34 not 36.
links, now that i am at home and not doing anything in my life, you get links.
arent yall excited .
http://www.filmrot.com/images/sincity-comparisons/sincity.html
scene by scene visual comparasions of the movie and the comic sin city--which actually makes me a bit nervous--as film is an interpertive medium and requires a different sort of context then the source material, but w. the connections b/w image and words comix are the closeset to film, and rodifuez has a brilliant visceral visual sense.
icp is giving larry clarke a mid career r etrospective, and i cannot help but think though he makes amazzing, complicated, taboo shattering and erotically resonant fotos, he has led to the boring, isnt in naughty, explotive and arrogant fotos of people like richardson...and he is really quite dishonest and manipulitive.
http://www.artdaily.com/section/news/index.asp?int_sec=2&int_new=12963
http://www.pavementmagazine.com/larryclark.html
(placing him w/i a context there is a thot related to gednis and clarke--in that i see in the fotos of gednis normal things being done--fixing a car for one--in the fotos of larry clarke i find abnormal things desperatly normalized.
(placing him in another context--is there a difference between phil mcgraw saying all these 14 year olds have sex, they call it hooking up, there are braclets even and larry clarke directing the virgin sturgeon, there is a biographical and moralist explotation--and law and order svu/katie couric/etc all say the same thing.)
(placing him in a third context--the fotos from 1992, with the hairy legs, and the obvious bulges, a teenager playing suicide, where exactly is the line where i can start finding this proper to wank too--i mean the violence is confrontatonal, its not depressive, but i get a hard on looking at this manboy with a gun in his mouth, is he too young for that to happen ? what kind of pervert does that make me--greer argues in a beautiful boy that everyone finds the sticky speculation of age and youth erotic, it has something to do with newness and dew upon the field, and just grown gardens, and well can you argue that? (ie the pornographic line--if there is grass on the field, its ready to mow)
do i want to include a secton on cain as a racial signifer in the book ? i mean their (is yet another) lds conenction--speaking as anyone written on the connections b/w british israeli and lds ? and http://www.hup.harvard.edu/features/popmusic/raisecain.html this catalog copy talks of african americans using it as a self id, as a reclaimed reading; and i know the racist discourse still mentions the curse of cain in other conditions--but the book is big enough already, doing the extensions on teh notes (which some days goes well, and some days goes badly, but is exhaiusting) im thinking that if i wasnt really careful this could break into a 1k pages, and well thats 4x what it should be.
Thursday, March 31, 2005
so i am sitting at rutherford reading about how to end jerking off w. the power of jesus, and this farm boy hottness comes and sits across from me, and i look up, then read, and suddenly realize the ontolgolical power of my hard on.
books
ruscha on photography, really dry, almost dull--with just a history of various foto books, etc--but really worth reading, because even droll catalog essays by ruscha are really great.
sontags on the suffering of others, sontags small and tight last book on the politics of viewing, i think i disagree with her, but its so hard, when it is filled with a brilliant compactness. the examples are dazzling, one after the otherm piling up until we collpase under the weight of arguments. shes too tradtional though.
first book of y the last man, which i found strangely conserative--the people who talk about the patricahy all become dangerous amazons (literally--w. one breast and everything.) who violently oppose women now that they cannot oppose men. there is also a retrenching of a gender essentalism, with bilogical women surrving, and men disappearing--there is the assumption that there are only two category sets--its a fanastic book aesthtically and politically, well written and well panelled, worth picking up the second volume, but i was disappoitned.
(does this make it 36?)
books
ruscha on photography, really dry, almost dull--with just a history of various foto books, etc--but really worth reading, because even droll catalog essays by ruscha are really great.
sontags on the suffering of others, sontags small and tight last book on the politics of viewing, i think i disagree with her, but its so hard, when it is filled with a brilliant compactness. the examples are dazzling, one after the otherm piling up until we collpase under the weight of arguments. shes too tradtional though.
first book of y the last man, which i found strangely conserative--the people who talk about the patricahy all become dangerous amazons (literally--w. one breast and everything.) who violently oppose women now that they cannot oppose men. there is also a retrenching of a gender essentalism, with bilogical women surrving, and men disappearing--there is the assumption that there are only two category sets--its a fanastic book aesthtically and politically, well written and well panelled, worth picking up the second volume, but i was disappoitned.
(does this make it 36?)
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
http://www.newsoftheworld.co.uk/story_pages/showbiz/showbiz3.shtml
so i wrote 1k on the madonna as nun fotos, wasnt planning on it, i thot they were theortically interesting but not sure why, and it all came out.
a gift from the universe, im assuming for working so hard on the book.
and do you know what,
im sending it to chuck.
so i wrote 1k on the madonna as nun fotos, wasnt planning on it, i thot they were theortically interesting but not sure why, and it all came out.
a gift from the universe, im assuming for working so hard on the book.
and do you know what,
im sending it to chuck.
Monday, March 28, 2005
Saturday, March 26, 2005
http://www.newscientist.com/article.ns?id=dn7195
the ubiqoutus t rex story---the sci is peeved about asking questions regading jurrassic park already.
http://www.livejournal.com/community/scans_daily/448136.html?#cutid1
pulps common people illustrated by the tank girl creator.
http://books.guardian.co.uk/departments/classics/story/0,6000,1445404,00.html
a fantasitc article reclaiming bronte as a filthy, fuckable, funny, and human writer
the ubiqoutus t rex story---the sci is peeved about asking questions regading jurrassic park already.
http://www.livejournal.com/community/scans_daily/448136.html?#cutid1
pulps common people illustrated by the tank girl creator.
http://books.guardian.co.uk/departments/classics/story/0,6000,1445404,00.html
a fantasitc article reclaiming bronte as a filthy, fuckable, funny, and human writer
four pages of stephen shore fotos here; martin doesnt like him---and i think my love for it is so fucking visceral, that i have trouble explaing why--i mean part of it is v. formal, the one on the first page with the two paddles on a ping pong table, and that sheer concentration of colour--or the font of the payway that pops from the beige of winnipeg, almost pink--or the odd sticky slickness of resturant meals.
there is the isolation of sky, and buildings--the old cliche of presence and absence--centered around people (there is a foto journal that had a call for submissions that centered arond portraits w/o people--and that was what i felt there.)
there is the last picture show/john ford momunetalism of the pictures of regina/palmdale/gull lake (the gull lake shot really connects w, me and chris and i were trying to figure out the word, its not isolation of course, and its not opression, but its this everpresent landscape, that never changes and is constant--like the mag fields line--"i treated you like radio/i treated you like god--i could and maybe will write a 1000 words on this one foto) /charelston.
there is redeeming of the post card tourist shot (esp in the amazing shot of miami, the palm trees, etc) and snapshots of people we kind of now(ginger siepel) by the brick wall in miami, and the meals in hotels, and the fish in kenora ontario (the fish in kenora, is the most ideally touristy, and how it centeres the fish, how it makes the flowers obv,the trees banal, the background water(?) blankness (what does that word mean, why do i use that word so much, why is that word so omnipresent in my crit--what does it mean in the case of shore) and the shaker simple courthouse of piano--even yankee fields.
speaking of yankee fields, there is also a new site to shore--a new kind of eye--a gut level reaction to the shades of america, things that are over looked, things that are ignored, things that are there but not there are not redeemed but made plain--it isnt the redpemtive beauty, the supersatuted colour of eaggleston or the picturesque poverty of walker or adams. its dunn and dull and crass and cheap and wonderful...
shore sold his first foto to moma at 14.
there is the isolation of sky, and buildings--the old cliche of presence and absence--centered around people (there is a foto journal that had a call for submissions that centered arond portraits w/o people--and that was what i felt there.)
