What went on at Abu Ghraib was a complete breakdown of discipline and authority, and these are merely specific acts within a sea of a multitude of specific acts
Chip Meyer, Lawyer for Accused.

http://www.cnn.com/2004/WORLD/europe/08/24/abughraib.germany/index.html

complete breakdown or a logical extenstion of buisness as usual

http://www.nypost.com/news/regionalnews/29317.htm

apparently queer bdsm clubs in ritzy doormanned buildings ruin property values.

http://www.ctv.ca/servlet/ArticleNews/story/CTVNews/1093194233767_13?hub=Canada

Currently, the law provides for voluntary faith-based arbitration, which
allows Muslims, Jews and members of other faiths to use the guiding principles
of their religion in settling private disputes such as divorce, custody issues
and inheritances outside the court system.

http://allafrica.com/stories/200408200782.html

hep e kills thousands in chad. yes hep e--i havent heard of it either.

http://www.thesmokinggun.com/archive/0823041canada1.html

27 pages of porn titles, and what the canadian customs thinks of them.

http://www.nytimes.com/2004/08/22/books/review/22GLAZERL.html?pagewanted=all

apparently the translation of the second sex that i have been reading is unreadably bad.

http://www.washingtonpost.com/ac2/wp-dyn/A24822-2004Aug22?language=printer

american military officals are basically saying thumbs up to torture.

sir mark thathcher got kick backs in the 80s for his work facillating deals b/w Saudi Arabia and the UK, and has been arrested several times since then for arms dealing, so this latest attempt to destableize Eqauatial Guineas government with large amounts of money and arms is w/i charachter.

what i am wondering about is the knighthood. does anyone else think he got it for favours for mommy ?

http://www.slate.com/id/2105529/

kerry ended up in cambodia, and didnt lie about it, which g ives him points for h onesty but distracts points for engaging in an illegal war

bryan makes the arguement that if the enemy is getting soilders and arms from behind cambodias borders, it is w/i the just war tradition (though he wouldnt use those words) to chase them in there.

http://www.opendemocracy.net/debates/article-5-57-2006.jsp

tariq rammadan, a swiss born, moderate islamic religous scholar, had a teaching job at notre dame, which is as conserative and christian instutuion as they come.

he was denied a visa by the department of homeland secuirty.
above is an interview by him.

10 noble prize winning economists say yeah kerry.
as much as i have no respect for the profession, anything would be better then that zombie supply sider, greenspan

http://www.csmonitor.com/2004/0825/p01s03-woiq.html


there is something here, about the democratazation of media, of the ease of finding, producing and distrubuting media in an age that is wolf to lamb hungry for information.

but democratazation doesnt mean you are doing it for democracies.

http://news.independent.co.uk/world/africa/story.jsp?story=554794


if you were running the miltary campaign in iraq, would you be super eager to orcheastrate a regime change right away ? regardless, zimbabwae seems a better chance to surrive american imperalist tendencies.

http://www.guardian.co.uk/israel/Story/0,2763,1289990,00.html

israel is not allowing palestines care, giving them makeshift treatment behind bars. i know about the lack of beds, however because they are doing it, critical mass, hospital swamped, all of that, but all of palestinan treatment are not getting treatment, not only the ones on hunger strike and it is a larger structure of isreali power.

http://www.alternet.org/story/19647/

a paticularlly nasty group from our history against the russians has popped onece again, this time to fight the war on terror.

the Committee on the Present Danger didnt really believe in things like due process, fair trials, nessc. wars,et.al

but they did believe in the domino theory.

http://www.petermillergallery.com/inventory/hogininventory.html

laurie hogin hates the world you love, now with more pyschotic bunnies.

monday i will be in toronto.

wednesday
2--java jive don
3 colleen
7 bryan hudsons
pat comix

thurs
7 dave sugar bowl
8 dave r o byrnes

fri
maybe fotos bryan ?
home

sat.
downtown
milarm/bank/bookstore/mcbains/art supply store

sun
joes

to write
ana rewrite (3 months this has taken)
jessica simpson (see above)
rococo/dada graffiti
monk edits

to see (these wont happen)
ashley
geneve
dave a
drew
trevor
val
erik
hannae
caroline

to move
bed

to clean
newspaper
books
desk

i wonder, there are things that amaze me about kerry, like he is more radical then america allows (the almost talking about empire, the renewable resources, the fear about the war being unilateral) and then there is the mom and apple pie stuff, and the flip flap comment was a knifing wrt bush and his muleheaded nonesense but it wasso awkardly phrased and so badly constructed that it made him sound almost proud.
which is why i like th kerry, b/c she is the only one in the last 20 years (wives, vps, ps) that isnt being handled, isnt being told what to say and how to say it.
also why the fuck is stewart so nasty and under handed to conseratives and not to democrats, why didnt he jump down his throat on certain things (the voting for the war, the idea of liberal, the talking points) Stewart used to make people work. now--i'm not so sure

there is this parking garage, its hard to explain, when i stand in it, my body hums with a cosmic tension, and there are stars painted on the pillars and the place is falling down and there are elevator signs that are so beautiful and the place made me realize that the pictures i take of cities are a seeking out of holy sites and most of the graffiti is in one place, and that grafitti is mostly sacred, talking about locations or prayer or things like that, and there is in the corner on the bottom floor (there are five floors, the top floor fatherest away from everything that is where the elevator sign is, neon, fifties, green adn white)--but in the exact opposite space, hidden crude drawings of a woman showing the world her cunt (that word is crude now, but it has powerful magic, cwne, queen, cow, cunt--the concept of enternal womanhood, the birth canal of the universe, that holy and sacred space, where stonehenge was based on and where it was burnt from the mind of christendom, it is a cunt and that cunt reminds me of nothing more then a shilengigh, and how to get from the shilengigh to the elevator sign is this double helix decript ramp, and that ramp on each of the levels has bushes and trees and nonesense growing from it, and everyone seems to gain this holy energy from it, like the thurminer humming i used to get in churches, and pat thinks its on this massive ley line, and i dont know, but it does fill that god shaped hole, and bryan is energized in a way that i cannot explained, and danielle found it for us but im not sure im allowed to write about it, and near the elevator sign i can see the city, and the painting of the birks building adn the first lutheran church and all that noise and i sing ot my self that anglican hymn glenys taught me--god of concerte god of steel, a hymn that was in one year and only one year and all of this doesnt really make sense, but its from the top of my head and its what i wanted to say

http://www.reuters.com/newsArticle.jhtml?type=ourWorldNews&storyID=5976742

breath taking photos of los angeles modernism.

http://www.reuters.com/newsArticle.jhtml?type=ourWorldNews&storyID=5976742

badgers are making stonehenge sad---i like the idea of these tiny, beautiful, viscous rodents tearing down on of the holiest sites in the world, ashes to ashes and all that, the perserving instinct impossible.

http://www.nytimes.com/images/2001/11/12/politics/recount/index.html

this is a really useful tool that lets you go thru the permunbations that resulted in bush's win in 2000. it proves to me that he won the election legitmitly, using the standards that gore and he set down in their cases to the supreme court, but other circumstances will result in wins for either side.

the interesting thing about this, is that it does not discuss the disenfranchisemnt of black voters, felons, etc and it does not take note of family connection in flordia and it also fails to note how the basically useless electoral college was, or even how first past the post is truly a fuck up.

numbers really dont mean much.

reason has become one of the best political magazines, peroid, not so much for news but for trenchant analysis that neither the right nor the left will talk about... this peice on dick cheney as pathetic as opposed to evil is one of the better examples.

http://www.reason.com/links/links081204.shtml

(does this make me a libertartion)

http://www.theatlantic.com/doc/200408u/powell

pj o rourke talks to colin powell

http://query.nytimes.com/gst/abstract.html?res=F20F14F7395B0C758DDDA10894DC404482

more anti african american shennigans from the state of fla, tyhis time having fbi agents go door to door to conduct investigations.

once a week the vatican pisses me off to no end, and then the next week they redeem themselves.

this time, by agreeing to work thru al sadr, they have recoginzed there role in working with religous combatnats, and recognized their neutrality, as well as chirsts call to peace.

http://english.aljazeera.net/NR/exeres/22640BD9-6513-4705-B6A2-7C8E6AEDF1C6.htm

http://www.borderlandnews.com/stories/borderland/20040729-148612.shtml

i think that eventually muslim fundmentalists and xian fundementalists will get together and find they have lots and lots in common, then people like this will be heros.

http://www.allreaders.com/Topics/info_1499.asp

funniest summary of the bell jar ever, inadvertnly. (sp)

ken roth decimates the concept of humanitarian intervention, esp. in realtion to iraq, one of the best working thru of this concept i've seen.

http://www.hrw.org/wr2k4/3.htm

http://www.nytimes.com/2004/08/18/nyregion/18buttons.html?hp

if you register as a peaceful protestor at the new york times visitor site, you can get a discounted salad at applebees.

