there's a very short distance between high art and trash, and trash that contains craziness is by this very quality nearer to art'
sirk

bryan, sean, patrick and i watched imitation of life, in an awful pan and scan, and it made me sad.
(the movie makes me laugh or weep about with equal magintude)

I believe marriage is between a man and a woman and I believe we ought to codify that one way or the other and we have lawyers looking at the best way to do that,"

"I am mindful that we're all sinners and I caution those who may try to take a speck out of the neighbor's eye when they got a log in their own,"

"I think it is important for our society to respect each individual, to welcome those with good hearts. "On the other hand, that does not mean that someone like me needs to compromise on the issue of marriage..."
dubya
via die puny humans.

when i sin it doesnt mean that thousands of people die in combat or are kicked off welfare rolls, but still im a filthy sodomite so it doesnt matter, does it.

(when can we get god out of public discourse)

a year ago my mother had major surgery, and tonight she went into the hospital. shes fine, with gravol and tyelnoal 3s there will be no problems tonight but still concern and fury at how little she tells me.

some notes
patricks rosary was deeply helpful
obscure 20th century poetics are inapporite reading for 1 am in an emergency room.
the ft sask er waiting room looks like a greyhound bus station ca 1956
the womens auxiallary bookshelves had 3 violet winspears and 10 barbra cartland
like makes like medicine has a certain poetic power, my mother absorbs all feeling in her belly, like pummelligs from an un just god.
i was sad that i couldnt do a blessing, but it was the first thing i thot.
i had to get off the phone with jeff and im with bryan whose father had an ayneurism. (other bryan, winnipeg bryan)

One of every 15 inmates is a woman. Forty- six percent of those behind bars are African-American, 36 percent are white and 16 percent are Hispanic. Nearly one in every 10 black men between the ages of 25 and 29 is in prison, compared to 1.1 percent of whites and 2.9 percent of Hispanics in the same age group.

Be the first to the Lowell Mass. Baseball game on Jack Kerouac night, and get a bobblehead doll of the author. I hope that it is of the fat and sodden drunk who turned ever so reactionary in his parents basement.

Or maybe they could have one of Neal Cassady--lo&behold- guilt ridden catholic homosex.

fark

When two women kiss on television, with the tag line "Do Men Deserve it" is it dykslpotation or something else entirely, my first instincts are that ad is meant for men, and treats lesbians as cheap exotics, but am unsure.

via mefi

The Texas A and M Journalism program is being scrapped. To protest all they ran on the editoral pages on monday was SAVE AGGIE JOURNALISM LET YOUR VOICE BE HEARD WWW.SAVEJOURNALISM.COM
why dont we help them

via poynter

The Library of NYC joins hundred others by having its budget slashed. do i have to point out how wonderful libraries are, what with the quiet, the books, the free education and inspiration.

oh, wait.
we dont want an educated populace do we ?

bookslut

I am reading Olsons poetic reflections on Moby Dick right now, and they are so difficult. He talks above his reader, both in context and in symbol sets (maybe not every reader, maybe just me) But the langauge is so rich and the syntax so wonderfully gnarled, that i am gaining much from it.

Seadris is reading the book itself and having as hard a time, and is punishing himself until he can finish.

bookslut

As a good catholic i cannot advocate Abortion, but I think that for most it is a descion of social and economic nessicity. Those who tend to terminate pregancies do so because the support after birth is so limited, and prenatally it is not much better.

To view killing the hope of children must be intensely destructive, but it is a choice that needs to be done, because more options are always better and because it is better for these actions to be done safely and hygenically rather then in back allys with coat hangers.

In this sense, Warren Buffets quiet campaign for reproductive freedom is to be encouraged.

daze reader

A Colorado High School student calls his principal a fucking faggot, and he gets punishment. In response, he sues the principal on first amendment grounds.
His PD has written a great sociopoltical history of one of the words, mentioning everything he could in context ofd the arguements. What he did miss was the faggot. If i was prosecuting this case, I would concentrate on that slur, which does not have a long case history that makes it acceptable.

Bush is taking most of August off for some reason (i think that he would have wanted to stay in Washington so that he could fight terrorism), but before he does the Washington Post wants him to go solo on a Press conference.

Now he hasnt done so since March, letting everything be handled by Press Secetaries or answering a couple questons on the fly but the democratic barrage from reporters seems to have been avoided.

If i was inarticulate as Bush, talking to Reporters, who have their own agendas, would be worrisome.

Do you think hes going to do it ?
(my moneys on no
via maud newton

Franz Gehry needs to have his computer aided drafting equipment taken away, so that he can longer produce buildings that overwhelm the space, are gaudy, showly, badly consrtucted and entirley about style over substance.

The latest atrocity (following Bilboa which is losing its scales, and EMP which is the ugliest buliding i have seen) is the King Alfred Center in Hove, UK.

His design has nothing to do with the history or Hove, or the surrounding sea, or the other people who live in the town, or what the King Alfred center was.

It is a hack job for his ego.

see the photos here
from spike magazine.

I believe that the net effect is to forward an agenda making homosexuality appear first normal, and then desirable
Vice President of the Southern Baptist Convention
about gay themed television


well, dont you know, us faggots have an agenda. its to make every breeder everywhere drop children and opposite sexed spouse and to come live with us.

the first step in this operation is to let them watch us on television, cause nothing says homosex is fun more then the three charachters that actually exisist in prime time.

after that, pop music, movies and interpertive dance.

in months sodoms orgies will happen everywhere, and god will destroy the world.

1 in 143 americans are prisoners
which means they cant vote
talk left

larger senior popluation means that
law enforcement has to deal with more cases of dementia
talk left

skin head hamlet
book slut


flordia man might be lynched
yahoo

innovative school for autism
angry bear

coca colas industrial runoff toxic for Indians
alas a blog

more information on the new wall
between palestine and israel. Think Apartheid.

mural ordered torn down in port pilot texas
it had boobies

When HRH Charles, who hates contempary art, ends up in Salzburg, he will have to deal with a serious peice
large being realvent
daze reader

6 protestors show up at Roves talk for young republicans, the young republicans chant his name and the country they are in in response,.
mefi

largest mass grave ever found in bosnia
gaurdian

Farmers destroying sites of "archelogical importance" in the UK government may interfere

NYT reporter and Bush Bitch Judith Miller is called to task by slate (she pushed all the WMD lies via mainstream media)

Amtrak adbonded for private financing
unsure where

usury

via angry bear

Gods Chosen People continue a long tradition of killing children



(this may be in bad taste, anti semetic, and perhaps offensive to the traditions of hatred that include rumours of blood sacrifice, i am so raw at the thought of killing 4 year olds that i thought the bitterness was required.)