there is the last picture show/john ford momunetalism of the pictures of regina/palmdale/gull lake (the gull lake shot really connects w, me and chris and i were trying to figure out the word, its not isolation of course, and its not opression, but its this everpresent landscape, that never changes and is constant--like the mag fields line--"i treated you like radio/i treated you like god--i could and maybe will write a 1000 words on this one foto) /charelston.
there is redeeming of the post card tourist shot (esp in the amazing shot of miami, the palm trees, etc) and snapshots of people we kind of now(ginger siepel) by the brick wall in miami, and the meals in hotels, and the fish in kenora ontario (the fish in kenora, is the most ideally touristy, and how it centeres the fish, how it makes the flowers obv,the trees banal, the background water(?) blankness (what does that word mean, why do i use that word so much, why is that word so omnipresent in my crit--what does it mean in the case of shore) and the shaker simple courthouse of piano--even yankee fields.
speaking of yankee fields, there is also a new site to shore--a new kind of eye--a gut level reaction to the shades of america, things that are over looked, things that are ignored, things that are there but not there are not redeemed but made plain--it isnt the redpemtive beauty, the supersatuted colour of eaggleston or the picturesque poverty of walker or adams. its dunn and dull and crass and cheap and wonderful...
shore sold his first foto to moma at 14.
25 pages of outlines and notes for the book, I can mail it to anyone who wants to read it—d, ray, colleen—its on its way. Tep/Andrew/sinkah if you are reading this, I would really like you to read it.
also a foto proposal for work featuring ray, which martin thot was rather ordinary and rather pretentious—but does quote leslie fielder, the shangri las, etc. I did notes for it a while back, and i was hoping to show it to Rachel wrt her sort of offer to make an artists book that art metropole might take on commission (also thinking a collection of fotos of letters, and a collection of flowers, common and ugly flowers)
watched alfie—and it had this really isolating, silent, difficult and complicated (emotionally raw) abortion scene—its an adult movie in the oldest sense of the word, with drinking and fucking, but also with the consequences that occur in relationships, the abortion the most obv.---but broken hearts and broken children, an d hangovers---it’s a dark movie, w. a false glibness, it reminded me for all the world of eyes wide shut—shot gorgeously, but the emotions were literally broadcast via billboards—im still digesting it--they didnt use the word abortion either.
(got sky captain and young adam too—i love my emac, i can watch dvds and have 6 windows open and t he speakers play music, someone email me on how to work slsk, that would be super awesome.)
jeff bowes & i had an hour conversation about mom, about putting her in a home, about my anger for the church, about aj, about everything lately—he has a stoic no nonsense frankness, and it was helpful---talked to mom afterwards and i think that might actually happen, the list---but its like me not asking for help until the most absoulate limit.
he also gave me a priesthood blessing, put my hands on my head, said the right words, a weird combo of the pseudo olde/kjv english of the BoM, and the beurcratic effiency of modern health care. w. some sort of company man dow chemical thing split---it was useful, though—any port in a storm, no consercreated oil, and there was some drama with one of the families, so i had to leave the room for a while.
worried about too much time w. drew, too much gravitas. must work on that.
also a foto proposal for work featuring ray, which martin thot was rather ordinary and rather pretentious—but does quote leslie fielder, the shangri las, etc. I did notes for it a while back, and i was hoping to show it to Rachel wrt her sort of offer to make an artists book that art metropole might take on commission (also thinking a collection of fotos of letters, and a collection of flowers, common and ugly flowers)
watched alfie—and it had this really isolating, silent, difficult and complicated (emotionally raw) abortion scene—its an adult movie in the oldest sense of the word, with drinking and fucking, but also with the consequences that occur in relationships, the abortion the most obv.---but broken hearts and broken children, an d hangovers---it’s a dark movie, w. a false glibness, it reminded me for all the world of eyes wide shut—shot gorgeously, but the emotions were literally broadcast via billboards—im still digesting it--they didnt use the word abortion either.
(got sky captain and young adam too—i love my emac, i can watch dvds and have 6 windows open and t he speakers play music, someone email me on how to work slsk, that would be super awesome.)
jeff bowes & i had an hour conversation about mom, about putting her in a home, about my anger for the church, about aj, about everything lately—he has a stoic no nonsense frankness, and it was helpful---talked to mom afterwards and i think that might actually happen, the list---but its like me not asking for help until the most absoulate limit.
he also gave me a priesthood blessing, put my hands on my head, said the right words, a weird combo of the pseudo olde/kjv english of the BoM, and the beurcratic effiency of modern health care. w. some sort of company man dow chemical thing split---it was useful, though—any port in a storm, no consercreated oil, and there was some drama with one of the families, so i had to leave the room for a while.
worried about too much time w. drew, too much gravitas. must work on that.
Friday, March 25, 2005
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
morphius, http://www.archidose.org/Jul01/070201b.html the company that made the grad student housing on spadina in toronto---its an amazing, joyus, chaotic and alive bulding that manages to intergrate into the neighbourhood in a way most superstars refuse to---(cf normon fosters future cockwaving nearby)
http://archidose.blogspot.com/2005/03/pritzker-countdown.html
so it made me really happy that , who heads the company won it, and that a collective won--the pritzker is one of the more adventourus prizes, and tends to use its power to push or prod architechture in a certain direction--like hadid last year (archidose is usually pretty good about this, but his accusation that hadid win smells of pc rankles--i wrote his about it:
But the Pritzker Prizes tend to be a bit unpredictable - though last year's choice had a "p.c." smell to it - so it's anybody's guess who will win.
This is bullshit--it wasn't because zaha hadid was a woman--if anything it was a discussion of an artchitechts promience over the client, and the lack of adventorous clients. It was an attempt to make the theoritiical and conceptual ideas of architechture as impt as the actual buildings. It also let her build things--and consdering how brilliant she is, how well the buildings work practically, asethetically and intellecutally--it was a brave and proper choice.its disiengious to assume it was because of race and gender. )
cant spell, but you know that.
http://archidose.blogspot.com/2005/03/pritzker-countdown.html
so it made me really happy that , who heads the company won it, and that a collective won--the pritzker is one of the more adventourus prizes, and tends to use its power to push or prod architechture in a certain direction--like hadid last year (archidose is usually pretty good about this, but his accusation that hadid win smells of pc rankles--i wrote his about it:
But the Pritzker Prizes tend to be a bit unpredictable - though last year's choice had a "p.c." smell to it - so it's anybody's guess who will win.
This is bullshit--it wasn't because zaha hadid was a woman--if anything it was a discussion of an artchitechts promience over the client, and the lack of adventorous clients. It was an attempt to make the theoritiical and conceptual ideas of architechture as impt as the actual buildings. It also let her build things--and consdering how brilliant she is, how well the buildings work practically, asethetically and intellecutally--it was a brave and proper choice.its disiengious to assume it was because of race and gender. )
cant spell, but you know that.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
I think postmodernity is really part of the reconfiguration of the idea of
unity across the planet ... meaning a greater homogeneity. Postmodernism has
allowed us to understand that unity across the planet will be much more
diverse
-- and that includes Islamic diversities. So the more recent
manifestations of
Islamic resurgence is very intimately tied to
reconfigurations of identity, not
only among Muslims, but across others.