Melbourne Anarachist Archives, huge resource for far leftists in general. have been working on what anarachism means and how it relates to post nationalism and post structralism, and this was helpful.

http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story2&u=/040817/480/nyet38108171626&e=1&ncid=705

832 pages, 3/4s ads, one african american on the cover, steve misel shoots it, american vogue is as boring as as usual

at patricks and its 10, mom and dad and aj and bryans family and pats family ate and talekd and gossipped and kibbutzed and got together, in a way learnt about patterns that came and went

mom was in bracs, crutches, for the first time n my life she was in crutches,
she will die, i am afraid, fallen in a parking lot, with no one around, dad gone, amy i nthe city, me in toronto

want to stay.

http://www.inthesetimes.com/site/main/article/i_love_you_madame_librarian/

vonnegut writes about how much he loves librarians

http://www.somethingawful.com/articles.php?a=2311

i dont know what the offical comic word for this is, but the dadaists did it and the beats did it and now the something awful formusm doi t, it being replacing the text that was already in comics with new, funny text. the comic being alan moores seminal deconstruction of superhoeros watchmen, yes--iuts a deconstruction of a deconstruction--alice meet the white rabbit, white rabbit meet alice.

(entertaining to boot)

http://www.startribune.com/stories/362/4935629.html

follow up to one of those stories regarding amish and sexual abuse, the tone is standard "what avout the children"

note to president bush

a) the soviet union, and thusfore the adjective soviet, has been dead for ten years.
b) russia, which you may have meant, does not use the dinar
c) russia also does not use the euro.

you may have a point about traditonal arab practices when it comes to money lenders and their realtion to suspect political groups, a point that needed to be made. no one will listen to that point now, all they will listen to is, well, the idea of the soviet dinar.

you are a moron.
http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story2&u=/afp/us_vote_bush_dinar

http://www.abanet.org/journal/ereport/jn11art.html

article on koons and his legal fees, wrt the story half way down the page.

http://www.geocities.com/thisisbillis/

i like these comics, i think they are gentle and home made, bryan doesnt.
i dont know what pat thinks

Fullerton Museum Center, in Orange County, had a surveyt show of recent Latina American work, including the holy and gorgeous Alma Lopez Gaudlope, that i talked about in this space, ca 7 days ago...the show opened and Lopez's work, the madonna with the open womb and pendulous breasts, has been censored and hidden.

currators should know better then that.
http://www.ocweekly.com/ink/04/50/news-arellano2.php

(the crescent moon she sits on/has been called a symbol of her virginity, as the moon waxes, the womens power does, a sort of cosmic vagina)

amazing japanese childrens illustration and music, from the 1900s to the 1930s, almost look english in places, and sometimes it looks exaclty like hokkido or other edo masters.

http://www.kodomo.go.jp/gallery/digi/KODOMO_WEB/songs/s_e003.html

romany have been forbidden from working the olympics, and have been moved away from their usual places of work and leisure.

http://www.boston.com/news/world/europe/articles/2004/08/21/gypsies_say_olympic_hosts_pushing_them_aside/

iran has hanged a 16 yr old girl for speaking back against a judge...ie having a sharp tounge.

http://www.iranfocus.com/modules/news/article.php?storyid=80

the thing w. vincent gallo is that he's an asshole, he pushes and he pulls, and everyone hates him--hes an agent proveatour, and makes a fortune for it...the question then--is he actually talented ?

(we need shock, we need this idea of people who are willing to say things and do things that violate taboos in a way that is uncommerical and unslick--we need t he dirty, complicated, knotty work--work that i dont work, work that i find fails in its goals, work that makes me uncomfortable, but in an age of hegemonic nonesense you take what you can get.)

hx is a fag rag for those who take ghb and listen to thump thump party music--he was interviewed concerning brown bunny, and he says some things about sex that people dont usually say.

http://64.78.33.181/features/index.cfm?id=2006&cat=1&page=features&sub_page=weekly

sometimes the democracy now radio is laughable, socialist rhetoric that hasn't changed in 70 yrs, but sometimes its brilliant, telling us things that others won't, having people like jesse jackson talking about race and american democratic processes, or this
http://www.democracynow.org/article.pl?sid=04/08/23/1239219

Arundhati Roy spending an hour discussing the differences between state and public, in the same way the vatican and the church are different, some of it is standard anti american stuff, but alot of it talks about democratic processes, about how democracy cannot be related to statecraft as a give in--how the people have the power more then the government and beurocacries do.

http://www.georgewbush.com/Economy/WriteNewspapers.aspx?AgendaID=2

If yr too fucking lazy to actually write yr own letters to the editor, and you are an american conserseative, let the republican letterbot do it for you.

isnt it exciting.

Sex and the Single artistJeff Koons has lost his law suit, the one that wanted to reduce his lawyers fees from four million dollars to two million, which he has already paid. The law suit was in relation to his porn star ex wife, and his lovely little child Wolfgang who was awarded to Mr Koons (perhaps because of puritanical standards in America, where the idea of a porn star as a wife seems ridicules, maybe because the wife seems just this side of unstable.). She up and left for her home country of Italy, which does not intervene in domestic matters as it relates to the courts, and Mr Koons has spent the last 5 years and 4 million dollars failing to get his son back.The court case, and the internet chatter about it as provided an interesting code to what is happening when it comes to art and sex, art and model and art and politics, especially the politics of idenity.One of the arguments in court, was that it was not a legitimate marriage, because both of them used their sexuality as a process and a product, ie the porn star can never have sex w/o it being a performance and an artist who uses his body as a tool is in cahoots with that act, like two con artists playing three card monte in their own personal red light district. If they were performing then, when does there performance end. Are they using Wolfgang Koons as an odd kind of ammunition. Koons has said in Artnews, the shiny American/commercial publication that all of his art is now made to pay the lawyers and show his kid that he loves him, but most of his work, aside from the stuff that he did with Il Stona, was childish and toying with ideas of commerce and work.That said is Koons work weaker now that he is doing it for his kids. There are large series of mirrors in primary colours that are cut in the shape of Eeyroe (think Disney not Milne) that are cheap, easy, banal, and silly--but not in a way that the Popples or Pink Panthers were. Even though he was a commodity Broker, there was always a tension between what was "commercial" and what was "art" in Koons work, its a tension that seems lost here. It's also lost in his so called easy fun paintings-- the name seems obvious, but this was a man who called a statue of four angels pushing along a pig Ushering in Banality. In that case he was poker faced serious, he wanted us to think of his work as banal, reclaim banality as a virtue, and do the work concerning craft and art, work that had not been done in High Art for a very long time. There was no easy exit for an audience that was used to escape hatches marked irony, farce or theory. The idea of Easy/Fun, how large they are, how badly constructed, and how looking at them seems to be nothing more then a game of pick the easy reference seems an abodonoment of his early game playing.But then the topiary sculptures are really strong-- reviving a dead craft, making renewed public spaces , treating decoration as high art, and being joyus and happy are all things Koons is good at, along with balls out craft. There might be hope left for him as an artist, but I doubt it, esp. With losing this law suit.Can we make the distinction b/w art as biographical indecision vs art as commercial intercessor for biographical purpose, or more crudely, is the art that he made for Wolfgang to enjoy better then the art he made to pay the lawyers ? Can we tell the difference ? I think the 30 foot tall Scotty Dogs made of flowers are for Wolfgang, others think that it is the Eeyore mirrors.There ar e other aspects of commerce here as well, aspects that are less seemly. There are lawyers watching hardcore in their office under the auspices of research, returning the child's mothers status from wife to whore--whore on two levels, whore because she is acting pornographiclly and whore because she is paid to sexually perform.(I have mostly talked about Money here, but there is also sex.--Koons starred in a series of works about him and his wife called The Made In Heaven series, which negotiate the protestant sexual ethic by making whores into wives, and wives into whores--by refusing to play the games that the Americans set out, and making both commerce and art into it--it precluded the internet age of voyuerism and home taping. But he seems ashamed of those series, he talked of being humiliated by having to pay lawyers to watch his wife fuck on camera--and all of the evidence that he did similar things for different goals in the 80s have been bought up by him and destroyed--the originals at least--the ironic thing is that one google image search for Made In Heaven Jeff Koons will show his blandly pretty face, chest, cock and ass.)

listening to johnny cash, liked dave, who drove me home.

the koons notes below--remember all we know is koons and his fame, i dont think i have ever heard anything from ilona

4 am, again at aarons...house party...talked alot, watched rowing w. 4 serious rowers, the cant and the texhinque made some dukk renewed, made me want to watc hwrestling together

said to aarons gf some things i have been thinking about regards being the proof of the universality of the church,

been having a good time, happy and calm

a week to the gta ?!?!