Drugs that change brain chemstriy have become so common that using them to correct usual and non organic brain disorders are common. (say no to drugs except when perscribed by hacks)

eli lily (you know them by prozac which they remarketed to women, the price gouged azt, etc) has now gotten premission to give human growth hormanes to children who are on the low end median of average height.

femminist readings have discussed prozac as a way to turn dissatisfaction about ones place in the world has a chemical problem, easily changed by approprite drugs, and this can also be considered with children--this adds another bizzarre and disturbing layer to this kind of social engineering.

link has died via yahoo, will find another.
(edited)

philipine inseruction ends

when wolfowitz uses the word murky in terms of intelligence, what exactly does he mean ? Does he mean lies, disinformation, deception ? Is he excusing the lazy, the criminal ? Were the actions committed in Laos or Cambodia or East Timor or Korea or Nicuroga (sp) or Chile effects of murky intelligence, or just a continutaion of the policy of permant war ?

for agnes at 91st

its a gift to be simple/
its a gift to be free

like a spinster
here in dun fields, dull deserts

you did your work
a chore that brought you closer to god

now you are in town.
with a schedule set by nurses
and aides.

stopped painting,
with everything so clean.

if you keep a sketchbook
under yr pillow.

i hoping for revealtions.

ok
everyone who links to or reads this blog
hit me with something in the comments.

i need to figure out numbers.

for agnes, on her 91st

i
last winter i was
working the grave yard,

its not quite snowing,
and i see this lone grey sky

it buckes in antcipation
as the light catches on frayed corners

which filters onto
dark, dun fields.

ii

this is you agnes,
this was you in venice, new york and taos

this means that you never left
the provinces, and each line,

each shade of lavendar
and tint of blue

would be that light.

iii

like a farmwife
you did the work,

framed, and painted
like milk paint on a barn

a chore that become
your way to god.

iv

now you are away from the farm
in town.

70 years of meditation,
with no room for paintings.

with a schedule that is not your own,
their are rumours you leave a sketchbook
under yr pillow

when we die, will there be
revelations ?

v

you never married,
or had children
you didnt talk to anyone

you failed to network
you didnt go to the parties

you wrote some, but
nothing really about yr work

and most of it failed to publish.
grand nun of the desert,
without demons or angels.

vi

at the tate in london
i wandered, looking

irony, noise, blackness
anger, destruction.

the art there, so little joy
and less intimacy.

when i saw the canvas,
in the last room
on a wall far from the door

i stood infront of it
10,20,30 minutes
till i came into zen

and cried.

george bellows, the wave.

fucking amazing, and deeply powerful.
mostly known for his social realist paintings from the 30s, esp. the boxing specatcles that are ugly and violent, also they remind one of class wars.

this one is natures unfettered power, no politics-- just destruction.

"There is an investigation into alleged mistreatment of some prisoners by some soldiers," said Lt. Cmdr. Nick Balice
Double Speak makes Anthony angry, you dont want Anthony angry.

what exactly are they charging
these guys with

New Stats suggest that the largest number of level one sexual assaults (ie done w/o weapons, etc) are done by boys 11-14. Even 10 years ago this would be considered boys being boys, recontextalizing this behaviour as rape teaches them a lesson, and i think it is a lesson that needs to be taught, however i am unsure wether the criminal justice system is the best way to do this.

a new la show from poplab, not sure if im impressed

video game of 9/11 conceptual art simalcrum or deeply offensive commericalization of national tragedy ?

large heaps of context on Passion. Apparently he did not direct it, but was a conduit of the holy ghost (part of me appericates the balls it takes to say this in public, part of me thinks this is ludicrus)

gossip about the recall campaign including the fact that at the recall campaigns press conferences, they had no spanish speaker even though a prominet latino Mario Rodieguez has been here from the begginning.

also does anyone know anything about powell covering up my lai ?

phillipine blogger adds local context to the below

bryan of course, is better at news then i am, read him and manilla.

These rebels have kidnapped american and australian diplomats as an act of self defense, and as a way to let the world know what they know, namely that the phillipine gvt may have been selling weapons to communist and islamic exremistis as well as staging terroist bombings for sympathy and aid for us defence.

The BBC took that photo down w/i 8 hours, i think because of how healthy and clean the rebels look, the image they replaced it with is an ugly fatigued man with his hand towards the camera, which is reminiscint of the perp walk, the violent and ignoble revoutionary and the soilder who cannot control his instincts.

this is the link to the story, which has also been rewritten

this is frightening, in that the bbc has lied to us, changing the image was moving from fact to propghanda, and from reportage to poltically motivated disinformation.

i thot they were above this.

The Nuns were sentenced. Prision time but not the maxium, and not for sabatoge.

john schelsinger died today

midnight cowboy and sunday bloody sunday are two movies that best explain sex to me, the ambiguity and tenderness and emotional complications that blossom into commitment and love.

cowboy won the oscar, which must have been the time and place, cause it was so radical and isolating that it would seem to be out of place during that gladhaddening.

Nuns are being sentenced in Colorado for non violent resistience.
Kony Rebels in Uganda are threatening to Kill all Priests (direct qoute), and yet they still smuggle child soilders to the realtive saftey of South Africa.
Catholic Bishops in Nigeria speaks truth against power in the kidnapping of Chris Nwabueze Ngige.
Brothers and Sisters in the Congo, trying to protect missions and churches, are macheted to tdarth.
In South America death sqauds still kill priests, including a fair number who were shot at their alttars.

the tragic thing is how little column inches they get.

more gareth photos

they are filled with the minutae that is lost on most vistors, and also with a tenderness and a sadness.

Finally, a candidate who can explain the Bush administration's positions on civil liberties in the original German.
Bill Maher On Arnold Schwarznegger
via hit and run

deeply creepy.

anabelle from bow wow wow

to do tomorrow:

cds (dead kennedies, jr/sr, bow wow wow)
lunch and movie with pat
research society of pope pius xii
talk to bryan
call fthr stephen
pick up copy of screw tape letters

long, well documented article on gibson.

jesus photos, via maud newton

i know that buckingham palace was not there at 1666.

i need to write about my personal life, but am worried about audience.

i broke down last night, and yelled stormed off.
i got angry and frustrated and sad.

im in an ivory tower bungalow, with a mine shaft bunker, welcome to the front plan,
dont come down, you cant come down, i wont let you.

dont push me, dont prod me, dont pull me.

im a self absorbed asshole.
i still dont like sean.

im angry that he pushed his way in, im pissed that he hasnt realized that he has done it, i am livid at the blog, i am meloncholic at my responses.

we talk about me for hours.
we dont let anyone else in.
selfish selfish selfish.

yelling, swearing, being the most cruel i have ever been
and im christian.

fucking hypocrite.

self loathing becomes convient, and we move onto other areas.
i realize how stupid i am, how shallow, how ill informed, how undemocratic.

i realize how cynical i am.
how dark and black my inner workings are.

london 1888, or london 1666
whores, plagues, dust, grime, pollution, massive social change, crime.
thats my inner geopgraphy.
gnarled and lost.
from buckingham palace to gropecunt lane.

i want the great fire, cause that means i can start anew.
i wont get it, i wont recive it, i cant deal with it.
deconstruction means that you need to disassemble every peice, its painful, meticoulus, degrading, exhausting work.

it requires you to lose yrself, like christianity.

i am convinced that the only way that i can prevent the sins of the father is by not trying.
falling in love, having ideals, getting an education, voting.

