15 things about the hospital.

1) the colour of the ward makes me sad
2) creative expressions is like kindergarden art class, and i was the only one playing with post minimal grids.
3) most of my assertive training group was spent discussing resturant ettiqute.
4) im exhausted
5) they changed my room, so i am in a double, which just sent me around the bend, yelling and screaming and having drama queen moments, how come all of my panic attacks come out like gloria swanson in sunset bvld. (ray dont answer that) (the double room reminds me of being raped at sjsa, i wonder if they would take it more seriously if i was a woman)
6) drymouth sucks.
7) still cannot read anything more intellcutually sophiscated then fashion magazines.
8) im r eally really bad at jigsaws.
9) visitors help.
10) im still panicaly and sad and i dont know where i am, pyschally.
11) my shrink reminds me of
a) a gnome
b) a penishead
c) ben kinglsey in mrs harris

(he also wears alot of blue blazers and bow ties, wasp wasp wasp.
12. gotta slow down and not be worried about getting work done.
13. the shelves here look like judd spec. objects.

Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.

-- Dorothy Parker

this is me

this is me

i wanted to kill myself on thursday, so i went to the hospital, now i am admitted to the grey nuns for an indefinte amount of time. more the group then one flew over the cuckoos nest. seems that they have net access in the loony bin!

ash wednesday

i didnt go to church, though gerard sent an email, reminding me that pancakes on tuesday meant mass on wednesday (and i think i agree with that, every fast has its feast)...in the spirt of lent, i have found a united hymn book, some collections of luthers writings, a catholic missal, and the book of common prayer. i will not read deep and long, like last year, i went thru the apostles creed, and tore it apart, but wide and shallow, like spreading seeds, like ruth as a gleaner.

i dont know what i think is holy anymore

ase

black dogs back something fierce, with general lethargy, lack of resilance, anxiety, panic, exhaustion and the like...

strange and truly paranoid thriller, by antoine fuqua, with marky mark, about presidental assisation, notes of the fugitive, the conversation, de lillo's libra, and any of the larger shot em ups, interesting to see how it turns out.

inky lips letterpress hand carves all their own lino, in really pure, really fantastic styles. i want them to do every invite i ever have.

one of scott sewardS country mixes, his knowledge of soul and country approach a 90 year old rabbis knowledge of the Zohar, hes the kaballah king of western swing.

a man is watchign porn in his own living room, another man kicks his door down, and threatens man one with a sword, because he heard the porn from downstairs, thinking the porn was a real live woman.

monkey fluids is one of those add dirty captions to odd illsutrations comics, but really funny.


Joe Amhrein, $, Mixed Media, including Gold Leaf, on Vellum, (the best thing about this, aside from its cribbings from v. spec johns/warhol/lichenstien references, and its graphic instenisty, is that its 5 feet wide and 7 feet long. if yr gonna make ikons, make ikons.

great photos of a decript futuristic resiort in thailand, from a fantastic blog, called retro-future.

beautiful industrial video, talking about the glorius future of steel, frmo the 70s. like most utopian texts, watching them afterwards, makes one almost meloncholy for the posiblities that no longer exist.

more anglican bullshit about fags. (i wish that they would come out and actually talk about the issues%2

great peice of crime reporting, from the seattle weekly.

as a protest against the censorus(sp) UK laws against promoting terrorism, a group of SF writers have put together a thought provoking anthology of short stories that violate the prohibition, making us wonder exactly what terrorism means.

short histories of most first nations in the US (really short, like 100 wds or so)

If you had to answer what the most expensive painting sold at auction by a living european painter, would be, would you answer a picture of a canoe by an artist who has lived in trinidad, canada, and edinborough (canadians claim him, scots claim him, trinidadians claim him)

peter doig, white canoe, 5.7lbs

(of course connected to the saachis) (i would like to remind people that richter, freud, rego, riley, hirst, hodgkins, tuymuns, hockney, kitaj, olfiri, kiefer,polke, etc)
http://www2.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=3101723
fantastic blog of mid century watches, mostly i think a resoruce for dealers, but as a sign post for designers, its the besto f the web.