need to finish a brown wedge on il stona and koons+poor wolfgang wrt the nature of artist/model--one of the arguements in court, was that it was nolt a legitmate mariage, because both of them used their sexuality as a process and a product, ie porn star can never have sex w/o it being a performance and an artist who uses his body as a tool is in c ahoots, like two con artists playing three card monte in their own personal red light district (thats such a mess, there are actually some ideas there that surround similar themes that koons has been working on 4 years (is his work weaker now that he is doing it for his kid--the eeyroe mirrors/easy fun paintings--but then the topiary sculptures are really strong-- can we make the distinction b/w art as bikographical intecessor vs art as commerical intercessor for biogparhical purpose, or more crudely, is the art that he made for wolfgang better then the art he made to pay the lawyers)


lawyers watcvhing hardcore in their office under the auspices of research, returning staters status from wife to whore--whore on two levels, whore because she is porn and whore because she is paid to sexually perform, and the humilation of watching another man watch while you are fucking his wife...the tension that fed the art reduced to a sort of pathetic spectacle...a moral lesson that returns them to a prtestant ethic (sex as punishment)

also rembrandt and saskia
(two more ideads that need to be fleshed out, rembrandt obv example)

aaron/lunch
sort of too nice, says too many kind things, too respectful... and i was too quiet, trying to figure out exactly what he knew.
driving a miata (im too big of a man for too small a car)

pepper steak, grey goose and tonic, ceaser salad.

oh and the war mag/porn thing i did for 53

clean sheets said no; as did tangents.
no news from fuse--though that might take a few more weeks.
ed wants me to add more qoutes and make it more demographically realevent, thinking of calling see and telling them i have this article, its good (therese from ed said it was, she liked it for the most part, the structures a bit fucked and its a bit long, and there arent any qoutes, but she thinks there is something there and i think that the most part is the whole 19-35 kick)
bryan from oregon is paying for this avant theater peice, was asked to participate again in sqaure table, working on fixing up jessica (scrapped the 12k version, working on the 3k one)--maybe thinking of sending it to the door, but the only serious peices they do are interviews.
looking over my writing for nyplm/brown wedge in the last year, its interesting and solid--i'm a good writer,when i hit the gta (8 days, 9 days), i will need to look f or more queer work, more reveiw work and more high art--the stuff i can do in my sleep, and to do this my portfolio will have to concetrate mostly on those things. ( thinking 9 peices, total:

1. ryman--brown wedge
2. nurse paintings--brown wedge
3. mitzer in la--brown wedge
4. britney and missy--nyplm
5. streets--nyplm
6. go ape crazy--freaky trigger
7. stealth xians--stylus
8. hub artists (maybe, bad luck ?) or antliff--gateway
9. aspie first person--ed

i think thats a good mix of what i have done and what i am capable of doing, i am also thinking of adding these but am unsure:

1. angelyne and arnie--gateway (spiked)
2. romeo and romeo--gateway
3. terror--gateway
4. morrisey and myth--freaky trigger
5. would-be-goods--dusted
6. subliminal jagger--cut up
7. essay on joan and brandon for kiesler (too academic?)

i found my pants !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i found my fucking pants :)

this has not been edited at all, and its really fucking close to my heart...but i figure its a gift to whoever has been staying around for three years


i like my body when it is with your body.
It is so quite a new thing.
ee cummings

I came back from kentucky, and I thought that I no longer believed in g-d, i saw awe and i saw it with out the need for jesus, mary and thesaints. i figured it was in the back of my head, in the dusty, chaosridden attic, beside Joespeh Smiths Dowsing Rod, and Basho's BeggingBowl. I came from kentucky, from the everlasting buccolic green calm,from the shade elks, and the reading everything i could (10 books in10 days--some theology, some beckett (is beckett theology-- i cannever tell.)i walked, and saw beaver ponds, fields of yellow green flowers, theslick green magonlias, the cry and caw of birds, at night--when ishould have been at vespers, i walked down into the hollow where theyused to grow corn, and my back turned to the monastary, i saw 10 000fire flies (thats a magnetic fields song, couldnt have been that many,but it seemed like it.)i wanted jesus to love me, i wanted to be washed in the blood of thelamb, i wanted christ to come down from the stations of the cross,like he came down from the cross, and i walked behind that large,plain abbey, and i heard the bees and the feilds, and came into arevery...a holy madness, lets say. i thot it was the death of g-d orat least the end of my need for g-d, except for work, for the last twodays there, i didnt eat or drink or do anything but pray and read andwork--fruit cake in boxes, cheese in boxes--i talked about the thingsi talked about to the people working with me, i was still the sameanthony, and i had everyone older then me telling me that i didnt knowanything, that i would grow up and find the truthi came back early, and i came back with an odd, freeing joy, like iimagine what the first fish felt when he showed up on land, thatgasping thru gills and lungs and everything else, the magic that comeswhen one realizes how the body reacts, how one knows about lungs.after not eating or eating no meat, no spices, tea, rasin bran, soup,thick black bread, fruit juice--i went to keegans, i ate deep friedmeat, potatoes, cheese..i took my pleasure again, and realized i didnot want to leave it.everyone assumed now that i was atheist, that i recived nothing againfrom the host, from the christ child, from his mother, from hisservants--this of course was nonsense--kentucky was holy to me, it wasparadigm shifting, and i realized that i went from the thick straightroad, to the brambles--i pass the gigantic pendulous christ on theside of saint agnes every day, i see the two rosaries on my wall,still hung on a nail, one black and silver, one white, glow in thedark plastic, at nights when i try to go to sleep that one hums greenmy subconciousi havent really listened to christians yet, some johnny cash--but ialways listen to johnny cash, and some hymns about dying that came outof the blood shot label a couple of years ago, and some of louvinssatan is real, cause my friend gareth in london wanted to talk aboutit, and sometimes when i get kind of manic in the midst of anafternoons sun i sing "jesus loves me/this i know/for the bible tellsme so", but thats really nothing more then childhood emerging thru theboredomi havent really read about g-d yet--not in the way i used to (nobible, no gnostics, no paul and no thomas, not even the canticles),some of kristeva on holbein's mournful painting of the lord laid forburial, some research for a book i might right on american venucalurchristianity--but thats really about social culture, trying to findwhat this old wise jew means to these shiny neon americans; and then igot this book of brazillian art out of the library, a history and acatalog for a 10 yr old guggienheim show, i wanted to know more aboutsouth america, its the last gap in my knowledge, i saw a hundred ofthe old saints and madonnas and christs, all in poly chromed wood,there copreality hinting at something i will miss but nothingmore--there was the odd curiousity, mater derloasa's periced byswords, madonnas riding a crown of infant heads, a man the shade ofmidnight holding his mansion of many, his foot on a man baby pink,like george and the dragon--but these were the usual rewards that camefrom the labryinth--i signed up for the mother church, because itdidnt provide the red string, and i needed something to get lost in.then something from a guy who every brazillian knows, a sculptorcalled o aleihandinjo or the little cripple, it was a giant dove, theholy spirit in her complex majesty, in her abstract, genderless joy,coming down from heavens, and telling us that god was well pleased. ihad two thoughts--forever in my ldsness, in my buddhism, in mycatholicism, in whatever morass i am in now, i think of my soul as thelittle cripple, as one who has had his hip broken so often that itdoes not grow anymore, as someone who is so wounded and broken that hecannot grow larger, as that fig tree that wilted under gods wrath, asone who's back is broken because the weight of the worlds suffering,because i put my shoulder to the wheel but never scattered sunshine.the top of this holy spirits wing, the holy spirit that o aleihandinjocarved, are two thick tendons, that look like a spine, or a hamstring,or something else tough and permanant, this is not the small, slightbird of giotto, this is not the radiant light, this is a tangible,permanat object. i dont want to be crippled, this gentleman wasphysically crippled, small, tiny, body broken at birth, in pain-- youcan do the connections to the crucifxion (everything is connected tothe crucifxion in catholicism, everything is about that misery laddenman on the misery ladden cross, everyone is a masochist here, theguilt ridden mother making sure all her children are in line.)i wanted to go to the monastary not to remember christs suffering, butto forget my own body--i wanted to ignore the fallen arches, the badknees, the thick hips, the ugly penis, the fat belly, the hairy back,the wrecked shoulders, the vision that cannot be corrected by anyglasses. i wanted to be collective, i wanted everyone there to me andfor me to be everyone. i no longer wanted anthony the little cripple,i wanted to fulfill the prophecy in galations, neither jew norgentile, etc--the exact violation of all of the naming and idenenitypolitics i hold so dear.then i got there, and my eyes saw the wonder and awe of the world--andi thot of the koan, about the abbot who tears down the abbey in orderto see the sunset, and i remember reading the diaries of merton in themonastary, and how in his late life he moved further away, how he diedin thailand (some buddhists say that when one has reached satori, andthere is nothing left, death comes), how before that death, the illhealth and the celibate affair with the pretty nurse who took care ofhim (constantly sick, in and out of the hospital, what would happen ifhe and the nurse fell in love (they did fall in love); if they gotmarried; if he gave up). this firssion of eroticism in those passagesreminded me of how sexual i found the services, and other things inthe church as well.i used to met with fthr stephen hero and he would give me absoultion,this was when i thot i could be a priest, and i would lean my head andhe would lean his head, and i saw his last button undone and his whiteshirt showing, and thru that confession, my cock pressed against mypants, or when i saw fther luke meeting one on one, every happy, wheni was in the monastary and i wondered if he ever masterbated, or thepretty boy who was in retreat, from boulder (like neal cassady, likejack kerouac, like allen ginsberg, like all those silly boys 40 yearsago who played this game--of dirty words, of frank emotions, of freewriting, of sex and god all mixed up--nothing is new, all isvanity--ecclasices(sp) taught me everything, dont you know).i dont know, maybe thats why i was ill suited to both catholicism andxianity, because all of the sensous, emotional, raptourus, overfilling, was all about being there ,and not working in parantheses.i'm too ironic--thinking of one of the songs at the end of the servicebefore lunch, and how they conflated the never extingushed burningbush that yhwh appeared to moses, and marys everblossoming virginity,and i thot mary's burning bush, and how improper and how poetic itwas--what do i do with that ?or finding a copy of holy anorexia, and how i read 100s of pages ofwomen who took sacrifice instead of power, and sometimes they hadboth, and how starving oneself was considered a sign of holiness--howall sorts of grotesqureies were considered a sign of holiness, likecatherine of sienna lancing a cancerous tumour, and drinking the pus,and thinking of all the symbolism that was there, of taking thecancers of the world, of making yourself sick instead of this otherwoman, of connecting to the body of the suffering so much that onewould want to be there, of everything being pure when one was withgod, so that even cancerous pus was mothers milk, all of this came tome before the concluding thought, this was sick--that was not onlyperverse but sick--to use the argot of our age, dysfunctionalbehaviour.i dont know what all this means, im rambling now, i guess, an its notabout the pretty boys and controlling my libido, or my sense of irony,or not knowing what to do with Catherines starvation and denigrationor the breaking of the body or the holy spirit coming down as a dove,or anything else like that--its that i dont know where god and i are,i dont know what god and i think of each other. its not that i thinkthat fod is dead, that god never exisited, or anything like that--myfreind dave, the good and holy catholic talks fondly of voltairesqoute about if god didnt exist we'd have to invent him--so maybe rightnow, i am trying to figure out how to invent him, find where thelanguage lies.i'm glad i saw the beacer pond, the elms, the fire flies, themagnolias, the eames chair battered in the barn, the cell, the statuesof mary, i am glad i saw everything (one of the statues was sleek andwhite, a dove and a madonna and some abstraction of virture all inone, i left my pink cord rosary hanging from her praying hands--shereminded me of the henry moore sculpture of the holy spirit that washidden in the very bakc, dark, dusty corner when i went to st pauls inlondon--how this masterpeice of the femmine face of god was last inthe phallic towers, and the graves of war heros and statesmen)i was told when i left the mormons, i was told that the holy spiritwould never come to me again, that the gift of the holy ghost would nolonger be mine, and i figured out how much of a lie that was. im toldthat awe is gods pervue, and that there cannot be any of it, w/o thetrinity, i hope that isnt the case