i heard god at kathys wedding
and she said that i dont

i take advantage of pat.
" ": " " bryan.
" " " " world

conversation in my family is a bloodsport.
sean would make a great politician, i cant predict the concessions he would make.

sean needs to realize the pcs are evil and mckays an asshole, and that thats an iron wall.
sean needs to realize strathcona has lots of traditonally consearitve working poor.
sean needs a way to pay for his ambitions.

bryan needs to quit playing.
bryan needs to quit romanticazing
bryan needs to realize he cant play the games hes playing, and have a family.

patrick needs to quit being so milquetoast.
patrick needs to quit being pushed arround.
patrick needs to realize that a dual classics/phyiscs major will rule the world.
patrick needs to grow a dick if hes gonna use it.

anthony needs to quit relying on people
anthony needs to quit discarding people when they have become inconveient./
anthony needs to practice what he preaches.
anthony needs to piss or get off the pot.

anthony is wondering why hes posting this.

well james carvizel looks both jewish and destroyed.
points for honesty ?

from hollywood jesus.

from the movie

Gibson is not a real catholic but part of a dangerous and schismatic movement called the latin tridentines who are trying to crawl back to pius xii, ie before the massive and important (and god inspired) changes of the second vatican council.
this film is propaghanda for a christianity that is legalistic (which paul warns against)--by that legalism the view of the church as alive and interacting with its traditions is lost, with these things lost, there is also lost the progressive church inspired by a view and of Jesus as a radical and progessive social leader.

he is v. much informed as well by a political agenda that is as conserative as it comes.

i am not looking forward to this film, as i am not looking forward to the continued infulence of thoughts similar to Gibson, including Cardinal Ratzinger, who has met and disucssed the persavation of the family with our friend mel.

deeply violent (think hamburger), deeply frightening, and apparently all paid for by gibson himself.
(reviews are mixed though)

documentary photographs on sex workers in south america, among other places. daze readers


amusing can con from mcsweenys (i think mefi)

abaonded(sp) farms of iceland (look thru the rest, pretty fucking amazing), meme pool

private school horror stories

crows using tools (mefi)

1 in 6 residents of missouri does not have phones, which makes job hunting, education, health care and communication nigh on impossible. (unsure, sorry)

why is romance as a genre less considered then horror or crime ? (daze reader)


Terry Gordan is a convicted felon for engaging in consensual oral sex, wondering if he will be allowed to vote. (daze reader)

BBC has the tapes from David Kelly

creepy traditional christians

mel gibsons father is a holocaust denying, conspiracy theory loving schismatic who belives that the popes post v2 are anti popes, gibson shares some of these opinons

ELMORE LEONARD'S RULES OF FICTION WRITING:
1. Never open a book with weather. The reader is apt to leaf ahead looking
for people.

2. Avoid prologues. They can be annoying.

3. Never use a verb other than "said" to carry dialogue. The line of
dialogue belongs to the character; the verb is the writer sticking his/her
nose in.

4. Never use an adverb to modify "said." It can interrupt the rhythm of the
exchange.

5. Keep your exclamation points under control. You are allowed no more than
two or three per 100,000 words of prose.

6. Never use the words "suddenly" or "all hell broke loose."

7. Use regional dialect or patois sparingly. Once you start spelling words
in dialogue phonetically and loading the page with apostrophes, you won't be
able to stop.

8. Avoid detailed description of characters.

9. Don't go into great detail describing places and things, unless you're
Margaret Atwood.

10. Try to leave out the part that readers tend to skip.

11. If it sounds like writing, rewrite it. If proper usage gets in the way,
it may have to go.
from ilx.

50 christians singing hymns randomly on the street corner, zines and posters on walls, tracts that ape punk handbills, rock and roll music, xxxchurch.com and the god kills a kitten meme, tent revivals in downtown parking lots like TAZs, all of a sudden evangicale christians have come into situionist pranks and dadaist street theater--some questions--

1)where did they pick all of this up, most of them really arent the leftists i expect.
2)why did they pick this up.
3) irony, artifice and perfomance seems opposite of the christian lifestyle, and street theater required it.
4) what can the left learn ?

absence becomes presence

the choice of celibacy
dk


as a choice

the decision comes without
millstones of obligations.

it is like what
to eat or wear
not be

and i make it not god

the whole point is lost ?

do i hate or love la
peter koneig and richard neurta and mythmaking, movies, james ellroy and raymond chnadler, hollywood baylon.

i dont know.

Crow realized there were two gods

One of them much bigger then the other
Loving his enemies
And having all the weapons
Ted Hughes, the crows theology
From Crow

I have two ways to go right now, or three.
One keep writing, send poetry in (taint will have a piece in sept, when the book will come out), criticism, editorials, etc. maybe I can make a living out of it, but I suspect I cannot.
Two, give up the above life for jesus christ. My lord my saviour, (and in the words of stephin merritt, he rewards my good behaviout)
Three, quit playing arround and get a real job.

I feel a whole, I am the happiest and most content of my life, and I have much pleasure, but little joy.

I went to kdays today, and I ate too much, and went on rides and failed at shooting and skeeball (about failing with shooting-do I make strong moral postions out of elements of my own failure, do I hate guns and soilders b/c I could never have the discipline and order to be one)

I also clung to pat, spent the most time with him, hugged and put arm on shoulder held hands, intitated physical contact.

Sean on his blog made a comment about feeling uncomfortable with my coming on, my cock jokes, my dick being hard, my freedom and ease about sex (that’s what would prevent the monastary, not that I have lust in my heart, but that I have this freedom about desires)

Shepered fucked me when I was 14, I loved him, worshipped his strength, looked to him as a father figure, and he fucked me---and I had a sucession of lovers that were older and more in control. Ways to reconstruct shepered. My parents split at an early age, and then my father left.

I have had anger and confusion towards him for a long time

i have extensive mental illness and depression, and seek out companions

I am not sure I am happy being queer, and i am afraid that i would be plain and uninteresting if i wasn't

Often it is a way of social climbing, of getting postions and having an angle.
was i born liking to fuck men, or was i led there by these factors ?


I love patrick, but have no context for that love, I dislike my sister, have no brothers, feel isolated from men, I only know how to express my love thru sex, which is sick and sad, cause I don’t want to fuck him.

Every realtionship has a power dynamic, top or bottom, and In absurdly rare cases an =, and pat is that for us, for me and for bryan and for sean (also in his blog, sean talked about this, and bryan has said it—sean I cannot parse, danielle and I are in constant conflict about who wins, and well bryan is bryan—pentrating, thrusting, big and butch and interferring, he and iare paternal and not fratenal.

I need pat, I need pat to tell me everything will be ok, I need pat to tel me I can love a man, I need pat to listen, I need pat, like everyone needs pat and no one tells him.

I counted everyday that pat was gone, and not a day that brian was, I spent 22 hrs with pat in the last three days.

We have heard all each others stories, what is left ?
To make new ones, but we have fallen into patterns, what has bryan learnt about in this trip

In the last three entries he discussed things that he wanted to talk to about pat, but only corrected me about portland (want to see a culture of resistance, go to powells, the biggest indie bookstore in the world)

Brian convinced the world to house and feed him for two weeks, and maybe that’s unfair but I expect he thinks the world will.