fantastic new video for MIA's new single bird

found photo collections of various things, like teams named pirate, luaus in the contential united states and women holding koala

the fellowship of xian puppeteers, they have a conference every year!


does anyone have any context, w. this andre photo peice? (itsa black and white photo of one of his corner peices, dated mayday, 1976, with a rubber stamp across its daigonal saying mutilated by the whitney musuem of american art.

britney shaves her head, in one of those, you gonna keep watching me, i will give you something to watch gestures, the images are oddly monastic, w. her grey sweatshirt, and have an intensity of both feeling and iconography. i dont know if its as crazy as people are claiming. (ie the shot is called britneys cry for help, but i think it might be britney's cry of punk fuck you)

ryan larkin died of cancer.

i wish i more about these images, but a bejing photog remakes classics of western art history in chinese operative make up, this one is my favourite:

djenueer d' herbe, by manet, always manages to bring out the provcateurs in artists:

bow wow wow, 1981

alan jaquet 1964

Bruce Simpson, ?

the rest of those kenny chesney images

didnt win the big thing, the rest of the finalists were a mix of landscape, abstraction, people, and p/j. mostly dull, frankly, with a few standouts. the winner, eric fredine, took a picture that i have been trying and failing to take for years. of st benedicts school, one side brick the other side smooth concrete, white snow, white sky, the school a perfect gemoterical cube, nothing else in the composition, monolithic and brutal, and with a refusal to negiotate or soften the bleakness of the aesthetic, it was a brave photo and i was proud to lose to him

A traditional element in many apostate tales--from nativist tomes against antebellum Catholics to stories from "cult" defectors in the 1980s --is the illicit detailing ofof strocities. Thse sometimes included sex, consiporacy and even murder. ...a number of schoalrs have recognized that similar horrific stories have been told about a variety of religious groups throughout American history. Over the past three centuries , they argue, catholics, jews, mormons, adn members of ISKO?N adn the Unification chuch, among others, have all been the subjkects of strinkingly similar tales of sex, murder, and consipiracy. Harvey Cox, for example, argues that four historically recvurrent themes emerge in narratives told that four historically recurrent themes emerge in narratives told about "marginalised" and feared religious groups. These are the beliefs that the group is politically subversive, that sexual and beavioural deviancy occurs within the groups conines, that the group presents a false facade of beginity and that the group somehow brainwashes its members and transforms them into zombies. The socialgoists David Bremley and Anson Shupe also note similar reccurring motifs in old and new controversieus include (1) deceptiopns and corecion used to revruit and hold members (2) illegitmacy of beliefs (3) sexual pervsion, (4) polticial subversion adn (5) finical explotioan...
(89)

...despiore the widely shared perceptions of a spiritualy explosion in teh late 1960s, several schoalrs more historically removed from the peroid suggest that little statstical evidence supports the claim. In terms of new religious movements, for example, the sociologists Rodney Stark and his collegues assert that the p;opulation of the population joining new religions--as well as the number of new religions foudned--remained realtively stable from the 1920s to the 1980s. (100)

...most of the largest news and general-interest magazine portrayed the Jesus movement favourbly . In a cover story in the June 1971 Time, concluded that "in a world filled with real and fancided demons for the young, the form their faith takes may be lessi mportant than the fact that they have it. US NEws and world report wrote of a "supercharged evangism...the latest versuion of an American peitism that has erupted periodically since other times" and qouted the evagenlist Billy Graham praising the movement. In an article in Readers Digerst tellinginly titled We Need Their Faith, Norman Vincent PEale asserted that the Jesus people were sometimes "emotional to the point of hysetria, or dogmatic to the point of rudeness". but he suggested that the "established leadership". needed to queel these things, needed to quell, . Look beneath some of the exuberance and the long hair and the odd clothing" Peale reasured his readers "for the true hallmarks of Christianity, the love and joy and fellowship that have astounded observers ever since the first century" (118)