That's why I say that it dovetails
very well with a reformation of what
it means to be [a] human being. And
therefore, it relates to issues like
human rights, because now we are
questioning, "Well, what does it mean to be
human? And therefore, how do we
ascertain what are human rights?" Then
Muslims have to ask, "Are these human
rights commensurate with our own
tradition? Are they in contradiction to our
tradition, et cetera?" So the
basic identity of a Muslim now is being aligned
with rethinking what it
means to be a human being in modernity.amina wadud thinks about islam the w ay i think about jesus.
links:
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/pages/frontline/shows/muslims/interviews/wadud.html (interview where the qoute was from--really really excellent work from here on)
http://www.muslimwakeup.com/main/archives/2005/02/i_am_a_nigger_a.php
(some larger context to where she fits with some other muslims)
Saturday, March 19, 2005
globe and mail today--dobson personally makes at least 20m/yr on royalties. there is a geogaphical split b.w far left and far right in colorado springs,the focus on the family is tax exempt as a church, he qoutes the gettysberg addresss that talks of being by,for and of the people--and that he has the right to say what ever the fuck he wants--which is true but sort of beside the point.
The List
- Auido Adreline
- Adventists
- African Methodist Episcopalians
- Abortion, Dorthoy Day's
- Airport BlessingAnabaptists
- St Augustine, Flordia
- Amazing Grace
- Assemblies of God
- abortion as holoucaust
- anti masterbation pamphlets
- Americanist Tradition in Catholic Social Ethics
- Amana
- Aboltionism
- Aqurian Gosepl of Jesus Christ
- Brown, Raymond
- The Booths
- Brodie, Fawn
- The Branch Davidians
- Bible Study
- Thomas Mertons Buddhism
- Burnt Over Region
- Borg, Marcus
- George W Bush
- Blessit, Arthur
- Black Rock Address
- Boys Town
- Balitmore Catehicsm
- Christian Country Music Assoc.
- The Hill Cummorah Pageant
- Cartahge Jail
- Campus Crusade for Christ
- Crystal Cathedral
- Chick Comics
- Other Christian Comix
- Cowboy Bible
- Creation Fest
- Concerned Women of America
- Charasmatic
- Cambellites
- catholics for free choice
- Calvary Churches
- John Dominic Crosson
- Consultation on Church Unity
- Congreationalists
- Dorthoy Day
- Father Divine
- Emily Dickinson as Protestant Mystic
- Dead Man Walking
- The Great Disappointment
- Brown Douglass
- Jeanne Dixion
- Death of God Movement
- Deists
- Dove Awards
- Exodus
- Excorist the Film
- Eunuchs for the Kingdom of Heaven
- Edwards, Johnathon--removal in 1749
- Eddy, Mary Baker
- Elvis
- End Timese
- Harmony
- The End of the Age
- The F Bomb
- Funk, Robert
- Foursqaure
- Fox, Matthew
- Flirty Fishing
- The Fellowship foundation
- Finster, Howard
- Filet o Fish
- The Five Gospels
- The First Great Awakening
- Fuller, Margaret
- Full Gospel Buisness Mans Fellowship
- Griswold
- Gethsamni Abbey
- Gary Gilmore
- Guideposts
- God Speaks Billboards
- Al Green
- Hurston, Zola Neale
- Hispanic Catholics
- Harvard Divinity School
- Home Schooling
- Benny Hinn
- Hellhouse
- Hutterites
- Holiness Movement
- George Went Hensley
- Houston Second Baptist Church
- Hammond Indiana, First Baptist
- The Holy Land Expereince
- Halfway Covenant
- Hayes CodeIron Rod
- Israel
- Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
- I Come to the Garden Alone
- Jews For Jesus
- The Jesus Seminar
- Jesus Freaks
- St John the Divine
- Jeffersons BibleJ
- ames, William
- Jonestown
- North American Jesuit Martyrs
- John Lennon--Bigger then Jesus
- Mahalia Jackson
- Prayer of Jabez
- Jesus in the Breadline
- Ku Klux Klan
- The Kennedys
- Thomas Kincade
- Kolob
- Kingdom Hall
- Knights of Columbus
- KJV only
- Sister Mary Corita Kent
- King of Kings
- Know Nothings
- Long, Huey
- Lucado, Max
- Liberty Univeristy
- Left Behind
- Los Angeles
- Liturgical Dance
- The Local Church
- Loyola
- Anne Lee
- Latin Tridentine
- Louvin Brothers
- Jerry Lee Lewis/Jimmy Swaggart
- Moroni
- Madonna (pop star)
- Madonna (mother of god)
- Mother God
- Toni Morrison
- Metropoltian Community Church
- Musculur Christianity
- Millerites
- Moody Bible Institute
- Moral Re-Armament
- Megachurches
- Thomas Mertons Nurse
- Navou (sp)
- Nudie Suits
- Needlework
- National Assoc. Of Evangelicals
- O' Connor, Flannery
- Oneida Community
- Our Lady Of Lebanon
- Ocean Baptisms
- Orthodoxy in Alaska
- Oversoul
- optimists
- The Precious Moments Chapel
- Perry, Troy
- Personal Revalation
- Porn
- The Passion of the Christ
- Papists
- Percy, Walker
- Phelps, Fred
- Promise Keepers
- Paegels, Elaine
- Potluck
- Praise Music
- Positivity Thinkers Bible
- Pligrim Fathers
- Peale, Norman Vincent
- Plastic Steeples
- Purpose Driven Life
- Qauker
- Quietude
- Quilts
- The Red Tent
- Robinson, Gene
- Robinson, Pat
- Riverside Church, Brooklyn
- Rapture
- Rumspringa
- Red Calf
- Rushdoony (first name)
- Ralph Reed
- Restoration Church
- J Deoitis Roberts
- Radical Theism
- Scrapbooking
- Swing Low Sweet Chariot
- Spong
- The Scopes Trial
- The Scofield Reference Bible
- Stowe, Brother and Sister
- Straight Edge
- Student Christian Movement
- Andres Serrano
- Simpson, Jessica
- Simpsons
- Southpark
- Silver Ring Thing
- Small Groups
- Santeria
- Schuller
- Blessed Kateri Tekakwitha
- Transfusion
- Two by Twos
- Tent Revival Meetings
- Testa-Mints
- Testimonies
- Tabitha
- Tilton, Lib
- Unitarians
- Unification Church
- UFOs
- Universalists
- Visitions
- Veggie Tales
- Vineyard
- Vacation Bible Schools
- Jack and Reena Van Impe
- Victorian Funerary Statury
- Catholic Workers
- WWJD
- Watch Tower
- Will The Circle Be Unbroken
- Warhol as Catholic Mystic
- NT WrightWeight Loss
- James and Ellen White
- Womens Christian Temperence Union
- Whitman
- Williow Creek
- White, Mel
- Wall Builders
- XXX Church.com
- Young, Brigham
- Yoneq
- YMCA
- YWCA
- Zachary, Vonette
2 more
spin this by bill press, fun low key, takes both sides, hates clinton and bush, read it all before--not as good as any of ten or twelve books ive read on similar subjects.
dave thomsons big book on hollywood--i wish i ahd taken notes on this, but it is a weird overly literal anaysis of scandal (it wasnt because clarke ahted fags that he quit gone with the wind, it was that he wasnt big enough to cary it) , good on the history of fiances (sometimes too good--there are a dozen charts of box office, return , etc) a little too much of a love in for the hollywood system (but makes the arguement that movies were better when directors were in charge as opposed to actors--which actually is too auterish for me to feel comfortable; maybe the arguement could be made that when movies were created by groups of people they were better then when they were created by one ego--be it speilberg or kidman--he uses kidman, kidman is the wrong example, because she makes both well--roberts would be better.) i think this is bullshit, but im not sure why---because the movies i tend to like dont have a strong autuer energy (sirk maybe the exception)
monday meeting with aish, but if i do that then i am stuck forever in albeta, and well it will take up to 6 months to get what i need wrt cpp, and emergency has worn itself out.
trapped.
spin this by bill press, fun low key, takes both sides, hates clinton and bush, read it all before--not as good as any of ten or twelve books ive read on similar subjects.
dave thomsons big book on hollywood--i wish i ahd taken notes on this, but it is a weird overly literal anaysis of scandal (it wasnt because clarke ahted fags that he quit gone with the wind, it was that he wasnt big enough to cary it) , good on the history of fiances (sometimes too good--there are a dozen charts of box office, return , etc) a little too much of a love in for the hollywood system (but makes the arguement that movies were better when directors were in charge as opposed to actors--which actually is too auterish for me to feel comfortable; maybe the arguement could be made that when movies were created by groups of people they were better then when they were created by one ego--be it speilberg or kidman--he uses kidman, kidman is the wrong example, because she makes both well--roberts would be better.) i think this is bullshit, but im not sure why---because the movies i tend to like dont have a strong autuer energy (sirk maybe the exception)
monday meeting with aish, but if i do that then i am stuck forever in albeta, and well it will take up to 6 months to get what i need wrt cpp, and emergency has worn itself out.
trapped.