Pat brought me back a medal of bendict and I am going to wear it, have been wearing it, close to my heart, b/w my heart and my belly like a trapeze artist, that’s what I am, order clinging to somewhere b/w the two, cause I live on chaos its an uneasy life.

I don’t know how I feel.

I need God.

Threat rating: Medium. Your total lack of decent
family values makes you dangerous, but we can
count on some right wing nutter blowing you up
if you become too high profile.


What threat to the Bush administration are you?
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what will it take to convince bryan to have this in our home ?

link from bbc

am i cynical enough to think that dr david kellys death was not really a suicide, will this be vince foster of the left ?
how conspiracy theory heavy will i be ?

ugandan aids patients get free drugs
all africa

edison schools for profit providers of public eductation, have gone from having shares to being owned privately, which means that they have almost no accountability to a communities larger citizens.
scary

both of these from obscure store

beat the shit out of a suspect and get 75 per cent of salary and 23, 500 dollars as a stress bonus.

these kind of stories deal with money and outrage.

if the purpose of prisons is the rehabilate those in them, and crime is often committed for social reasons, then it makes sense to restore transsexuals to who they really are.

the lords prayer in 1200 langauges via mefi

large collection of stencils, from the site below

according to a leading french anti racist group, extreme jews and white supermicists are combining to abuse arabs.

mefi

stories below from wooster, mefi, and various blogs, sorry i havent kept closer watch.

US student aid is being cut by 84k students, and 270 million dollars

the new email system for the white house has a menu that is almost unusably complex, and requires you to identify your email as disstenting or praising

FBI questions man who was reading a critiqe of fox news in public.

Jeffery Kofman is a reporter for abc who submitted a report that suggested morale in iraq was v. low and which had qoutes from soilders that destroyed any idea that those who fought the was thought it was a good idea, was outed as a gay canadian by Matt Drudge, a silmy gossip hound who broke the monica story among other things.

the soilders were fired by insourbanation(sp)

democrats storm out of house ways and means comittee

the stencils here, meant for street art, are singular, exquiste and really quite amazing

i saw henry v last night, and it was excellent, well acted, the lines which could be delivered with bombast delivered with a subtle and powerful certanity, and the sound design amazing.

dinner at pats before, conversation with his parents over wine, chicken, potatos, bread.

a good night.

carol shields died yesterday, at 68, from breast cancer.
larrys party was the fucked up and lonley middle aged man novel that roth and mailer wanted but could never have, and through the rest of her work her deep belief in the self persavation and humanity shone through.

i will miss her.

if you are going to the most sacred site in the catholic church and perhaps christendom, a site of deep reverance, would you not dress for the occasion--people come into the church in bare shoulders and shorts and t shirts, and then are dismayed to have to buy paper pants and shirts.

morons

new stuff from wooster

wanking reduces prostate cancer

and while looking for that this:

and this

thinking of minor thirds again, i am looking forward to the cd cause of the post pop imagery, the manila folder, the hand stamped wheat sheafs, the booklet.

is that wrong of me ?
(the wheat sheafs are offically the symbol of sask. and they are one of the more elegant designed elements in recent memory.)

(its really been insanely lush outside in the last few weeks, out my window i can see a dozen shades of green (poplar leaves, grass, dandelion greens, the stalks of germniums and dasies, firs, maple and birch leaves, elm leaves, and the font on the yellow canola bucket)

the condo across the way is empty, and i got a wrong number looking for a house for sale, i told them that concidentally the house next door was for sale, and walked over there, the sign had changed that day to sold.

and bryan wrote about big sur as well, which reminds me to dig out the prosepoemlirtugydrunkensoddenmesswonderusnonesene that kerouac wrote in the
last five pages of the novel written after the place.

i ate and drank with patrick last night, and i think i crowded him with my thoughts and questions.
he got me a wooden pinnocho, some saints medals (bendict, jude, our lady of gaudelope) and a dark wood and silver rosary from the vatican.

i will hold that rosary holy, it is almost too formal, too beuatiful, too powerful and portent to use, but i will.

bryan is on a road trip (link on the side, under edmonton) and he wrote this sentence.
Vegas is too cheap a whore even for Babylon.
(i like vegas, but thats the venturist in me, that said, i would kill to write a sentence that good)

edited below post for clairty, and corrected link.

chris did the edit that resulted in the first haiku you see below, (chris also broke open the america poem, and edits the journal flim which is amazing, as well as fronting the band the minor thirds, whose sask. ep i saw in seattle, and which is heading my way
(link to the band here )

he also asks for haiku instead of testimonals on his friendster profile, which i have not done yet.
r&w talks about the issues of turning a japanese form into english on his blog, and i think the 5/7/5 maybe an anglo convention.

so i will take haiku to mean a very short poem (3 line is haiku/5 is tanka--but i have seen translations of kasa and basho that are more then 5 but were intended as haiku...) that is meant through allegorical langauge, and often nature, to change the way one thinks about the world, not through conversion but something so subtle and understated that it can only be expressed in code. (dickinson does this well, and in some ways so does creeley)

so here i go, some haiku:

I

i inspect
their haunches
like horseflesh

II

moth comes
to light,
late work and fan noise

III

river is made
brown from silt
and not shit

IV

the summer heat
burns and only
at dawn does comfort come

V

i cannot sleep
they are coming
in the morning for me.

VI

He wanted to see
the expulsion from paradise
but glare blinded

VII

black highway
green grass and
silver silos

VIII

nature comes
from car windows
and television shows

IX

the shell station
no longer bleeds
red neon at night

X

I have stayed up
too late when i hear
the birds greet me

inteded as both a analytic tool and a curatorial one, the neuroscience art gallery has some bizzare, astounding images and also brings up questions about authour and intent.

here

Xtina, Britney, Tatu, Fischerspooner,Peaches, Sontag, Andrew WK, Roe Etheridge, Deitch Projects, Johnny Rotten, Todd Haynes, Jeff Koons, Peter Halley, Basquit, Adult., Mystikal, J. Lo, The Strokes, Madonna, Pink, Avril, Fred Durst, Lynda Perry, The Matrix.

people i name checked on my electroclash essay.

watch my fame grow motherfuckers

america got their qaugmire

more calling out of hitchens traitous acts.

direct action proves effective in hong kong

i inspect
their haunches
like horseflesh

columbine paint ball

industrial materials, esp. found or barely touched are frequently used in minimalist and post minimalist art (chamberlins cars, andres bricks, flavins lights, judds metal and plywood, palmeros fabrics)--the largest collections of this work are stored by dia who has taken over an old army base (marfa) and a cracker factory (beacon) and the tate, who uses the old bankshead power station.

how does medium inform musuem, is it a practical space issue, or is it something larger ?