i've been blogging for three years, and two weeks.
always forget the aniversiary (think its mid august, its august 5th)

pat said to me that he was worried that i was moving to t.o. b/c my support network was, and there were reasons to go to van instead.

ive been thinking west instead of east, cause i love vancouver and it will be harder to get there once im gone, but i think i will be lonely...

i am following my support network, in case i end up with depression, in case i keep falling down and going boom, in case i get lonely, cause i want this to be a grand adventure, b/c bryan is a salmon when it comes to beuraccay(sp) (except for the fucking and dying bit).

but its not pat, its bry and its d.
esp. d, the wise and clever d...who knows all the spots, who did it which means so can i, and because she keeps stuart smiling me...but w/o the obsequiousness.

see im TO because of d., b/c d=precdence.
i should have done it long ago, bryan and pat are g iving me balls.

i downloaded the software, hello, which has good interface, and looked like it was going to do what i wanted it to do, until i got to the blogger sign in page and it decided that it wouldnt display my blog.

help?

blogger thinks img src tags are link tags and doesnt post them, so i am downloading a program that allows me apparently to post pictures from my computer to the web.

i think this will not work, but i also hope it will, because you guys dont want to read 10000 links and text, the images were oasi.

http://www.lyonswiergallery.com/artists/mattingly/trees.jpg">

JAY: They say, in hushed tones, they say, "Some of the Prisoners Have
Died." Well, what the fuck? Yes, some have died. Some have been packed in ice
and spirited away. But more than ten thousand Iraqis have been killed in this
war. It's off the charts. Tanks firing on apartment blocks. Morgues and
hospitals filled to capacity, blood splashed on the walls. None of it is secret.
It's known, it's been reported around the world for a full year, and yet there’s
no outrage about that, there’s no scandal. What, that? Oh, that's just the war.
I mean, standing naked with a hood over your head while a dog barks at your
dick, okay, that's horrible, but having a missile hit your house is a hell of a
lot worse, because you may be carrying your own kid out of the rubble.

nicholson baker checkpoint

The reason the US didn't foresee Pearl Harbor, Stalin didn't believe Hitler would invade the Soviet Union, the US didn't foresee India's nuclear tests, etc. is not for lack of information. It is about the blindnesses that occur on this
side in the processing of information, the inability or
unwillingness to yield one's assumptions to think like one's adversary, and the moving of such insights within the bureaucracy

The uniformly brilliant freelance journalist and analyst , Laura Rozen, on
her blog war and peice. http://www.warandpiece.com/

someone from ilx said that the superslick tombot broke ca magnolia, and he played with his image, his blankness and his vanity in a much more serious way (ie minority report, collateral, vanilla sky, even last samuari...this may be the case, i havent seen these films)

also, he seems to be collecting name directors, from the beginning, actually:
kubrick, scorcese, stone, ron howard, sidney pollock, brian depalma (i've liked a dozen things depalma has directed, mission impossible isnt one of them)

Although I’ve been temperamentally religious all my life, my philosophy of
religion turned critical with the publication of Taking Leave of God. I argued
that we should regard God not as a metaphysical being, an infinite spirit, but
rather as a guiding spiritual ideal by which to orient one’s life. This idea of
God was explicitly put forward by Kant, and arguably has always been present in
the Lutheran tradition. The older realistic understanding of and language
about God leads to impossible intellectual difficulties. How can a person be
infinite, timeless, simple, and immutable? It seems to be essential to most
Christians’ idea of God that God should somehow be thought of as personal, as
having dealings with us, but the philosophical attributes of God make that
unthinkable. To me it makes more sense to see God as a spiritual ideal. And
perhaps the best way to interpret Christianity is to say that Christians see in
Christ that ideal embodied in a human life. So I demythologize the idea of an
incarnation of God in Christ into the idea of embodiment of Christian values in
Christ, in his teaching. I see Christianity as a spiritual path in which one
pursues various values, tells certain stories, follows examples that in the end
go back chiefly to Jesus of Nazareth

Dan Culpitt
http://www.tricycle.com/html/p_article_id_83.html

bryan from portland, org. is paying for a peice i wrote for his theatre group, which continues the pattern of my most sucessful (ie publishable) writing being first person or slightly avant garde (ie uncommercial)

http://www.lifesizemousetrap.com/

rube goldberg lives

http://vancouver.cbc.ca/regional/servlet/View?filename=bc_cabin20040723

boys and girls, this is why we cant have collective action, larger social networks, projects of mutual respect, ersataz housing or outsider art.

the government hates it and wants it destroyed.

fuck em

when i see film (control room, 9/11, cnn) i cannot deal with the gore, with the seemingly superflous(sp) use of wounding that makes my stomach crawl...when the same images are still photographs, i have less trouble.

http://www.auroraphotos.com/bin/Search?n=1&fmt=list&fn=2524&mr=&pn=1
this guy has been in iraq from the beginning, and is a v. good journalist.

http://www.churchsigngenerator.com/churchsigns.php

real life church signs, mostly sort of kind of clever puns and dodgy theology.
what else can one desire ?

http://www.americandecency.org/

what else can i say, except that all of those i love are indecent.

http://www.hindustantimes.com/news/181_941444,00050002.htm

queer folks in nepal are being arrested, have there baths and bars raided, are not being protected from rape and violence, all the usual shit.

i collect medical text books (stole one from o byrnes tonite, on ob gyn), and i really want one of those large models of the human body made of plastic, where one can take the organs out...really, its on my amazon wish list.