(it might be interesting to compare the discourses surround the emerging chuch movement with Peales arguement)

all typing mine, all qaoutes from making the american religious fringe, sean mccloud, unc press (mclouds book is really vaulable b/c it actually goes to the mains stream protestant weekly peroidicals in a systematic way)

Brian Ulrich the master photographer of large scale, working class commerce, has a flickr account, he is one of my favourites, working today.

male rape in prisons, is at an all time high, and proscutions for sexual assualt are much lower then they should be. this human rights watch report on the american situation, is an excellent place to begin understanding what rape means in america.

nina berman photos of soilders have a hard resilance, called purple hearts, they show the logical consquences of combat, in a normaitve setting, they indicate not what it feels like to lose a limb, or have a face burnt off, but how to get out of bed, how to use a wheel chair, what happens when one decides to marry. that they are done in suburban homes, with pictures of chain link fences, eagles, texas flags and like, combine it into a kind of domestic horror, and tell tales of what the war resistor joshua key calls the poverty draft. there is a book published in 2004, and she won a world press award this year. and a smithosnian article on mask makers, who created whole new faces for soilders who lost portions of their own, in ww1


Arsen Savadov, Collective Red, C Print, 1998. (real cow, more images here i dont know how i feel about this work, not as taboo as it would seem at first, and the poetry of recreating the rape of europa as queer, in a butch spanish context is amusing but sort of one note, maybe a corrective (slick, bright, colourful, homo, tightly composed, theatrical) to the obsessive picasso drawings of similar subjects (raw, black on white, hetro, sprawling, intimate)

discount stores of the 60s (awful design, great photos)

malls of america blog

radical left colouring book, mostly used by ironic hipsters as opposed to red diaper babies i think (cf glen ligons work based on that malcolm x book)


what is this font?


Walnut and Cane Chair, made by Abate

This was taken by yankee pez, and might be a perfect foto of both jesus and flordia. and i want the font.


Rockabilly cover of Too Drunk to Fuck, by the Purple Sex Heads.

50 minute BBC Doc of a HST and Ralph Steadman road trip across America, from 1978.

evangelical white christian support for the Iraq conflict is down to 58 per c ent from 70.


Kenny Chesney,Marissa Miller and the politics of the gaze (she looks at him, he looks at the camera, hands in the pocket and a bulge that is ambigous in its tumesnece) (5 more in the seires, plus images of kayne and jimmy buffett can be found herE the gnarls ones are fun.

here is the proper terminal:


look at that clock!

Tyler Greene of Modern Art Notes asks others to list their top five american buildings, because the AIA list has a flawed methodology and is therefore kind of crazy. since five is way too little, i am making 5 lists of 5: domestic, institatuional, religious, monumental, and transporting. his list is here

Domestic:
Winchester Mystery House, Sarah Winchester
many of the examples that are used, are examples that were made in an auter style, famous architechts working thru their own ego, trying to make something genius instead of functional, i think the winchester house, and other examples of outsider buildings remind us that there are other reasons to build. its also a really great example or working thru of any number of american ideas and issues, the archtype of the haunted house, that work can distract, that creating chaos and confusion leads to a kind of liberation, and that liberation is vital--its almost a mad american literalaztion of benedicts maxim. (also that one person could do all that work for many)

Peir Koenig, Case Study House 21. 1956-1958
The irony, of course, is utopian housing for middle americans becoming idealised housing for the v. rich is well dictated, and there are examples of it in houston and SF that said, every thing in this house, the angles, the lighting, the placement, the furniture, the lighting, whispers: this is new, this is the future, you arent afraid of the future, are you? for something pure, it pops up amongst the decadents w. fair frequency (ie the anniversary party; where the truth lies; that cocktail party shot by julias sherman


The Houses of Memorial Bend,50s and 60s, Houston, William Floyd Norman
There used be a whole web page of these, but it seemed to have died a sad death, Houston was one of the first to extend the possiblities of vernacular modernism, and the post war chic of these is a great example of how local sensiblities could transform a similatry of forms. This is a blog by someone who loves them:here