(also thinking of martin as the most painterl minimalist, a new essay in W qoutes her as self indetifying(sp) as an abexer, which gives caution to our thoughts of cannons and who belongs in them)

the boys come
to the front of my brain.

each inch of them,
each foot, comes striding

and i line them up,
inspect their haunches like
horseflesh.

they will behave here,
in memory.

like they never behaved
when they were desires

the course brown robe
does not make life easy.

what will ever happen
to big macs and pop videos.

at the road,
left right forward.

i can see forward, and it is dull
left the pines seem straighter
right the birches seem whiter.

and i am stuck looking left
and then right.

i will stay here,
and wait for another cliche

to guide me.

y
and i have to turn left.

the woods are thicker
the pines straighter
and the birches whiter.

but i say this,
to avoid the consquences
of the right hand road

Does the ireland seamus heaney(sp) writes about even exist, did it ever, is he just selling nostalgia to the americans (esp. now that he is at harvard, that irish american outpost)?

is he a continuation of the romantic movement of woodsworth and co. ?

how does he relate to Yeats, to Joyce, to Kavanaugh(sp), to the rest of irish literuture (sp)

does anyone else compete with such intense pastorals ?
(are they really pastorals with the muck and the death)
(is the death all perserved, like the bog poems)

does the poverty become less real and more cute (wrong word, twee, kitsch, something else, thinking of frank mccourt)

stevie troussay says i should look at muldoon in context of this, perhaps i shall.

Thomas Struth.
mid century modernism photographs really well.

brother antionus wasnt a friar for long, i just read a bio, and he left the orders after meeting his third wife.
lust or love or desire always wins ?

link here

Seed

Some seed in me,
Some troublous birth,
Like an awkward awakening,
stirs into life.

Terrible and instinctive
It touches my guts.
I fear and resist it,
Crouch down on my norms, a man's
Patent assurances.

I don't know its nature.
I have no term for it.
I cannot see its shape.
But, there, inscrutable,
Just underground,
Is the long-avoided tatency.

Like the mushrooms in the oak wood,
Where the high-sloped mountain
Benches the sea,
When the faint rains of November
Damp down the duff,
Wakening their spores---
Like them,
Gross, thick and compelling,
What I fear and desire
Pokes up its head.

brother antonius

thoughts about celibacy, which has been an under current here for a while, but has not been explicitly stated.

01)i like the theory of sex and how it reflects on the nature of humanity, everything from rabelais low comedies to donnes high spirtuality.
02)gerald manley hopkins gave up sex and writing at the same time, and only returned to writing when given permission for his abbott.
03) i feel split in two, god and writing, both singular at the core, both inward thinking and at their best that inward thinking pushes back onto a public audience.
04) what i want from life i think is companionship, i live with out sex quite easily, but cannot imagine living with out other people, what i admire about brittern and bears, chester and wynston, isherwood and his companion is that they wrote and edited and sang and composed a life together, the sex i can barely imagine/
05) i want a company of brothers, mostly to prove to myself it could work.
06) masturbation is a deeply effective way for me to release daily tensions, and i am unsure if i could give that up.
07) am i denying my sex because my sex makes me feel uncomfortable, am i giving up fucking boys out of societal pressures ?
08) i am a sexual radical in that i belive that it can be liberation, and it has liberated me--it got me kicked out of the mormons, it gave me a sense of joy, it taught me compassion, it taught me passion, it gave birth to me--i was born once, and then again as a queer man and then as a christian/
09) i dont want to be used as magdalene (ie repentant whore)
10) i still often think of men sexually, not in a take joy in the lords creation way, but a holy fuck i want him way.
11) this is happening less often.
12) this means that the niggling desire for domesticity will have to be abanoded, the first time i ever thought about kids and now i am supposed to leave that idea behind ?
13) i take desire and let it craft me, i follow the politics and poetics of sex because i think it tells us about who we are.
14) i keep thinking of the old hatian creole proverb tell me who you love and i will tell you who you are.
15) brother antonius, friend of the beats and the black mountain school, joined the domincans in 1951
16) he was anthologized by ginsberg in new american poetry, he wrote angry and political poetry.
17) i make dirty jokes, say fuck and cunt, talk with candor.
18) my mind wanders, rambles, kicks out ideas, it is not placid.
19) i belive in telling the truth, sometimes the priesthood requires polite lies.
20) fthr stephen has told me i cannot become a priest.
21) i love my exes.
22) is this a retreat from the world from god or because i dont want to deal with its implications.
23) can i live the contemplative life.
24) their is delicous irony in the idea that the most radical thing i can do in this culture of sexuaility is deny it
25) how many monks and priests love xtina or britney or pop culture.
26) can i jettison my intellectual pride.
27) can i still hold fondly memoirs of eroticism
28) bittner talks about spending time and almost falling in love with girls at summer camp, and he does not feel like he is giving things up.
29) i am angry at the church, and i love it.
30) in too many ways i am a cynical prick.
31) this is like getting married, and i am worried that it will be all george and martha
32) the lyrical, low key, gossipy, arch high camp style i worked so hard on.
33) i am not joyful enough
34) i am not serious enough.
35) look at all of the damage the priestly castes have done.
36) can i still read hollebeque and his ilk
37) concern about what other people think colours me, how will this affect it.
38) i make too many literary references.
39) what about sfu, vancouver.
40) authourity and problems with.
41) black dog depressions, which encourge solipism.
42) overly romantic visions.
43) my penis.
44) christs penis.
45) lds baggage.
46) the inability to complete what i start.
47) fear and shame of the body.
48) that asshole paul
49) i am not sure that i am doing this b/c god is calling me but b/c it means that i do not have to deal with the implications of wanting what i think i cant have.
50) will i lose my independece to god or to the insutution.

country folk album from kevin steel
via colby cosh

other thot re:editing--after spending days rewriting one poem, fighting and pissing over one line, its good to have one place where i can just fucking write.

joe daumer talks about the never edit ethics of blogs, and i have thot a long time about taking and revising posts, i did so, and then stopped, and then did so again with notes of what i edited, then dropped the notes, then added them again.

the energy of this place means that it needs to move forward, to go go go go, like a steam train---otherwise the hobgoblins of paronia and self doubt start flinging shit. (which they also do when i start thinking of readers)

so now, all i am thinking about is moving forward quicky.

no edits, no rewrites, no concern re audience.

(news about move via maud newton)

The Atlantic Monthly is moving to LA and changing format to a more pop culture vein. While I think we need more intellecutal currency in LA , and i think that the discourse could be heightened in that reigon of the world, and i think that la is a great place, and i think that it is starting to deveolp a serious art culture at ucla and that uc irvince has got economics down pat, i still think this is a rather moronic idea.

though art forum moved from la to nyc when it started making money in the late 70s, and it turned from a fun and playful critical gangbang into missionary married sex, i doubt the prim spinster could pull a reverse move.

its like imagining emily dickionson with a boob job.

not very many colourists

Photogs that i want to photograph like.

william eggelston

gedney (made amazing notebooks as well, see
here

Lee Friedlander

Lewis Baltz

Thomas Barrow

Nan Goldin

Garry Winnograd

Diane Arbus

Anthony,

Take whatever time you need with it and send me back a clean copy whenever you are ready. Also, send a short bio of whatever you would like and include your e-mail in it if you'd lke.