these guys have that and all of the other spooky shit one can want.
http://www.carolina.com/

more about marvel, this about how consistent its universe is on a social network level. http://xxx.lanl.gov/abs/cond-mat/0202174
academic in extreme, those in the cult might find it interesting

america (canada/western europe/japan--ie capitalism) can not live in its excess except when it has slaves. it has never got ridden of its indentured servants.

the latino agricutlural workers all over the farm belt, from flordia to california, from arizonia to wisconsion is the best example.

here is a 6 part series about some of these workers from palm beach
http://www.palmbeachpost.com/hp/content/moderndayslavery/index.html

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,128745,00.html
when is money free speech ?

boogie takes stark b&w fotos of people that are usually ignored and/or hated.
bryan, you will eventually take things like this

http://www.strangesisters.com/a-z/images/index.php?start=69&data=g-l.list
lesbian pulp fiction

http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2004/08/12/politics/main635699.shtml

here is his speech

the gov. of nj has been knee deep in about three finacial (sp) scandals, including hiring friends, raising taxes, taking money from people he shouldnt be taking money from, perhaps bribes, just another pig in shit...but it got to fetid for the citizens of nj, so he was pressured to resign, but he didnt want to go out as another trecolli.

so he admits to liking cock, calls himself a gay american, and gets exciting martyrdom points.
he has had two wives, and a child w. each of those wives.

he obv. likes pussy, i am not doubting his love of cock.
but the point here is the money, its just like america to pretend its sex when its money and vice versa, and its fasc. to note that its better to be a faggot then someone who likes to raise taxes.

http://www.detnews.com/2002/religion/0212/18/-35477.htm
xian karoke

robot dolphin
http://www.innespace.com/picture_gallery.html

http://www.reason.com/0408/fe.bd.john.shtml

the head of the eff thinks that media has to be reregulated by government, away from major corprations, so that eventually it can be deregulated, but in a proper semi-anarchist power to the people way---so he is backing kerry.

i dont know what to make of this.

you're in a war, you fuck.
if its just boys and whores, you worry about clap/syph/etc but if its boy soilders and girl soilders, there will be pregancy(some people think this is a reason to avoid having girsl fighting, since i dont think that boys or girls should kill, this is immaterial)

anyways, clinton allowed abortions in military hospitals, the republican controlled congress banned it again a couple of years later.

w. a lack of birth control, it means that women cannot terminate pregencies.
(they an get a tit job--but they cant get an abortion.)

link:
http://www.newsday.com/news/nationworld/nation/ny-usabor013926610aug12,0,6634199.story?coll=ny-nationalnews-headlines

http://www.bookpalace.com/PicLibs/gallerynews.htm

violent and sexy british comics from the second world war.
(one day i will have to do the work about finding violence frightening and beautiful)

http://k-punk.abstractdynamics.org/archives/003859.html

k punk tells us all about why we should love marvel, and not the usual reasons, he thinks we should like it because of the clipped, eccentric, heavily jargoned LANGUAGE.

The Killers Press Posters.

This poster is labial pink, barbie pink, has the bands name in marquee lights, and the only image is a woman, cut off at the waist, back arched, stripper heels. It's crass, it's boring, it's violent, it hates women, and it is the thing that seperates me most from rock and roll. I do not know how the music sounds, but it does not even try to change or be new.

It's Mick Jagger singing casually about rape, and no one really paying attention.

this comes from crooked timber, who is trying to find a good spanish translator, but apparently the buzz in spanish and south american news papers runs to this:

http://www.crookedtimber.org/archives/002319.html

(ie believing that venzuela under chavez will like to control peru and bolivia on there way to make south america a socialist superstate)

http://news.google.es/news?hl=es&edition=es&ie=UTF-8&newsclusterurl=http://www.bolpress.com/index.php%3FCod%3D2002082137

google news here, but spanish.

the capital hill blue article i posted about bush, his mental health and his drug intake has been doubted as true.

saw the control room tonite
it rambled alot, lots of shots of people talking, arguing.
too many dead bodies and weeping widows, but then im not really going to have fewer of that,
ignores some of al jarezzas loyalties towards nasty arab leaders and its history of rabid religous programming, esp. anti semitism.
but a solid film, intertesting, showing us footage that we would not have otherwise, discussiing the importance of the network to wider news dissemnation, both in the arab world and wider along.
interesting moral and political questions, none of which are really answered (this is not a problem.

you cant see al jazzeera in baghdad, btw
http://www.cnn.com/2004/WORLD/meast/08/07/iraq.al.jazeera/index.html

http://www.omaha.com/index.php?u_np=0&u_pg=1636&u_sid=1169009

im taking money on when scarlett tattoos will be handed out

http://www.southflorida.com/news/sfl-arwnbinscm7aug06,0,4241496.story?coll=sfe-guide-headlines

damon has smart and interesting things to say about the connections b/w porn and action movies. damon will be my new manbitch/husband.

he needs to be informed of this.

http://books.guardian.co.uk/extracts/story/0,6761,1277111,00.html

this man approves of the way i work.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/3540980.stm

russia replaces gifts in kind with cash money as benefits to the elderly and disabled. (explain to me why the elderly are taken care of, they have had decades to accumualte capital ?)

kansas censors shit.
sun, east.

http://www.cnn.com/2004/SHOWBIZ/Music/08/06/library.cdsettlement.ap/index.html

take every colour mentioned in mishima's spring snow, write down the list as it appears, find the colours that best match using the pantone system, reconstruct the story using pantone chips, figure abstract narrative.

http://www.bookworks.org.uk/books/2002/springsnow.htm

genius

http://www.hardy.free-online.co.uk/stonehorse/symbolists/watts/watts.htm

i like him, dont tell anyone.

Calixto Bieito http://www.guardian.co.uk/arts/features/story/0,11710,1277887,00.html bothers me, making perfectly good operas into epics of shock and disgust, but then most perfectly good operas are epics of shock and disgust, just we have lost it after 300 yrs.

(talking to pat today, i said that the problem with bloom was that he failed to realise that webster hit all of my spilane buttons)

three good tom cruise movies
risky business
a movie in favour of american capitalism at its most free, frisky, sexy, fun and makes the young and hung tom cruise an erotic icon, attempts at flirting with nostaliga, but really a conflation of sex and buisness (the scene with the house as brothel, and the princeton interview--"We need the room"/"I'll take them again"/'' Q: what are you planning to major in. A:Buisness") The first meeting of the black drag hooker; the masterbating in white briefs, clean and pure--(b4 aids?), the football helmet (all american protection), etc etc etc.
top gun
i think its queer, but then all that butch phallocentricism in one place would make me think that, the weak guy dies, the arrogant fuck gets rewarded, and cruise gets life handed to him on a plate of piverlege and skill (see he isnt cocky, he is that good)--first real action movie and war movie that is not a bout war at all, that is shot with the sheen and gloss of commericals, that is cut and edited like porn (rising action--money shot, over and over again).
eyes wide shut
three levels here.
real--what most people see it as, an exciting night that concludes safely, the narrative is consistint and happens normally.
surreal--an allegorical tale about fantasy and fiedilty-- a bored rich man dreams of a life of sexual freedom and exoticism after his wife has admitted pseudo infeidlity. (the opera, the orgy, the medical card, the wanting to cheat on nicole kidman, the russian whore and the mask makers daughter, the sailor--all standard devices, works best when thinking of schiltzlers(sp) original novel)
metareal--an assumption because nic and tom are married, that there marriage is on view to us, an examantion of the nature of celebrity, something to make us feel dirty about looking at "stars", a nasty beating down of these peoples reputaitons--(tom called faggot, tom unable to gain an erection around whores, tom being unfaithful, tom being egotistical vs nicole being a whore herself, nicole faking sophistication, nicole being nothing more then arm candy); a movie that holds secerts--(most people only got the first meanting)

anyways, heres a salon article on cruise)
http://www.salon.com/ent/feature/2004/08/05/cruise/index_np.html

http://www.untitledandunsung.com/

tim carpenter does that sly obersvational style.
the site is a bit confusing, click on the left hand menus, and then circle thru the photos by clicking on the central image.

really quite good ( the xmas--who really does excellent xmas photos anymore, w/o collapsing into sentiment or mean nothing kitsch?) (the nyc photos are dull, but the cali photos are strange and cut up, oddly framed, mostly of the intangible blue sky) (the jesus and mary photos are the kind that i have been trying to do, off center, unreal, hidden and faded)

http://www.washingtonmonthly.com/archives/individual/2004_08/004475.php

americans releasing names of spies again.

http://www.washingtonmonthly.com/archives/individual/2004_08/004475.php

americans releasing names of spies again.

http://www.washingtonmonthly.com/archives/individual/2004_08/004475.php

americans releasing names of spies again.

bitterly honest article on the nature of cultural tourism and first nations authenticity, the writer pulls punches though, in not naming names...

http://dancingbadger.com/indians.htm

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/business/3550636.stm

trump, recently trumpted on the cover of esquire as the king of bling (not nearly as out of time as ivana, who still looks like an 80s cadaver), has declared chapter 11---sneaky way to gain liquidity and refinace or not as good as he thinks he is ?