Friday, March 18, 2005
http://www.acfnewsource.org/religion/faithbooking.html
go to brown wedge, i wrote about scrapbooking there.
go to brown wedge, i wrote about scrapbooking there.
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
cpp is in and i wait (call them tomorrow)
aish could take months
the shrink says its pretty useless to see her, as i am all shrinked out--i have devolped a tolerance.
two nice men from louisanna want to fuck me (i have had ad s on ok cupid, lavalife, planetout, nerve, and others--the only bite i ever got was from the big dublin daily, who ended up writing about my ad--but one week on redneck and single, i get offers...)
there may be money for be to go to portland on the 4th, and i may lead a queer worship session on the 8th in victoria, for the student xian movement.
pulled an all nighter last night, talked to andrew for an hour
a one line fuck you i gave to a show no one cares about got more press then anything else i had done on brown wedge, and from the big anglos--made me happy.
aish could take months
the shrink says its pretty useless to see her, as i am all shrinked out--i have devolped a tolerance.
two nice men from louisanna want to fuck me (i have had ad s on ok cupid, lavalife, planetout, nerve, and others--the only bite i ever got was from the big dublin daily, who ended up writing about my ad--but one week on redneck and single, i get offers...)
there may be money for be to go to portland on the 4th, and i may lead a queer worship session on the 8th in victoria, for the student xian movement.
pulled an all nighter last night, talked to andrew for an hour
a one line fuck you i gave to a show no one cares about got more press then anything else i had done on brown wedge, and from the big anglos--made me happy.
Monday, March 14, 2005
4 more books--which makes it 29. 2.9 a week....need to pick up the pace.
double targets---atwoods book of nonfiction, compulsviey readable, tenedr and kind in the right places (to marian engel, mavis gallant,carol sheilds--can lit as convent); w/o the bitchyness that invades those places) wickedly funny, bone stupid on sci fi (absurdist taxanomic somersaults mostly); wise on the nature of place and lit (including a really thorough gutting of wordsworth's view of nature)
a collection of 20th century potraits--mostly english actually, with a really bizzare basquit drawing near the back, mostly useless except it reminded me of format for 100/100 and it had a good couple of qoutes.
nick hornby song book--he is really good in places (its about the songs and labums that made his life---and its anecdotal power is strong (what he says about his son with autism, esp.) and he actually tries a critical revival of rod stewart--but its mostly too sentimental.
and a strange, fractured, unfettered alberto manguel, the master anthologist and critic--who recorded his reading for a year--tangetial, chatty, deep, funny and sexy---and it has the best lists ive read in a long time (of dectivtive fiction, of what he finds beautiful in argentina, it was like best of blog writing (nb: blog precedents:letter collections, epherma, broadsheets, diaries, common place books, horn books, pillow books, samplers)--i have some long notes on teh book---one of the best ive read so far this year:
Bakr Al-Saybb:
my room
my room
is vaster then my
tomb shall be
(he qoutes this as he compiles a library in a new place)
the anonymous reviewer of Lady Chatterlys Lover who, in the English magazine Horse & Hound, remarked that Lawerence's book contained five descriptions of the British Countryside, unfortunatley marred by certain sentiment or erotic digressions. (24)
I read yesterday in Max Brods biography that Kafkja disliked Balzac and had noted with disapproval the motto Balzac had engraved on his walking-stick: ... (I shatter every obstacle). Kafka then added his own motto "Evey Obstacle shatters me" (55)
A few days afte the tragedy, I heard of someone who had rapped that morning inside a bookstoe close to the World Trade Center. Since there was nothing to do but wait for the dust to setle, he kept on browsing through the books.... (he teases us here, not telling us what the man browsed thru) (71)
Julien Green says that, in the eighteenth century in Scotland, the word wrath kept coming up so frequently in the pulpit that a certain printer of sermons, having exhausted his rovision of Ws, was forved to use two Vs instead. (71/2)
I know Him that i've heard him mentioned, but we're not on such intimate terms that we'd play billards together. (74) (Courteline on God)
What the dective story is about is not murder, but the restoration of order
PD James (96)
...The boys misfortune, as Sancho intuits, affects u all, not in the phyiscal pain, of course, not in the empty stomach and the flogged skin, but in the realzaiton that injsutice thruves and that we (apparently) condemend o the mpossibity of overcoming it. (on his don q chapter) (168)
War sems at teh same time imminet and yet impossbile. The view of the conflict offered by the European newspapers is merely allegorical: American power n the shae of a wilful monster attacking other mosnters. Since we dont believe in dragons, the allegory is useless. An editoral in he Lonond Daily Telegraph tells that the Wold Economy requires the War Machinery" We are in the realm of ornamental capital letters. (187)
God reveals in utter lcarity that which we cannot understand; that which we can understainhd He lays out in the riddles."
apocryphal book of devotion
Tommas Ely Martinezs told me that the actress Norma Aleandro was once visiting a ranch somewhere in PAtagonia. The wealthy landowenrs, proud of their property, displayed for her many of thir treasures:valuable paintings, cermaics, books. Encouraged by Alendro's poite enthusuasim, her hosts said they should show herfavourite peice, and put a small copy of Goethe's poems in her hand. Aleandro commented on the soft , delicatly tooled binding. "Yest thats it." they saif, its bound in human skin" (153)
Hand over cash and soon you have t hem in irons
Rosseau
Freud owned a copy of Gentleman prefer Blondes
double targets---atwoods book of nonfiction, compulsviey readable, tenedr and kind in the right places (to marian engel, mavis gallant,carol sheilds--can lit as convent); w/o the bitchyness that invades those places) wickedly funny, bone stupid on sci fi (absurdist taxanomic somersaults mostly); wise on the nature of place and lit (including a really thorough gutting of wordsworth's view of nature)
a collection of 20th century potraits--mostly english actually, with a really bizzare basquit drawing near the back, mostly useless except it reminded me of format for 100/100 and it had a good couple of qoutes.
nick hornby song book--he is really good in places (its about the songs and labums that made his life---and its anecdotal power is strong (what he says about his son with autism, esp.) and he actually tries a critical revival of rod stewart--but its mostly too sentimental.