Also, know that I like this specific poem, but I also like your work in general, a kind of understated lyricism, as I read it, and I hope you'll keep trying us with other work. We like to continue to support the writers we like.

Best, Chris

Dear Anthony,

michaelmas is really close, but I think it can be even better than it is. Let me know if you'd be open to edits/suggestions. Or, if you'd rather, please feel free to send me a bunch more. Or both.

Best, Chris

Hon. Ron Paul from Texas schools us all in what it means to be conserative

Today is the 6th month of patrick, bryan and i.
Portent.

patrick is home tomorrow evening and im scared.
what if he is so changed that we are no longer friends.
what if the rapport that we have acheived is lost.

what if he doesnt want to come out on sat. was it presumptous of me to buy a ticket.
is it ok to call just after he lands or should i wait a bit.

aargh.

20 lies about iraq
via mefi

reading summerhill by as neil while watching a special on child beauty pageant, i realized how close i was to neils model, and how far away i was from anything else.

the problem with neil is how freudian he was, for example his obsessions with elimanating filth, his discussions on masterbation and his assumption that homosexuailty was constructed from a shame cycle.

looking at how perversely sexual the children on the documentary were tonight, and thinking of my own shame training, i do not think that he was wrong about wanking and fear of the body, (esp. in a religous context) and he may not even be wrong about shit playing. and he is right on how and why children are sexual--he is wrong about homosex, but that could be time and place.

i submitted poems to 3 magazines yesterday
i heard back once this morning and i got this response:

Dear Anthony,
Not this one, but I'd like to see more if you'd like to try us again. Send a bunch.
Best, Chris

which i did

"Your ears are deaf and your eyes are blind. You do not witness the suffering of gay and lesbian people."
Peter Tatchell, protesting at the genral synod.
do you know what, i think hes right.

link here

Every time i think the anglican situation simmers down, it blasts up with more fury then before. Both factions (and they are factions) are fighting for theit lives, this time the words have become more pointed.

story here

davids dad died last week, and i found out about it today.
i offered companionship, love and tuna cassrole.
i hope he takes one of those three.

from booknotes, via reading and writing.

i need to realize that choosing convention is still making a choice.

my aunts and uncles and grandparents all are still married, all of the marriages "worked" except for my mothers and my fathers, which was tramautic enough.

even though marriage and romantic love are recent inventions, they might just have been invented for a purpose beyond the pecuinary(sp).

maybe i am wrong about this.

Thomas is getting married today but hes in maple ridge and im in edmonton, we just talked, and in my lack of sleep addled brain i couldnt get the words out, thomas and melinda are the couple that convinces me that marriage is more then property, that marriage can and will be a commitment that lasts for both of thier lives and is founded on love, respect and fear of the glory of god.

melinda and thomas give me faith in the old ways, because i know that they will work through changes within themselves and the world. By this working they will make a permanant impact on the way things are run. They love each other, and not the cheap romanticism that is traded for love today, but a love of passion, dignity, duty and intelligence.

they are suiting up to run the long race, and too few people who get into this morass have done that. For them the descion was so clear, and naturally progressed, that it doesnt seem a morass, but a natural extension. This was not done out of properity or obligation,

i dont know what else to say, but thomas and melinda give me hope for the future, and for someone so used to cheap cynicism and general despai--hope for the future is a wonderful gift.

also it is st bendicts day today, which puts me in mind of a 3rd option, that of monastic life...an option whose validness has grown stronger, and whose relavence has grown deeper.

i am hot and drunk and have come back from a wedding
which always makes me feel disenfranchised and lonley

if i ever get married (and that prosepect seems to have left, if it ever occured),
then the push of tradtion and properity will never apply to us.

thomas gets married tomorrow, andrew next year.
the more and more i think of it, the less i want it.

not only sex but love.

the advantages of having a wal mart in bejing are two fold--you can just drive the slave produced goods downtown, and when one of the workers raises a fuss about not being able to unionize, or working too long hours, or being fucked over when it comes to pay, you can always have him arrested and shot.

welcome to the new boss, same as the old.

African Depections from the life of Christ

The problem with these lists is that it is an excercise in laugh at these dumb hicks, with out realizing how self refential and often campy the intentions are--country music is deeply lyrical and it uses word play in ways that are much more ambigous and playful then most people recognize--alice randall, african american academic, parodist and country song writer called it the closest thing she has found to the caroline poets, and i would have a tendency to agree with her.

People in Tuppenish cannot search Tuppenish on the libraries computers, cause of filters could someone argue that librarians themselves act as internet filters? via library.net

tomorrow i will have dinner with sean and tell him that he can move in with bryan and i. i did not want him to because of nervousness concerning livining with people (boarding schools and mental hospitals in early adolescence mean that privacy is at a key later on), i was worried about how he and i interacted, his lack of socail graces and his obsessions which didnt match with mine.

sean i have to smile and nod with, and people smile and nod with me.

my other reservation is that he came with beggars cap in hand, acting v. manipultive--and that is something i do not react well to, matthew 25 tells me to house the homeless, and i need to do this, i am obliged by my god, and i cannot in my heart get over this fact. my inner 6 yr old is holding a tantrum whining i doooooooooont waaaana.

but i will.

(i am an asshole at heart, speaking cruely behind others backs, using nasty words, pretending to be the victim while really being the villian, i did this with raymond at the smog gig, mostly b/c i didnt assume that he had feelings, and i told jhen how i felt when i saw her randomly at HUB--i also tore into news writing, which she does, its not tactlessness, it is something much more savage. )

everyone calls me nice and kind and gentle and tender.
but i am an asshole who uses people, and seeks to destroy them.

i am as ruthless as i need to be.

alex as victorian ragamuffin. steam punk droogs. jil sander is back and pretty as fuck

hitchens named names, though the impeachment of the clintons wasnt huac

well the farm kids were always the toughest where i grew up

Katherine Raine and The Prince of Wales started a foundtaion with these tennets

shows what a recationary bitch raine could be.

dirty harry potter lists

giant catfish

The Harry Potter books are introducing children to the idea of going into bookstores and buying books. This is important. It’s not just a matter of selling their parents a book or two of their own when the family comes in to buy the latest Harry Potter for their youngsters, though that’s happening too. It used to be that kids would run into books in paperback wire racks in drugstores and grocery stores, and see all those brightly-colored corrugated displays in the doorways of shopping mall chain bookstores. That’s getting less and less common. Standalone superstores are great, but they only sell books to people who go into bookstores. Like reading itself, we want that to become a habit.
via making light

also justin timberlake on the black eyed peas, pink covering beck for charles angels two, the authentic is dead ?

finished a media studies peice on the war in iraq for 53, h in addis was deeply helpful in his edits, mc punjabis doing break beat bhangra on much music, my belly is full and my head is swimming from lack of sleep.

two major edits, and another 300 words tomorrow, but that will do.