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/entertainment/3550924.stm

larkin was one of those poets that seems seamless, and easy going, his poems causal jottings, but if you look at the dates and read the diaries/letters/biographies you come to a realazation(Sp) that he rewrote everything, that he spent years working on drafts, carefully placing each word and each line.

which makes this recent ms discovery difficult, b/c i dont think they are complete, they were not intended by him to be published, zombie authours and all that.

(also, the porn books, the dykesoltiaon at the boarding school, do you think that one of the rerasons that he wrote those was because it did not require care, the reckless immediacy had its charm---or did he just need wank material ?)

salmon rushdie on porn
http://www.hindustantimes.com/news/181_936572,001100040004.htm
he thinks that porn equals a free and happy culture.
i would argue that freedom of press/speech/assembly/etc would equal freedom of sex (ie hes got it backwards)

but its well written nonetheless, one of the more impassioned defenses

http://search.sothebys.com/search/collArea/BrowseCat.jsp?source_indicator=E&event_id=26812&sale_number=N08048&event_name=Property+from+the+Estate+of+Johnny+Cash+and+June+Carter+Cash

sotheby's online catalog from the johnny and june auction that was just held.
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i know i make fun of all sorts of shit here, that i have a tone that resembles a cement mixer, but there are some things that i find strangely powerful, even in there odd be there done that clicheness.

a father and a son wrote the "name, rank, and date of death of an American soldier killed in the war in Iraq" on baseballs, one ball for each name, and made those baseballs into a wall, they are claiming it as memorial, not as pro war or anti war, but just as an awareness.

i am moved, almost to tears, at this.
maybe its the photo, of a red headed kid, looking downward, this huge wall behind him, towering over him.
http://www.boston.com/sports/other_sports/articles/2004/07/07/hardball_heaven?pg=full

http://www.cnn.com/2004/US/South/08/10/pipe.bombs.ap/index.html

with all of this news about terror and al queda and foreign bombings in far of places that most americans cannot find on a map (spain included), it is deeply refreshing to hear an old fashioned tale of a 17 year old southern good ol' boy and his aresnal of home made pipe bombs, other bombs, and explosive making chemicals (some in his vehichle, some in his house)

i am however disapointed that the vehicle in question was not a ford f 150.

http://slate.msn.com/id/2104931/

one of the more clever analyises(sp) of maxim, centering on the homosocial nature of the text, and also as a review of several contributors forays into "high" lit--including publishe felix denis's book of poetry (mr dennis apparently has gotten bored of drinking lager on martinque and has decided he needs to be more high class, he is also planting hundreds of thousands of trees in his native england, called the forrest of dennis--the spirit of robin hood will condemn him)

pure crystaline, almost wagnerian singing, organs as dark and heavy as the brontes.
(they should have fucked. )

edgard varese combines all of the romantic cliches into one peice, constantly interupting and cutting himself off--(ie piano, soprano trilling, chimes, gothicy organs) but when it gets to make some sense narrativley he slashes it apart or brickwalls it with strings and percusssion.

amazing.

(bryan and pat you should listen to this radio station)

look most people who read this will hate this

http://musicmavericks.publicradio.org/

but these two radio stations have provided me more what the fuck awe for the last 3 hours, and made me fall in love again with the chaotic noise of creation.

(that and it is done b/c of public radio in minnesota--where else can you hear yoko ono, lemonte young, charles ives, harley garber, etc in the same place.)

and harley garber...
ah
ts pure screaming
pure electronic squeeling
robotic mechanical
and it rises in pitch and tone
until yr ears hurt
i like masochism in my noise

listen please.
(esp. bryan)

i hate my personae, and i am angry when people respond to it
i got mad at pat today, cause i was listening to a bad open stage, nursing a harps, and realizing i heard amazing music today, and i tried to tell everyone about it, and i described charles ives as pretty, like snow falling in december, after explaining that i loved noise, but it wasnt all noise (avant classical-shit term). pat was laughing/bryan was laughing--like i was putting on a show, that my desires and loves were too thorny and too pretentious to be (honest/pure/real/?)

i dont like being laughed at, and my love of ives is real--but i dont think that people notice that (like the old saw that i like yoko better then the beatles, which was symbolic once and is now a prison); never really gave the beatles a chance--chuck d:elvis dont mean shit to me.

like shea/dom/jason/john/cam/etc get together friday...vapid and vain, no real connection and everyone there was treating me like anthony the performing fag--and i do it, dammit--i fucking do it--like any seal slap my fins for the mackeral

w. bryan and pat in gta it might mean the calcifaction is still there.
i should talk w. them instead of blogging this

sun-o byrnes
monday--home
tuesday--photos w. ashley.
wed.
thurs.--drew/dave r/ashleys opening
fri. pats party
sat. lacombe

next week
friday--my party

d's in town on tuesday.

to do:
secure place
cp
dr roberts
resume
jessica simpson
invites
see blair

found 5 or so furnished rooms in the gta, hoping one will fit...martin is lending me first and last, i think--i worry that im not taking advantage of him, but then i dont think he would offered unless....(fill in the blanks)

am i moving to the gta b/c i can.
b/c its a move...dave alexander picked me up randomly from the side of road on teh way to southgate and its the same converstaion ive always had.

handed in the thing to southgate.
ive burnt thru my life here, what makes me think i wont burn thru my life there.

oct finish up 100/100
dec. set up evov.
jan. 5 photo exhibits (on walls, in ether or paper)
mar. jesus/uncle michel chapbook
next summer jesus road trip
three years-london

(aside from the cultural/aesthetic/poltical/social codes that i think are vital&impt in this new xianity)

i think one of the reasons why i am writing this book is to understand...do you know that i still (want) (think i can) be saved from homosexuailty, that homosex, (sex) can be cured by prayer and that (part) (some) (more then i would like to admit) there is a desire for this to happen.

how do i get rid of that.
esp. w. my recent desires towards C.

(i want to know how to do a life transplant, where everything you had in the secualr world can be remade in the xian world, be it anime or day trading)

andrew d would know about this shit, i should email him.

random qoutes from various xian forums,

jason havoc (of the havoc) playing som music with his christ centered street punk band
from freezexbrand 16,

soo, after we spent the day in the city evangelizing, we would hold an evening concert with music, dramas, and about 20 mins of preaching...
about his mission trip. (russia)
led 26,

I dont understand how non-christains want christains to pray for them. If you dont believe in god and jesus then what would you expect to happen when christians pary for you. Surely if you want to be prayed for then you must belive there is a god and that christains can use god's power through prayer to bring about something in your non-believing life.The most important thing we as christains must pray for above all else when it comes to non-belivers is that they would see god's truth and become believers.Why pray for healing for a non believer when the most important thing we must do is pray for their redemtion.
TroyMartin, 20

In the upc church they don't allow men to wear short sleve shirts because they think all those hairy arms will cause women to go crazy sexually. It's a rule that wa obviously not written by a female.
Supergal


Well, ok, there are a number of reasons. I can't give you a really technicall reason musically other than to say that the beat is symphatic or something like that which means it goes counter to our heart beat and as a result it causes heart problems by afffecting the beat of our hearts, if listened to for long periods of times.2. It inspires feelings in us that are not edifing such as pride, or lust, or murder, or hatred, etc.3. Plants exposed to rock music continually die. plants exposed to soothing music live and prosper.4. The rock beat comes from african tribal demon worship. and it is the music of satan. Any african tribal worshiper of demons knows and recognises the rock beat as being his God's music.5. The people associated with Rock music are evil looking, long haired men, tatooes all over thier bodies, drug takers, they commit suicide, like james morrison, the whole rock music culture is highly anit christian in scope.6. Rock music in the church polutes the church and causes it to have less power with god, the more one brings into the church from the world the more a church looses power with God. Take for example, one that we can all agree on with, drinking alcohol in church.7. The church up until the mid 70s was vehemently opposed to rock music and christians of that era regularly destroyed rock music they had when they got saved. 8. You can't understand what's being said most of the time in rock music anyway so the argument that the words are edifing is groundless.9. Mostly young people, who don't have much experience with the Lord are pushing hard for rock music in the churchs.10 Older people know better.Well If I knew a lot about music i xcould give you some highly technical reasons, I've heard them but they were very technical and i didn't retain the info very well.So I guess that's why. Probably other reasons I didn't remember. but thats a number of good ones above.agape to all.
ibid

Just as long as You Glorify Christ, and Use Your Modelling Career as Your Spiritual Act of Worship, i See Nothing Wrong With it Personally. Just Make Sure You Show OTHERS The Love of Christ!! Goodluck, and God Bless!
leo

We need to wake up and realize what's going on. We need to realize this IS a holy war, whether we know it or not. Islam wants nothing less than total world subjugation. Convert or die.
kelly

From what I hear, porn addictions are stronger than crack addictions. And I can testify to that. It takes the Holy Spirit to break the bond, every day, by praying in the spirit.
sunstone

Strongs Concordance ii

link dump for the day
come on motherfuckers, read and comment, read and comment.
there must be something there you dudes love.

http://www.nola.com/enter/index.ssf?/news/t-p/metro/index.ssf%3f/base/news-2/108676637854780.xml

crazy man from new orelans makes fake ads, provides fake consueling, does everything in his power to prevent women from making the legitimate choice of termenatiing pregnacny.