and a strange, fractured, unfettered alberto manguel, the master anthologist and critic--who recorded his reading for a year--tangetial, chatty, deep, funny and sexy---and it has the best lists ive read in a long time (of dectivtive fiction, of what he finds beautiful in argentina, it was like best of blog writing (nb: blog precedents:letter collections, epherma, broadsheets, diaries, common place books, horn books, pillow books, samplers)--i have some long notes on teh book---one of the best ive read so far this year:
Bakr Al-Saybb:
my room
my room
is vaster then my
tomb shall be
(he qoutes this as he compiles a library in a new place)
the anonymous reviewer of Lady Chatterlys Lover who, in the English magazine Horse & Hound, remarked that Lawerence's book contained five descriptions of the British Countryside, unfortunatley marred by certain sentiment or erotic digressions. (24)
I read yesterday in Max Brods biography that Kafkja disliked Balzac and had noted with disapproval the motto Balzac had engraved on his walking-stick: ... (I shatter every obstacle). Kafka then added his own motto "Evey Obstacle shatters me" (55)
A few days afte the tragedy, I heard of someone who had rapped that morning inside a bookstoe close to the World Trade Center. Since there was nothing to do but wait for the dust to setle, he kept on browsing through the books.... (he teases us here, not telling us what the man browsed thru) (71)
Julien Green says that, in the eighteenth century in Scotland, the word wrath kept coming up so frequently in the pulpit that a certain printer of sermons, having exhausted his rovision of Ws, was forved to use two Vs instead. (71/2)
I know Him that i've heard him mentioned, but we're not on such intimate terms that we'd play billards together. (74) (Courteline on God)
What the dective story is about is not murder, but the restoration of order
PD James (96)
...The boys misfortune, as Sancho intuits, affects u all, not in the phyiscal pain, of course, not in the empty stomach and the flogged skin, but in the realzaiton that injsutice thruves and that we (apparently) condemend o the mpossibity of overcoming it. (on his don q chapter) (168)
War sems at teh same time imminet and yet impossbile. The view of the conflict offered by the European newspapers is merely allegorical: American power n the shae of a wilful monster attacking other mosnters. Since we dont believe in dragons, the allegory is useless. An editoral in he Lonond Daily Telegraph tells that the Wold Economy requires the War Machinery" We are in the realm of ornamental capital letters. (187)
God reveals in utter lcarity that which we cannot understand; that which we can understainhd He lays out in the riddles."
apocryphal book of devotion
Tommas Ely Martinezs told me that the actress Norma Aleandro was once visiting a ranch somewhere in PAtagonia. The wealthy landowenrs, proud of their property, displayed for her many of thir treasures:valuable paintings, cermaics, books. Encouraged by Alendro's poite enthusuasim, her hosts said they should show herfavourite peice, and put a small copy of Goethe's poems in her hand. Aleandro commented on the soft , delicatly tooled binding. "Yest thats it." they saif, its bound in human skin" (153)
Hand over cash and soon you have t hem in irons
Rosseau
Freud owned a copy of Gentleman prefer Blondes
penguin released 20 great idea books, in cheap, accesable and well designed formats--2 women, no people of colour, i picked up freud--civialastion and its discontents, b/c i hadnt read it and the uncles (jaques/michel) were born from it.
they had a contest, that asked in a 100 wds or less, which of the ones changed the world the most, this was my entry:
Freud, because he ended Descartes...made us consider our brains, cocks, hearts--made us reconside how we tell stories, how we interact with those we love, those we hate and those we see on the subway.
They gave us more hard theory, more hard science, more poetry and more popular culture--it was Moses (w/o meloncholia) splitting the rock of the victorian desert--he flooded us.
(that flood--to extend the metaphor ad absurdum--was the woman in orgasm, was the woman at menses, was the mucus plug of the birth of the 20th century, and the breast milk to continue us through the weaning. It was the piss, and the shit and they glory of the end of Lawerence's Anglo watery spunk.
Freud made the unhappiness of our bodies, the unhappiness of ourselves.
He made the personal political.
His baptism liberated.
they had a contest, that asked in a 100 wds or less, which of the ones changed the world the most, this was my entry:
Freud, because he ended Descartes...made us consider our brains, cocks, hearts--made us reconside how we tell stories, how we interact with those we love, those we hate and those we see on the subway.
They gave us more hard theory, more hard science, more poetry and more popular culture--it was Moses (w/o meloncholia) splitting the rock of the victorian desert--he flooded us.
(that flood--to extend the metaphor ad absurdum--was the woman in orgasm, was the woman at menses, was the mucus plug of the birth of the 20th century, and the breast milk to continue us through the weaning. It was the piss, and the shit and they glory of the end of Lawerence's Anglo watery spunk.
Freud made the unhappiness of our bodies, the unhappiness of ourselves.
He made the personal political.
His baptism liberated.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
http://www.stylusmagazine.com/feature.php?ID=1512
stylus, a couple of days old-- im quite proud of it, c eddy liked it, apparently though its fucking stupid.
stylus, a couple of days old-- im quite proud of it, c eddy liked it, apparently though its fucking stupid.
Friday, March 11, 2005
http://richmond.indymedia.org/newswire/display/9894/index.php
i will note the odd sexual/racial/political weirdness of these naked candids from the virgina miltary insutite after i finish wanking.
(a month after the black face ones)
i will note the odd sexual/racial/political weirdness of these naked candids from the virgina miltary insutite after i finish wanking.
(a month after the black face ones)
Thursday, March 10, 2005
going thru regen projects, i find some things
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/226716aa.jpg
jack peirson striped one
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/24acdb6a.jpg
blue reflection
(i am obsessed of course, w. the colours--with the ease and looseness of the light, the all seeing commoneye of the subject matter, of the fecundity of meanings and w. the abstractness)
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/258e8973.jpg
banana make happy
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/90898423.jpg
d, look at this one--remember what i was saying about the painting and decoration school ?
her name is andrea zitter
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/cd911119.jpg
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/f6054687.jpg
cliche shot, but well composed and well directed.
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/9736ecd2.jpg
the other side of peirson, the brokeness and sadness of the hollywood optisim of the fotos above (and the rest of his wk)
and two nashville star qoutes
everyone in church has been praying for me, and i hope i do well
"we're blessed w. cell phones; so we talk all the time"
and a note to the goddess
d
perhaps as well, pencil crayons or something harder, more intense?
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/226716aa.jpg
jack peirson striped one
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/24acdb6a.jpg
blue reflection
(i am obsessed of course, w. the colours--with the ease and looseness of the light, the all seeing commoneye of the subject matter, of the fecundity of meanings and w. the abstractness)
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/258e8973.jpg
banana make happy
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/90898423.jpg
d, look at this one--remember what i was saying about the painting and decoration school ?
her name is andrea zitter
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/cd911119.jpg
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/f6054687.jpg
cliche shot, but well composed and well directed.
http://www.regenprojects.com/files/9736ecd2.jpg
the other side of peirson, the brokeness and sadness of the hollywood optisim of the fotos above (and the rest of his wk)
and two nashville star qoutes
everyone in church has been praying for me, and i hope i do well
"we're blessed w. cell phones; so we talk all the time"
and a note to the goddess
d
perhaps as well, pencil crayons or something harder, more intense?
at the library today some man is studying something about belize, i am looking for books on william eggleston or collier schor (there are 6 of one and 0 of the other) . this town is deeply homophobic, he may be jail bait--he is absurdly, absurdly fuckable, dark hair, big arms, 5' 8"--sort of a farm fed, v. young tom cruise w/o the evil.
how do i get his cock in my mouth ?
how do i get his cock in my mouth ?