Small men took on the powers and airs of tyrants and masters. Years of unpunished brutality and bullying and rape produced a dullness and hardness of conscience. Christian men and women became blind to the clearest commands of their faith and added hypocrisy to injustice. A republic founded on equality for all became a prison for millions."
dubya


the economy and ruling elite had slaves, these were not small men, and jefferson wrote not with the air of a tyrant but of a democratic man. the rest of the rhetoric is pretty fucking thick.

i got an email from brian and am unsure how to respond.

review of the new british library recordings of poets, with selections from gertude stein, robert frost and pound, among others.

shiny robot suicides, now with king kong action, here

found city of glass on sale, smog is in van now and kyle, i need to go, im homesick for somewhere which was never home.

artists chess sets
yoko onos is all white, an implicit and elegant pacifist statement.
cages can only be played by sound.

and another long essay about it

does anyone ever read any of my links ?

and a radio station of dance hall

Murder is only condemned when it upsets or damages the community. If it does not, society quickly comes up with euphemisms (= reducing cognitive dissonance).
-- Siegbran Hetteson
from the same thread
here

after reading an intense and fairly complex fight about homophobia in dancehall on ilm i need to know more about Marcus Garvey and the back to africa movement (esp. its realtion to rastafarianism--also a 101 on rasta and its relation to mainstream protestent thot esp. apoclyoptic protestantism would be good).

anyone know anything ?

i am feeling trapped and worthless.

(also tell of the joy, tell of the moments of pure satisfaction--david seadris does this perfectly)

image by david wojnarowicz

Oh, you're one of those sodomites
You should only get AIDS and die, you pig. How's that? Why don't you see if you can sue me, you pig. You got nothing better than to put me down, you piece of garbage. You have got nothing to do today, go eat a sausage and choke on it.

Michael Savage
who has gotten fired from msnbc

his defense was that he didnt mean to say this on air, which proves that homophobia is still rampant, and its ok as long as you keep quiet.

its like domestic partnership benefits, which basically mean as long as you pretend as hard as you can to be breeders we will allow you to have some of the same rights as them, but only if you are good.

elsie wayne wont be attending the pride parade held for her in her home town, because she doesnt see why "we have to do these things in public" thats the point--public.

(we do the same things though, we are too quiet, and we stay in our ghettos, our full lives are not realized)


it is our duty to witness, to say that we are queer, and to note every time that our lives are violated.
that is why the bishop of reading pisses me off so much.

he was violated, and he was quiet.
FUCK HIM.

edward taylor was a purtian poet who hid almost all of his poetry, in fear that it was inapporopite to gods eyes.
its good he didnt burn it

the assumption that "supressing active political thought" (in the words of the editor of harpers) is done through the apathy of the viewers is wrong headed, the low voting rates and the lack of discourse is an indication of a corrupt and fatous system that is no longer working for its citizens.

he does talk however, about an accidental conspiracy that wants to remain in power, and talks about the lack of populist voice and sites of resistence (zines, the web, blogs, college papers, universities, and general global communication that has been democratized needs to be acknoweldeged as a way to get this power, but will not by lapham, because he is traditonally in the media.

the bishop from reading has resigned so instead of forcing nessc. discourse he has capitualted to a group of bullies, the issues are still there, and the schism while no longer immeadite is now immeninet.

the bassist was from jonesborough, the site of the first shooting post columbine, which he illustrated by pumping an imganiary shot gun.

two hours of music, 12 songs, then encore of 5, ended with dress sexy at my funeral, featured ex con, butterflies drowned in wine, she breaks horses, bathysphere.

hstencil got me in, gave me a break on a cd, couldnt afford the drinking i did, but i did it anyways.
talked to the band, the bassist and i comforting each other on having fundementalist church backgrounds, and having to destroy our records and tapes-he had to burn his in public spectacles which i never did.

walked ashley home, rambled around downtown. met a man who couldnt find his explorer, coming from edmonton for the first time from nunvat via sask and he got his car towed, bought him breakfast at dennys.

i owe almost 230 dollars again, which is almost all of my money for the oregon peice, will have to clean that up by august.

klein gets pied

i am drunk it is 6 am, the concert ended at 2, i am about to head home.

i have not thot about my oppostion to the death penalty in symbolic terms, but in purely practical terms, you cannot retract an executuion, if you are wrong you are permanatly wrong.

for example recently 25 prisoners in flordia have been recently exonorated.

rumours and facts about bea arthur.

1) sang with lotte lenya on broadway
2) may have shat in betty whites dressing room
3) drunkenly acosted an agent at elaines and slurred "yr the kind of man who ruined my life"
4) told rufus wainwright "im no ones fucking grandmother" after he metioned a line he wrote about wanting exactly that.
5) of her golden girls pals: we are awfully different people and we do not socialze

anne powers
found on pbs while searching for fred durst photoz

america
the minor thirds edit.

fucking the mormon missionary from cali
was like fucking america
or how i imagine the america in coca cola commericals
and hollywood sitcoms to feel like

having him close to me
was like having disneyland in me
cloying sweet and deeply artifical
fun when young, camp when old.

learning about god from him
was like learing from las vegas
except for the lack of theology
or theory.

loving him was like feeling guilty
for singing along to a pop song
and mourning for his loss
was like missing the tailfinned ford fairlanes.

it in the end
was even better then the real thing.

preacher who rallied publically against sodomites and whores is accused of soliciting oral sex from a 14 yr old boy

moses became so prideful and angry that he was not allowed into the promised land.
christ proved himself human in the desert, not by giving into temptation but by refuting it.
st anthony of the desert needed to see demons, devils, dancing girls. mirages of pleasure and then satan himself before he found god.
bryan knows this, and he knows what he needs to do, i wish him gods speed.

inka essenhigh

painterly, cartoonish, superflat(but american). sinister, with the colours of cartoons and the world arround us (here the ocean scenes in pinniocho and the surgical, clinical garb of dentists rooms and hospital scrubs), abstract enough that the giant eye just barely is visbible on a second viewing.

anthony : Brasilla, the first wholly modernist designed city, was built w/o sidewalks.

Yes and no. There are plenty of pedestrian paths to walk along. They just aren't alongside the roads. And when you think about it, if you have a choice, where would you prefer to walk? I'm also impressed by the fact that every Sunday, the central motorway is closed for pedestrians, who can then jog, cycle, scooter, and occasionally have stalls and concerts along it.
phil jones
ilx

lot of gay people think, 'I was just automatically gay. There was no decision involved,' but that's not really true. They've made their first big decision by just saying, 'I'm going to live a gay life.' And if they can make that kind of move it's an indication that the potential exists for something more. Now, a lot of them don't ever do anything about it because it's just as easy to get lost in this gay world as it is in the straight world. But if somebody really wants something different they can really do it on an independent, searching basis through being homosexual. —Tom Rauffenbart, The Ninth Street Center Journal, Vol. 2, 1974"

from bent kid

america
kgl

all that compact loveliness
and sun tanned earnestness
will cause you much pleasure. .

bleach the teeth, loosen your tie
the world will find your love of america qauint
and your lack of irony charming.

in the end you will be rewarded.
a split level, two children.
and a wife who learns to forget/

corpus christi

the body of christ
is placed on our tounges

except for the woman
facing the tabernacle

she is suckling her boy
instead.

by this turning away
she faces christ still

veronica looks over her right
mary looks over her left.

by the three
we are blessed.

going from city grime
to prarie dirt
with our romping
our ravages were tamed

until he left
and i returned to steel
while the coyotes
remained feral.

the paris review this month published a post houmus(sp) short almost lyric by ar ammons, that was found scrawled on the back of an envelope.

did they have the right to do this ?
what are the implications of lost or unedited manuscripts.