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=5509080283

100s of plastic tiny fetuses.

http://www.boston.com/sports/other_sports/olympics/articles/2004/08/03/for_the_first_time_transsexuals_may_compete_in_the_games/

transsexuals, esp. those w. explicit endocrine disorders, are being allowed to participate in the olympics.

yeah!

http://www.303gallery.com/artists/funk/kfexh04.html
going thru art forum every month i see 4 or 5 artists who paint handsome young men in casual sitiuations, im not sure why this is such a trend, but it sure is.

these are some of the better examples, strangely reminding me of tudour princes

http://christiantrader.proboards28.com/
fodder for the mule .

anybody but bush means you get kerry, what does kerry mean--no one is quite sure, but he has seemed to jettison anything that would be interepreted as a priniciple rather quickly.

here is the liberal case against him.
(mostly a katana thru his bullshit speech in boston)

http://www.nypress.com/17/31/news&columns/MattTaibbi.cfm

http://www.aboriginality.com/small/pages/small1.htm

first nations art from australia, ignore the corperate whoredom that begins it.

wwii soilders illustrated cartoons on envelopes going home.
http://lcweb2.loc.gov/cocoon/vhp-stories/loc.natlib.afc2001001.01848/pageturner?ID=pm0054001
they are quite good in that nose art kind of way

wwii soilders illustrated cartoons on envelopes going home.
http://lcweb2.loc.gov/cocoon/vhp-stories/loc.natlib.afc2001001.01848/pageturner?ID=pm0054001
they are quite good in that nose art kind of way

wwii soilders illustrated cartoons on envelopes going home.
http://lcweb2.loc.gov/cocoon/vhp-stories/loc.natlib.afc2001001.01848/pageturner?ID=pm0054001
they are quite good in that nose art kind of way

kushner is also not the most subtle playwright n the world

http://www.thenation.com/doc.mhtml?i=20030324&s=kushner

tony kushner is a great playright, and this is great theater but its about bush, like the last one was about kabul, and the most famous one was about cohn/aids/nyc in the 80s, and seeing the hbo angels production, and thinking about this, i wonder how long it will last--the problem with being super topical.

(the one before kabul was a musical about segeration era south, so maybe he is trying to work that lesson)

http://theunderweardrawer.homestead.com/scutmonkey.html
the rest of her work is actually pretty good, maybe its just the pysch shit i didnt like...what do you think pat ?

http://theunderweardrawer.homestead.com/psych01.html

kind of naive, kind of silly, not really respectful to the metally ill, this comic about a resident on a pyscha ward is horribly written, but it has some of the most delightful art (better suited to elves and unicorns--but good)

http://aztlan.net/lupe.htm
Alma Lopez makes holy work, it features our lady of gaudlope nude, and perhaps more sexually open then certain conserative catholics would like.

but i see a tenderness and love here, and i see god in the curve of breast,belly and hip.

pamela andersons novel will be better then naomi cambells.
discuss.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/collective/A2799633

trent reznor does book and music for fight club the musical.
yes you read that right.
no its not a good idea, trent tends to wallow when given anything longer then 3 minutes.

http://www.buzzflash.com/farrell/04/08/far04026.html

i'm never sure when the paranoia about bush&co is illegitmate, and when we are exactly as scared as we need to be.

this is one that walks the line b/w too crazy and just crazy enough.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/5595163/
more money for cheney, less money for the poor of iraq

http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/ap/20040803/ap_on_el_pr/cheney

cheney, he whose evil must come from a demon under his skull, blames the donkeys on high gas prices.

henri cartier bresson died the other day, not having picked up a camera in 30 years, he apparently drew instead.

havent seen his drawings, but here are some of his photos
http://www.photology.com/bresson/

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/south_asia/3934275.stm

Condoms dont always have to go over cocks (though they are welcome there)

they can:
lubricate a looms shuttle
carry water for workers in feilds
waterproof rooves
protect arms from sand
carry drugs across borders
amongst others

(ashley calls his work canvases, like judd calling his work spec. objects, like me calling them photos)

http://westsunset.net/main.html
http://www.justinnewhall.com/04.html

more photos.
(hilmdavidallen doesnt like the pictures i put up on photo bucket, cause they were banal and snapshotty, with no diagonallly focused lines/golden ratios/thirds/etc so he thot it wasnt composed--i carefully compose my work, making sure that it gets what i want, more to do with content then the masonic magic of sacred geometerys, i wonder if i bother framing it all, i like accidents, randomness, i like that my photos are banal snapshots, thats why they arent art, because there is nothing different between them and something that you could find in your grandmothers photo album, except sometimes abstraction and always care to details not usually observed. the two photogs above match that standard)

are you a god ?
buddha:no
are you a saint
buddha:no
are you a prophet:
buddha:no
what are you?
buddha:awake

saw some lovely mexican wrestler stencils today, on the s ide of a building whose black paint was peeling into grey sqaures, so they were framed.

i like stencils better then i like tagging, its more formal, more serious, and more conceptual--why a mexican wrestler, what is the iconography of the mask ?

(i saw it w. ashley, who uses stencils in his work, and who's work is as iconographic as anything ive seen)

anyways,
here is banksy, http://www.banksy.co.uk/menu.html
hes english, he makes conceptual stencils, and intervenes in the art world of britian (ie dead rat at the natural history musuem, giant bronze statues of pornography)

http://www.boston.com/news/odd/articles/2004/08/04/surely_they_jest_in_this_case_they_dont/

what would the audition consist of, i would apply mostly for the bladder on the stick

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=493&ncid=790&e=2&u=/ap/20040805/ap_en_mo/germany_catwoman

at least affleck/j. lo knew gigli was bad. (last truly cult, midnite movie--showgirls?)

In an essay "Guadalupe the Sex Goddess", Sandra Cisneros writes, "When I
see La Virgen de Guadalupe I want to lift her dress as I did my dolls’ and look
to see if she comes with chones(panties), and does her panocha (vagina) look
like mine, and does she have dark nipples too? Yes, I am certain she does."

http://www.mitchepstein.net/
http://www.alecsoth.com/


two fotogs from the new topographic school, fucking amazing stuff, its a wonder that i dont know these guys, how little i know about picture taking, and how much my work slots into recent devolpments in the last 25 yrs, how boring and old it all is.

this is why one of the reasons privatizing heath care doesnt work, b/c employers spend the least money possible on making people better, and they have to get follow up service in the public sector anyways.

for example, california payed 86m more for wal marts employee health plans.

http://www.azcentral.com/business/articles/0803Wal-Mart-Assistance-ON.html

like most pyschopaths, lyddie england thinks that photographing rape and torture is fun. (pyschpath is the wrong word, it gives her free reign, it allows her not to take moral culpability for her actions, and i wonder if she got in to the army so that she could do this kind of damage, what does this say--among other things--about the complete uselessness of army screening procedures.)