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
In her first novel, The Benefactor, published in 1963, a year before "notes on camp" she wrote the following sentence: "I am a homosexual and a wrier, both of whom are professionally self-regarding and sel-esteeming creatures." Admmitley, this line occurs in the voice of her charachter, Jean Jaques" But Susan wrote the sentence not Jean Jacques. I am a homsoexual and a wrer. EAch of her books and essays constains a similar coded declaration. Sontag came out in her own way, forcibly, redpeadedly. Her seeming refusal of queer idenity may have enraged others (eg Adrieene Rich's 1975 quarrel w. Sontage --supposedly on the subject of Leni Refiensthal but covertly on the subject of femminsit and lesbian identification--on the letters page of the New York Review of Books.) But in retrosepct Sontags retience seems pictursque, contaian, and human. And it did not preclude admiration for Gay Lib, even if her theory of sexuality emphsaized the saurine, no the cheerful. Listen to her admiration of ...poet and social critic Paul Goodmans erotic fothrighness. "I admired his courage, which showed itself in so many ways--one of the most admiable being his honesty about his homosexuailty in Five Years, for which he much critized by his s traight friends in the New York intellectual world, that was six ywars ago, befoire the advent of Gay Liberation made coming out of teh clset shcic. I Liked it when he talked about himself and when he mingled his own sad sexual desires with his deisses for the polity." Sad ssexual desires? Allow Sontag that adjectives aptness.
KAustenbaum, on Sontag, ArtForum, this month.
(you know i cant type)_
KAustenbaum, on Sontag, ArtForum, this month.
(you know i cant type)_
i think tarintinos movies are about creation or recreation of family, and lost family--hes a little boy looking for his mother, i saw that in the band of brothers that marked resivor dogs, in the plot seekling a narative--in the hunny bunny/tim roth; in the dancing at jack rabbit slims; even in (esp. in ) how the boxer treats his girl--that scen, in the motel, with blueberry pancakes, the eroticism, the sadness and loss, is a complete and absolute refuting that tarintion doesnt care for women and doesnt care for anything but violence--it proves he is capable of honest intimacy.
jackie brown is an amazing movie, its hard and soft at the same time, it has some of the most haunting visuals, the writing is quick and surfs b/w shallow and deep. it has pam grier--and it was insane that she didnt get an oscar, because pam grier was hurt, wounded, but also looking for love, looking for a completion of family.
kill bill then, kill bill i had trouble w. i thot it was a fuck you movie, i was isolated because i didnt think of it as anymore then a formal excercise in genre, a oilipu (sp) game for explotation hacks--but then, she is looking for her father, she is murdered at her wedding, the whole movie then becomes about how women act in the world of men--and they are as tough, as brutal, as feeling and unfeeling--as real and as unreal as men. it is a grand femminist movie, and it is one of the few movies that i saw that explained the horror of rape, woman in the board room, woman as widows and orphans.(she may be called the bride, but she is a widow--and she makes people orphans and she makes people widows) (people as widows and orphans). it is also a fucking amazing movie formally, gorgeous, complicated, fracturede and seeking its own wholeness. (and its lack of wholenes,, the possiblity of sequels that do not happen...)
also, ling--who was a racist caricture in television and hollywood blockbusters, makes an accurate and emotionally raw performance, he sees things in actors that other directors have given up on. (travolata, forestor, ling, carradine)
its frustrating, b/c i find alot of these things in his source material have the complications, formal innovation and emotional sucker punching that tarintino has--but these films wont ever be in the london review of books.
jackie brown is an amazing movie, its hard and soft at the same time, it has some of the most haunting visuals, the writing is quick and surfs b/w shallow and deep. it has pam grier--and it was insane that she didnt get an oscar, because pam grier was hurt, wounded, but also looking for love, looking for a completion of family.
kill bill then, kill bill i had trouble w. i thot it was a fuck you movie, i was isolated because i didnt think of it as anymore then a formal excercise in genre, a oilipu (sp) game for explotation hacks--but then, she is looking for her father, she is murdered at her wedding, the whole movie then becomes about how women act in the world of men--and they are as tough, as brutal, as feeling and unfeeling--as real and as unreal as men. it is a grand femminist movie, and it is one of the few movies that i saw that explained the horror of rape, woman in the board room, woman as widows and orphans.(she may be called the bride, but she is a widow--and she makes people orphans and she makes people widows) (people as widows and orphans). it is also a fucking amazing movie formally, gorgeous, complicated, fracturede and seeking its own wholeness. (and its lack of wholenes,, the possiblity of sequels that do not happen...)
also, ling--who was a racist caricture in television and hollywood blockbusters, makes an accurate and emotionally raw performance, he sees things in actors that other directors have given up on. (travolata, forestor, ling, carradine)
its frustrating, b/c i find alot of these things in his source material have the complications, formal innovation and emotional sucker punching that tarintino has--but these films wont ever be in the london review of books.
Monday, March 07, 2005
alright, i am watching this for the first time in ages, and im making notes in real time, so it will be garbeled)
- the jokes about anaylsts (esp my pyschatrist(sp) only told me to trust him), is it a 50s thing, has there ever been a time where freud was ever so promient. (the constant reference to motherhood, to marriage as a rite of adulthood, does this connect--cf rock hudson and who ever played jon or even brad--the much noted irony of jon being played by the str8 actor and rock being gay) (then an agressive stare down b/w jon&rex--a thesis couldnt unpack this scene)
- ive decided to give her up on the advice of my pyschatrist
- adults again--i couldnt ask you, could you ask, oh rex we are all over 21--day is as or more agressive then hudson, making mockery of oscar levants i knew doris day b4 she was a virigin)
- when she sings darling posses me, there is this almost literal melting, with her blonde hair, whie fu, the diamonds, she becomes snow pure debauched (but not really, as the scenes afterwords esp. in the dinner)
- there has to be a first time,
- disappointed by the whole love ending
- the african american woman as greek chorus, weird minestrel moment
- can we talk about how it popularzes(sp) modernist aesthetics (esp. abex paintings)--esp. how design takes such a large part of the plot (exciting to work w. al those colours and fabrics, this is the one qouted as the largerst queer signifier (cf celluiod closet) but this scene ends with a kiss--so a str8 boi can play w. colour ?
- the painting i told you about, the end table is coming at 4 oclock, not wearing white again in the movie--the first scene after the fuck up in crimson and leopard skin (rwor)
- the colour is amazing, the costumes, the sets, the skin tones, etc--perfect for a defense of cinemascope. (an old gq had a terrence raffety article, that mocked cinemascope, that thot it vain and useless, the formalist arguements about cosmetics that baetchlor makes can be here)
- she decorates apartments, you have an apartment, you hire her to decorate your apartment
- comparing brad allen to the mumps (droll)
- the scene where they walk thru new york, like ghosts, so the city shines thrui them, from day to nite, from the un and liberty to times sqaure theaters, from purity to sin--or is that going to far?
- the bath tub scene, sexy and pure in a way no one else can be--a mirror of monroes innocence--by screen split they are naked together (doris day and monroe are much closer then we think--or the personae, against taylor of course but also mansfield and van doren)
- who did the costumes ?
- doris days hats should be considered national monumets
- somehow it reminds me of sex and the city--was that an update ? (esp. in how they treat ny--a tourist; i knew it, if you married him you would have to lvie out there--that whole monolouge)
- the shot in shot, the matching and failing to match monolouges, how they make isolation formal--or is that too intellectual
- is there an aesthetic connection to this and the rise of romance comics (some of it looks like panelling)
- i miss sophiscated comics w. booze jokes.