(also it was really fucking good)

: I would hope not. But I'll tell you this: I think that any honest and candid supporter of the death penalty has to acknowledge that that support comes in spite of the fact that there will inevitably be some mistakes. And that's a harsh concession to make, but I think it's the only honest concession to make, and it should spur us to have appreciation for habeas corpus, for the procedural safeguards for the accused, and for the fairness that's a part of the American judicial system and to resist efforts to take away the procedural safeguards.
al gore in the san fransico bay gaurdian
thanks to talk left for both of these links

howard dean has changed his policy on capital punishment, from anti to for, which may be realpolitik or a change of heart (is this one of the few examples of the lefts real politik?)

it looks like we were right about iraqi looting, the numbers are back up to about 6000 at a low estimate.
story here
via making light

and this is why i am against queer marriage:
the rest of the site is vaugely creepy

Silvio Berlusconi, the italian pm, who owns large chunks of media, construction, food and other buisnesses, and was about to indicted on bribery charges before he changed laws so he could be immune from prosuction until his term is up, today has recived the presidentship of the eu.

the guy is a facist, and he is a symptomn of italys continued nostalgia for this sort of shit.

united states has cut miltary aid in 35 countries b/c they refuse to exempt america from the international criminal court.

the funniest thing i have read in ages
(tmftml)

iraqi freedom svu
via ilx

i worry that i have too many links and not nearly enough content, either personal or political.
what would you, my 6 faithful readers, want to see ?

also if you have linked to my blog (like tmftml) could you email or comment ?
curious who is out there.

urban outfitter has given a little over 13k to Rick Santorums campaign, according to uffish.
do with that what one will

good 6ths cover of the human leauge

the creation of eretia from ethopia should have been a perfect post colonial solution, and although the violence has slowed down a bit, starvation and famine have increased to levels seen since the 80s.

what is left ?

george winnogard.
more here he is in a show at the la county musuem with eggleston and arbus, and i think manages a middle b/w his banality and her grotesquries(sp)

Fox Movie Channel will discontinue the broadcast of the Charlie Chan mystery films. Originally restored to meet the requests of mystery fans and film preservation buffs, Fox Movie Channel scheduled these films in a showcase intended to illustrate the positive aspects of these movies such as the complex story lines/ characters and Charlie Chan's great intellect . . . However, Fox Movie Channel has been made aware that the Charlie Chan films may contain situations or depictions that are sensitive to some viewers. Fox Movie Channel realizes that these historic films were produced at a time where racial sensitivities were not as they are today. As a result of the public response to the airing of these films, Fox Movie Channel will remove them from the schedule. In the hope that this action will evoke discussion about the progress made in our modern, multicultural society, we invite you to please click CONTACT US to send us your thoughts on the matter.
from fox, via hit and run


there is no dispute that the charlie chan films are deeply racist, in the same way that gone with the wind was, that said, they are needed to remind us of the implications of our actions, the consquences of our history, and as a way to find how our intentions and actions have changed.

that, and even more difficultly, they are great movies, well acted and written, with brilliant pacing.
(i wonder if an asian scholar could use it as the equivlaent of blaxplotation, cf the blog charlie chans revenge)

seeing this smallville came on the television, and the whole exotic bordello cliches came through, in a poker game in an underground de facto opium den.

johnny depp returns from peru with two pirahans and a vampire bat.
(you do not know how happy i am to write that sentence)
via gawker

the photo i made of the chaki exhibit in vancouver, will be on my friend chakis album cover by the end of the year. (two different chakis, i sent it to him cause the names unusual)

readers respond with bile about the books they hate.
also from from the minor fall the major lift

Cake and Neave make lego reproductions of famous art, mostly pop or conceptual, mostly stuff that is controversial when it was bought, think Carl Andres Bricks, Andy Warhols Flowers and most brilliantly of all
Damien Hirst's The Physical Impossibility of Death in the Mind of Someone Living

ie
the shark peice

from the minor fall the major lift

(its about the mocking specatacle and hype based art and arts reporting, BUT IT IS ALSO IN LEGO.

good music blog
the introduction is one of those indie hipster bitter things, but hey i am an indie hipster and i am bitter, so well you know.

frightening interference concerning the police and yale.

interesting b/c legitimate cause becomes powertripping and overkill.
also interesting because of the yale libraries security mesures

richard thompson has recorded the best songs of the last 1000 yrs, including shannondoah and the cuckoo song--apparently inspired by playboy asking for his millenial list.
via colby cash

Joe LeSueur's Digressions on Some Poems by Frank O'Hara
need to get this.

200 virgins in vegas. celebrating not fucking

why so much guilt about sex ?
why so much desire to cause ignorance ?
even masturbation, which seems the safest way to dislodge sexual tension, are viewed as suspect.
fear of the body ?

yesterday was danielles birthday, and then seans.
i drank too much, ate too richly.
it was a night rife with symbolism and deeper meanings, and it was a night of congealing.

at the japanese resturant, after the meal, a slight of hand artist made things disappear, and reappear, joked and pattered and made his routine smooth and soft...

at the patio of a bar at the most expenisve hotel in the city, i encouraged danielles decadence, and mine as well. two cocktails, one bitter and one sweet, and creme brulee (the hard thick crust of sugar, the velvet of processed lavendar and oranges--seeing the couples spill out of the wedding next door into the formal gardens. seeing the rows and rows of city lights, like chinese terraces, -- hearing the dj playing hip hop, balladry, disco--smelling each other, pine, and a whiff of exhaust...

in the car dropping her off, a little drunk, the intimacy came quick and fast, i felt more comfortoble then i had since she left, and the ease seemed to last for the first time.

picking sean up, his father drunk and boisturus, talking smack and violence, each time a lull in the conversation, a cooler or a pitcher appeared, and we drank, more and more and more--we talked about my book, about god, about politics. the words came too quickly, i am still unsure if it was the liqour.

after the bar, walking back singing, collpasing into cool grass, stumbling,

dennys an ice cream sundae, i went to the car alone as the sun rose, and i puked, it came up quickly, and it came up coipously, i apologized over and over again, feeling awful, guilty to make a mess, ashamed of my lack of control, of my hedonism, of my inability to say no, of my taking advantage and of people cleaning up my messes.

got to bryans, and he put me in the bath, tucked me in, gave me a hug...he has taken the domiant role, and i have conceded it, but that scares me deeply.

thruout the evening it felt like a pack, it felt like a crew, it felt like prowling night time hunting, and another week where i go to bed at dawn and get up in the mid afternoon.

today, i slept, and read harry potter, and had a deeply upsetting conversation with jeff.