nuns and abbies, how could it say something significant.

that she failed to win the nobel is still a mark that writers prizes are dick measuring contests, the bigger, and more epic in scoipe the book the better, and small artifacts of our own darkness, will never be rewarded.

in many ways, it reminds me of w, how little seriousness people took highsmith's ripleys novels as works of literture, as medtations on desire and how it makes pychopaths of us all...(also note the love for zadie smiths white teeth, a brilliant mess versus on beauty, perhaps the first perfect novel of the 21st)

heres the bbc obit here

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