- is the queer signifers i see all over the place cannonical now, or did they always exist in the text ? (can we even answer that question?) (i mean the obsterics office, the upset stomach, "very devoted to their mothers, you are sick", "a little club called the hidden door") rex and allan, a mirror stage, a closet case, a question of performance, going back is there a batman/brucewayne/robin thing happening
- doing a little scoring up there
- the music that tells of the big discovery (the big discovery scene is told entirely by music) makes it as insanely dramatic as hitchcock, veritgo, etc---the high drama used for the domestic, the hi/lo is the best example is camp. (but camp is poltical and this v. much isnt---the xylophone afterwords, the tears, the preistly collar on john, the phyiscal distance, a different kind of melting)
- i want a montage of movies from the 50s, with hidden little clubs that turn to be decadent (esp. w. connection b/w race--its what made in heaven spoke the best of)
- i want a montage of smarmy desk clerk scenes (alan cumming in ews)
- broadway--are there any connections b/w doris day in this and lana turner in imitation of life? (or rock hudsom)
- could this be remade, w. whom ?(has it been--down w. love/the nathan lane bette middle one--the only problem, of course is the party line)
- its more ribald then i thot it would be.
six poems (twombly)
for drm
i
tulips
im walking w/o an umbrella
tired, cold
bored, wet
avoiding my room
so onto the corner grocery
tulips behind glass
smear of red/orange
green stems
buy a dozen--
and im disappointed.
they dont live up to promise
ii
(cattulus)
near the edges of a body
there is a a spot
of white light
right in the middle
a roan rabbit punch to
the solar plexus
iii
june
in vancouver
the faberge gallery
of an old bank
standing in front of
6 pictures of roman poets
then looking up,
the blue of sky,
the odd white cloud
the ring of gold
on the robins dome
the 6 paintings
with smear of chalk,
there is a certain perfection
of placement
and a c ertain gap,
where meaning goes
and form rises
a slight of hand,
that only occurs
in the proper light.
iv
the middle of winter
the snow will never disappear
piling around,
mountains in mall parking lots
bridging the corners of streets
when it melts, the lakes of slush
its shit brindle, its cold,
the salt destroys yr shoes
the mess settles somewhere
b/w her fifth and sixth vertabrae
its a pile of pigeon of shit
on yr shoulders,
its a boxcoffinapairy
and the buzzing deafens you.
v
when you were
a kid, and you were really angry
at some injustice,
you coloured loud and hard
till the paper broke--
imagine that you kept going
you kept reading,
you saw
other people's paintings
rape stopped becoming
seduction
the world never turned out fair
mens stories become dangerous
the marks have the same chaos
as a child
but w. an adults rending
vi
it doesnt matter
how many classes you have
how many degrees youve piled up
it doesnt matter how well
you try to make everything
about colour or line
everything becomes a narrative
there is a little failure
in our not realizing.
for drm
i
tulips
im walking w/o an umbrella
tired, cold
bored, wet
avoiding my room
so onto the corner grocery
tulips behind glass
smear of red/orange
green stems
buy a dozen--
and im disappointed.
they dont live up to promise
ii
(cattulus)
near the edges of a body
there is a a spot
of white light
right in the middle
a roan rabbit punch to
the solar plexus
iii
june
in vancouver
the faberge gallery
of an old bank
standing in front of
6 pictures of roman poets
then looking up,
the blue of sky,
the odd white cloud
the ring of gold
on the robins dome
the 6 paintings
with smear of chalk,
there is a certain perfection
of placement
and a c ertain gap,
where meaning goes
and form rises
a slight of hand,
that only occurs
in the proper light.
iv
the middle of winter
the snow will never disappear
piling around,
mountains in mall parking lots
bridging the corners of streets
when it melts, the lakes of slush
its shit brindle, its cold,
the salt destroys yr shoes
the mess settles somewhere
b/w her fifth and sixth vertabrae
its a pile of pigeon of shit
on yr shoulders,
its a boxcoffinapairy
and the buzzing deafens you.
v
when you were
a kid, and you were really angry
at some injustice,
you coloured loud and hard
till the paper broke--
imagine that you kept going
you kept reading,
you saw
other people's paintings
rape stopped becoming
seduction
the world never turned out fair
mens stories become dangerous
the marks have the same chaos
as a child
but w. an adults rending
vi
it doesnt matter
how many classes you have
how many degrees youve piled up
it doesnt matter how well
you try to make everything
about colour or line
everything becomes a narrative
there is a little failure
in our not realizing.
Sunday, March 06, 2005
life is not bad, aside from all the drama--
because i have lilliput eggs. and there colours make me happy.
(drama:mom is sick, really sick--so sick she is considering
assisted living and her stubborness mirrors mine in that she
will not give up autonomy to a larger beorcracy. (sp) )
and she lied to me, she underplayed it--plus she is getting an
allowance from my grandmother, and so is my father--but im not.
which is bothering me/
because i have lilliput eggs. and there colours make me happy.
(drama:mom is sick, really sick--so sick she is considering
assisted living and her stubborness mirrors mine in that she
will not give up autonomy to a larger beorcracy. (sp) )
and she lied to me, she underplayed it--plus she is getting an
allowance from my grandmother, and so is my father--but im not.
which is bothering me/
Saturday, March 05, 2005
the one lifestyle that i seem to think is morally wrong is monogomy, so i become a cruel anthropolgist when i encounter it.
i can imagine more, when people want to dress up as wolves and wrestle, then when a boy and girl, who never had sex before get married and agree to spend the rest of ones lives together.
i cannot imagine that it would reach happiness.
but i do admire the purity.
http://ilx.wh3rd.net/thread.php?msgid=5549879
first link on the ilx thead is a gian machine shredding giant things like boats and cars and fridges and washing machines, its amazing.
i can imagine more, when people want to dress up as wolves and wrestle, then when a boy and girl, who never had sex before get married and agree to spend the rest of ones lives together.
i cannot imagine that it would reach happiness.
but i do admire the purity.
http://ilx.wh3rd.net/thread.php?msgid=5549879
first link on the ilx thead is a gian machine shredding giant things like boats and cars and fridges and washing machines, its amazing.
Thursday, March 03, 2005
i think i finally understand the concept of a guilty pleasure, and it is toby keith. listening to his greatest hits album (second volume)--- i have to remind myself that im a post modernist, im supposed to view claims towards authenticity, esp. emotional authenticity, as immediately suspect but i do find him deeply "authentic" his complex narratives of the sex lvies of suburbs and his politics are infused with this fuck you grace and he raps
last week, i took out this bonnie prince billy album and replaced it with this just bought toby keith--it felt weirdly symbolic
uf zur disko: how do you reconcile that with his homophobia/republican stance?
(hes not really homophobic--but someone called country poor folx cnn--and you ge an impression of the politics of empire in a really interesting way, a way you dont even get in the new republic) and it feels naughty and transgressive, like hipsters reading vice plus i connect emotionally to alot of the pure schmaltz sentiment in things like the list--i have a deep seated desire for domseticity that i dont find anywhere else, and it takes jesus seriously--its theologically complex.
but thats all justifying something that i shouldnt really be listening to
last week, i took out this bonnie prince billy album and replaced it with this just bought toby keith--it felt weirdly symbolic
uf zur disko: how do you reconcile that with his homophobia/republican stance?
(hes not really homophobic--but someone called country poor folx cnn--and you ge an impression of the politics of empire in a really interesting way, a way you dont even get in the new republic) and it feels naughty and transgressive, like hipsters reading vice plus i connect emotionally to alot of the pure schmaltz sentiment in things like the list--i have a deep seated desire for domseticity that i dont find anywhere else, and it takes jesus seriously--its theologically complex.
but thats all justifying something that i shouldnt really be listening to
a list of (http://outsports.com/nfl/2005/0301nflshopnaughtywords.htm) the things you cannot get custom printed on the back of nfl jersey--the list is a collection of found american poetry, a canon of dirty words, taboos and other social controls. it is brilliant.
these are my favourites.
1 Anal Annie (imagine the musical...)
2 Ass Cowboy (my new nickname?)
3 Ass Clown (make-up?)
4 Ass Monkey (i call him joesph, hes a bonobo, and he reaches where no man ever could)
5 Axing the Weasel (huh?)
6 Ballliker (the three ls have now killed fonix)
7 bumblefuck (sweet really, like what two 14 yr olds do on a river bank)
8 the 8 spellings of bulldyke
9 carruth (huh?)