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/3529984.stm

http://scoop.agonist.org/story/2004/8/3/84635/46365

the department of justice is trying to remove documents from libraries.
ashcroft, is a v. nice man, and he would perfer you sang hymns and drank lemonade.
so you should do that.

does anyone know anything about kerrys god sqaud, apparently the leader is both a woman and someone who shows shows infinitely more concern for the sensibilities of atheists like Newdow than it does for the 90 percent of Americans who believe in God, according to newsmax and one other conserative source, i would like to see some other documentation. Her name is Rev. Brenda Bartella Peterson.

qoute comes via catholic leauge...who i would trust to theological sophistcation in the same way i would trust a tiger to protect a butcher shop.

http://www.guardian.co.uk/terrorism/story/0,12780,1274831,00.html

more ink spilled about how basic freedoms like speech and assembley are being gutted in the name of protecting us from terrorism.

most people dont seem to be angry, i dont know why i am. (i do of course, and i could qoute franklin and voltaire, i could be yelling on soapboxes, but breads and circuses seem to have won.)

http://www.freep.com/realestate/renews/arch3_20040803.htm

article that takes the long knives to the idea of star architechts, who are mostly known for their name and who have mostly traded on it for years...disagree with some of couse, but not all.

britney spears enters michael jackson levels of disfunction:
http://www.contactmusic.com/new/xmlfeed.nsf/0/57D473A112FA5F6980256EE500480253!opendocument

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http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=583&e=1&u=/nm/20040803/od_nm/odd_malawi_nun_dc

not all african catholics are deeply conserative.

http://www.gwu.edu/~nsarchiv/news/20040617/index.htm


Jenny Holzer's latest project is to get previously classified documents from the government vis the FOIA, and broadcast those documents on a skyscraping black phallus in Bregenz, Austria.

massively powerful, fasc. use of primary texts, belief in the poltically charged nature of words on paper, hope in transparency.

best shit shes done in years.

here is some history.
http://adaweb.walkerart.org/context/artists/holzer/holzer1.html

http://www.newvision.co.ug/D/8/12/376760

the 83 yr old former president of uganda marries a much younger japanese bride in a mass moonie wedding.

http://quote.bloomberg.com/apps/news?pid=10000103&sid=aQWCrRpR0txk&refer=us

yr a pedophile, and seeing a therapist to qaush those urges, you tell the thearpist that sometimes you see children and still think sexual thots about them esp. in parks, yr therapist tells the courts this is the case, the courts tell you to avoid parks, you enjoy going to parks, cause yr apartments too small, cause you like the smell of flowers, for the same reasons anyone enjoys parks, you get one of lifes pleasures taken away from you, will you tell your t herapist of these thoughts again ?

Santiago Calatrava is making a name for himself as an archtitecht of swooping, crystaline, cathedreals to things that are really only kind of sort of religions, think of the extentsion to the mpls musuem of art and now the olympic stadium in athens...

http://www.guardian.co.uk/arts/features/story/0,11710,1274256,00.html
any disscusion of function yet ?

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/3526816.stm

more nkorean flooding, more famines.
thats what they get for being godless commies.

http://www.newsmax.com/archives/articles/2004/8/1/134457.shtml

look, i know its newsmax, but their russian guy is actually pretty good--aparently putin is somewhat of a thug.

sun rises in the east.

(russian dave talks of going to a conference in indidiana about contemparay russian history, and basically the discussion being that no one had any idea at all what was going on)

http://www.dannybot.com/mpg.html

robots fall in love to danny boy, manages to be deeply silly and kind of moving. a distinct work of frippery.

(bryan watch this)

http://www.gothamgazette.com/article/issueoftheweek/20040802/200/1070

nyc has 40 dailies in multiple languages, when 98 per cent of america has to do w. one.

im not sure how much of this is hasterets wet dream and how much of this is policiy, but there is discussion high up in the gop that they should replace the irs with a sales tax (regressive tax, punishes the poor, the rich dont pay taxes anyways, undemocratic, against the founding fathers, may be a test balloon)

http://www.cnn.com/2004/LAW/08/01/aclu.donations/index.html

aclu has given up government money, cause the U.S. Patriot Act forces them to check to see if their employees are terrorists.

giving how these motherfuckers work, i think that they view the aclu as terrorists regardless.

i know that the seperate intelligence depts in the us hate each other, and i know that they really need to coperatate more, but i really dont imagine adding a third layer of beurocracy will help.

http://www.cnn.com/2004/US/08/02/bush.911/index.html
(and considering how useful both the terrorism and drug tsars have been, i would have more suspsicions)

http://scriptorium.lib.duke.edu/sheetmusic/titlepages-1850/1.html

historic american sheet music.
mostly for fonts, and venucalur illustrations.
enjoy

http://avclub.theonion.com/feature/index.php?issue=4030
good little article on jimmy k and his brillaint sketchbook diaries, an edition of which i sent to san antonio today for d.

(i hope she likes it)
(they took out all of the 50s modern elements of the post office i grew up at and replaced it with mdf and plywood, they will go to hell.)

random house dropped a http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/main.jhtml?xml=/news/2004/07/29/nmed29.xml&sSheet=/news/2004/07/29/ixhome.html
british edition of bush/saud b/c they were afraid of liber concerns...

ansih kapoors amazing sculpture in chicago--the supercillious twit is pissed off that people have nicknamed it the bean (they love it mr kapoor--it doesnt happen v. much)

http://jezlyn.smugmug.com/gallery/169898/1/6380632

http://www.guardian.co.uk/comment/story/0,3604,1273982,00.html

i have been wondering to myself why dafaur made it to the front of the world dailies, why it was this months atrocity, why it was chosen over the pygmies in the Congo for example. how one genocide seemed to win a lottery to be the offical, symbolic genocide that we as westerners will care about this month, and then the next month it will move onto another.

this gaurdian article answers such meta questions, with obvious and clear answers, roughly--its the oil stupid (can anything be reduced to oil, apparently why we are having so high oil prices lately is that both china and the us are stepping up demand and opec is cutting production, there is less and less oil for us to get)

http://www.christianitytoday.com/bc/2002/006/20.38.html

ct article about the same fellow, with some dodgy hell theology added (what is the offical bible word for hell theology)

http://www.tfaoi.com/aa/3aa/3aa457.htm

more dyi jesus weridness, this stuff from the beginning of the 20th century and apocloyptic, closer to bosch then anything.

if you do not have enough saftey exits for the huge numbers of people who congerate in a place, and if you lock the exits you do have, and if you have a fire, people will die. lots of people will die.

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/ap/20040802/ap_on_re_la_am_ca/paraguay_supermarket_fire&cid=589&ncid=716

another huge site on bey---caveot empter, havent figured it all out.

and this is what i have been terrified when it comes to me and this machine:

You’re slumped in front of a screen, in the same physical situation as a TV
watcher, you’ve just added a typewriter. And you’re "interactive." What does
that mean? It does not mean community. It’s catatonic schizophrenia. So blah
blah blah, communicate communicate, data data data. It doesn’t mean anything
more than catatonics babbling and drooling in a mental institution. Why can’t we
stop? How is it that five years ago there were no cell phones, and now everyone
needs a cell phone? You can pick up any book by any half-brained post-Marxist
jerkoff and read about how capitalism creates false needs. Yet we allow it to go
on.

bey again

I think that a radical life is not something that
depends on Internet connections or websites or demos or even on politics, like
having Green mayors. This may sound dull to people who think that having a
really hot website is a revolutionary act. Or that getting a million people to
come out and wave symbolic signs at a symbolic march is a political act. If it
doesn’t involve alternative economic institution building, it’s not. As an
anarchist, I’ve had this critique for years, and experience has only deepened
it. Here, there are people who are very concerned with trying to preserve
whatever natural beauty and farmland exists in this region, and my heart’s with
them. But I think it’s done by and large without any consciousness that this is
already a privileged enclave. We’re saying that this is our backyard and we
don’t want any cement factories. However, we’re not saying that we volunteer to
do without cement. What we’re saying is cement is fine, as long as the factories
are in Mexico.

from that article

when i read hakim bey for the first time, it was the person who gave me permission to live my own life, to fill my own time, to do what i wanted to do, to read or go to a movie or play a game or walk around or talk or fuck around on the computer or listen to music or take fotos or jerk off or travel or try to be a monk or or or/instead of working, grinding, living to some hegemonic corperate discourse.

he made me happy, b/c he gave me time.

here is a really good article about him.
http://brooklynrail.org/spotlight/july04/wilson.html
(btw--never underestimate the vital revolutionary tendencies of jerking off, esp. to squiddies, hey let yr squiddy do it for you, tentacles are massively tenshile)

http://www.collectbritain.co.uk/personalisation/object.cfm?UID=021SED00C908S41U00001C01

odd english dialects collected by the birtish musuem, poetic.

http://www.cartoonnetwork.com/tv_shows/fosters/index.html

visually interesting cartoon, pop weirdness, sort of adams family goes kawaii

http://www.hum.au.dk/romansk/borges/vakalo/zf/html/preface.html

strange and amorphus illustrations to borges's faux taxonomic work on imaiganry(sp) animals, the drawings are actually not as good as the artist thinks they are, but sometimes provide a useful tension b/w several texts (the text of the image, the text of borges, the text that borges is glossing, the text that is invented when any one of these texts come together)

http://www.ucpress.edu/books/bfi/pages/PROD0499.html

mr sinker will kick yr ass (and by ass i mean brain)

Kaylei Mosier of Smith Drug Store, in McKinney Texas is a fucking hero...she is selling perscription at or below wholesale costs, so that people who need them and cannot afford them will not have to chose b.w their diease(sp) or food on their tables.

Look, shit like this should be taken care of by a national pharmacare plan, and by drug compnaies that deal with real drugs and not on the middle classes lack of hard ons, gluttons discomfort and general ennui but until they do... (nyrb article this month on how greedy these motherfuckers are should be read by all)

http://www.nybooks.com/articles/17244
nyrb article (read v. quick, it'll go dark soon)

http://www.chron.com/cs/CDA/ssistory.mpl/metropolitan/2712452
McKinney's doing the right thing.