10 cock cowboy (the lost masterpiece of john scheslinger)
11 cockqueen (elizabeth, phillip)
12 Cum Quat (think fruit)
13 the 5 spellings of dixie dyke (insert own joke about going down south)
14 dome (huh?)
15 the 4 spellings of drag queen (esp. qween) (elmer fudd in drag)
16 floggin the dolphin (but not the other thousand or so amusing euphisms for wanking)
17 gay motherfuckin queer (english 10 should use this as an example of hyperbole)
18 glazed donut (can some one expalin if this is an obscure sexual fetish i dont get)
19 the two spellings of hen house
20 horsejob (schemga beans for everyone)
21 jesus christ (devoution is its own reward)
22 k mart (twice, in fact)
23 Kum Qaut (they are citrus racists)
24 the three spellings of man paste (sticky)
25 neon deon (football ref i dont get)
26 purina princess (see glazed donut, but nice cossancece)
27 pussy pounder (cossance)
28 sex farm (paging dr ellis)
29 shawty slim (football ref.)
30 skank fuck (its so hatefull, those triple ks --fun to sa y in its horrid ugliness)
31 sperm herder (cf woody allen)
32 sodomite (cause its so old fashioned and sweet)
33 swinging dixx (the two x's)
34 swingin dixx (the lack of g)
35 swgn dixx (the desperation)
36 tit bit nipply (god is this so fun to say, i have become aspie w. this)
37 tounge tramp (cossance)
38 tounge thruster (cossance)
39 trots (geman schiese video)
raymond, use some of these now!
these are my favourites.
1 Anal Annie (imagine the musical...)
2 Ass Cowboy (my new nickname?)
3 Ass Clown (make-up?)
4 Ass Monkey (i call him joesph, hes a bonobo, and he reaches where no man ever could)
5 Axing the Weasel (huh?)
6 Ballliker (the three ls have now killed fonix)
7 bumblefuck (sweet really, like what two 14 yr olds do on a river bank)
8 the 8 spellings of bulldyke
9 carruth (huh?)
10 cock cowboy (the lost masterpiece of john scheslinger)
11 cockqueen (elizabeth, phillip)
12 Cum Quat (think fruit)
13 the 5 spellings of dixie dyke (insert own joke about going down south)
14 dome (huh?)
15 the 4 spellings of drag queen (esp. qween) (elmer fudd in drag)
16 floggin the dolphin (but not the other thousand or so amusing euphisms for wanking)
17 gay motherfuckin queer (english 10 should use this as an example of hyperbole)
18 glazed donut (can some one expalin if this is an obscure sexual fetish i dont get)
19 the two spellings of hen house
20 horsejob (schemga beans for everyone)
21 jesus christ (devoution is its own reward)
22 k mart (twice, in fact)
23 Kum Qaut (they are citrus racists)
24 the three spellings of man paste (sticky)
25 neon deon (football ref i dont get)
26 purina princess (see glazed donut, but nice cossancece)
27 pussy pounder (cossance)
28 sex farm (paging dr ellis)
29 shawty slim (football ref.)
30 skank fuck (its so hatefull, those triple ks --fun to sa y in its horrid ugliness)
31 sperm herder (cf woody allen)
32 sodomite (cause its so old fashioned and sweet)
33 swinging dixx (the two x's)
34 swingin dixx (the lack of g)
35 swgn dixx (the desperation)
36 tit bit nipply (god is this so fun to say, i have become aspie w. this)
37 tounge tramp (cossance)
38 tounge thruster (cossance)
39 trots (geman schiese video)
raymond, use some of these now!
Supposedly during a recording session for one of the movies,
Elvis requested that the backing vocalists join him. Someone pointed out that in
the flick, he'd be riding a motorcycle down the road while singing this
particular song. Where were the singers supposed to be?
"The same damn place the band is," Elvis answered.Rickey Wright on ilx
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
today was a microcosm of my life--one of those days that become everyday
the village voice gave me a pazz and jop poll (no money) and couldnt buy a peice because of space.
took the peice to todd on stylus who is publishing it on wednesday, and agreed to do that w/i 5 minutes.
chris is selling flim.com using my name--he put some fotos of mine up a while ago, in this forrest of indie poets
i worked for a few hours thinking out the anglican peice, which i will spec over to sojourners, who doesnt take pitches--but i have thot about it for weeks.
chuck eddy reads my blog, mark sinker reads my blog, momus reads my blog.
i have become a cult writer--and w/o fanzines and little magazines, w/o small critical magazines, because of the web, cult writers pay their own ticket. (reading hunter thompsons letter collection about his success and lack of post hells angels--and chasing money, begging money, theating, cajoling, seeking and giving sexual favours--this was w. evergree/ramparts/rolling stone/etc etc--there are no ramparts.
(i have received three invites in the last month to write though--one of which i will do and i have a book contract--no advance, no promotion budget, 2 year wait, agent taking chunk of royalties...)
another example:
i want to go to portland to see my monolouge (which has become strangely arty) premier, and there is no money to send me and i cannot afford to send myself
i feel on the verge of giving up but then something happens to push me off the edge--a nice word, a publication, a small cheque--i have made less then 1k in the last year and a half writing...
when do i give up.
the village voice gave me a pazz and jop poll (no money) and couldnt buy a peice because of space.
took the peice to todd on stylus who is publishing it on wednesday, and agreed to do that w/i 5 minutes.
chris is selling flim.com using my name--he put some fotos of mine up a while ago, in this forrest of indie poets
i worked for a few hours thinking out the anglican peice, which i will spec over to sojourners, who doesnt take pitches--but i have thot about it for weeks.
chuck eddy reads my blog, mark sinker reads my blog, momus reads my blog.
i have become a cult writer--and w/o fanzines and little magazines, w/o small critical magazines, because of the web, cult writers pay their own ticket. (reading hunter thompsons letter collection about his success and lack of post hells angels--and chasing money, begging money, theating, cajoling, seeking and giving sexual favours--this was w. evergree/ramparts/rolling stone/etc etc--there are no ramparts.
(i have received three invites in the last month to write though--one of which i will do and i have a book contract--no advance, no promotion budget, 2 year wait, agent taking chunk of royalties...)
another example:
i want to go to portland to see my monolouge (which has become strangely arty) premier, and there is no money to send me and i cannot afford to send myself
i feel on the verge of giving up but then something happens to push me off the edge--a nice word, a publication, a small cheque--i have made less then 1k in the last year and a half writing...
when do i give up.
2006 pazz and jop poll and this email from eddy about the chesney/keith peice.
i'll look this over, anthony (and enjoy it, i imagine), but given its lengthand the fact that it's about only two songs (which aren't even very new moreanymore), i can't imagine it would fit in the voice. i WISH it could, butthere's no way i'd be able to find room for it at this point!
c
see enjoy it, wish in all capitals--he likes me, no money yet--but ever so close.
i'll look this over, anthony (and enjoy it, i imagine), but given its lengthand the fact that it's about only two songs (which aren't even very new moreanymore), i can't imagine it would fit in the voice. i WISH it could, butthere's no way i'd be able to find room for it at this point!
c
see enjoy it, wish in all capitals--he likes me, no money yet--but ever so close.
http://www.nationalreview.com/dreher/dreher041102.asp
a pure red calf is blessed in israel, the second coming is upon us.
(read the article, its getting weird my brothers and sisters)
a pure red calf is blessed in israel, the second coming is upon us.
(read the article, its getting weird my brothers and sisters)
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