Vanna Venturi House, Robert Venturi, 1962
I like the radical geometry, the statement on ornament in the 20th Century, the playing with Loos and his children, and i like how the mother liked the house, how she enjoyed living in it, or seemed to enjoy living in it. I love, however, the giant stairway (i always like the basic mechinchals made into visual statements)


This Nantucket Victorian



Institutional
Kirkbride Hospitals
it seems ironic that 120 years after the fact, after the failure of commuinty care, and pysch wards, that the most humane attempt at treating the mentally ill, was this experiment, mostly because of the building, the thinking of how the building worked with people. This one is in buffalo an desinged by William Hobson Richardson in the 1870s later inventor of Richardson Romensque.

Louis Kahn, Center for British Art, New Haven, CT
So Fucking Pretty. (couldnt find a proper pic on line)

Louis Sullivan, National Farmers Bank, Owatoona, Minnesota.

it looks like he forget everything but the top, the balance, and geometrical skills are all there, it is a perfectly formed building, with a seductive ornamental rytyhm, and excellent uses of colour and form, plus glass, etc but also kind of batshit.

Slaters Mill, Pawtucket RI, 1792

i like how agricultural it looks, like a fancy hog barn.

Kresge Auditorium, MIT, 1953 Eero Saarinen

Saarinen reminds me of a time where the future was all curves and glass and pure sunshine. (how do they play sports in this one, wouldnt balls and such breaks the glass?)

religious
Radner Meeting House, 1718

No real difference here, b/w a house and a meeting house, the reductive simplicity, means that people come close, and forget spectacle

Crystal Cathedral Complex (Cathedral--Johnson, Aborteum--Neutra, International Center for Possibility Thinking--Meier)

That they got three of the best american architechts of the 20th century to create this proably says more about capital then anything, and that it is so modern, so outrageously, campily modern, suggets some kind of working out that failed to work, is amusing enough, but it does give you that swirl in the belly, looking up and feelign the awesome nature of god, that said , teh grounds are filled with statues of pure kitsch, mostly b/c the parishoners felt so isoalted by the grounds and b uildings (there has to be something to be said for churches that are desingned not for the parish, but to look good on television)

Shaker Barn, Hancock, Mass.

Circle, because of the infinite, and much larger then the neighbours, because livestock for a community needs more space then livestock for a family, the merging of metaphysical and qautidian tasks, the idea of farm work as a sacred unifying act, is written about commonly in shaker theology, but this makes it clear.

San Diego LDS Temple, Kenneth Moeller, 1988-1993

For something so much directed in the past, it screams past the future, like if the masons who did chartes decided that fighter planes were next (also one of the last lds temples to be created before the stake center area started)

Islamic Center, Dearborn Michigan,2005


Dearborn Michigan has the largest per capita population of muslims in the united states, the population grows larger, as communities gel. This is an icon of post mdoernity then, populatiosn deciding on the tradtions of needs of their communities, and creating instutions that reflect them, regardless of geography, that this was done after 9/11 makes it stronger.

San Pedro Square Rosicrucian Museum, San Jose, CA, 1927

Where Deco interest in Egyptology match 19th century interest in the oblique sciences, hugel well crafted grounds, include theological instutite, library, cafetria, musuem, and planterium, kind of kooky, but geniunely beautiful and not at all outsidery. (think of it as a serious, holy remake of those 20s cinemas or Wrights Mayan house)

side note:
here is the mies chapel for the illinois institute of tech, it amuses me greatly, b/c there are no signifers at all of any purpose of this building, the shadowed bird there is not the holy spirit descending like a dove, it is to prevent birds from flying smack dab into the middle of it.


Monumental:
STatue of Liberty,New York Harbor, Base:Richard Morris Hunt, Sculpture:Frederic Auguste Bartholdi

the great thing, is that the base, adn the concrete island go out of their way to make it seem like a statue that large, in the middle of the harbour is a normal, everyday occurance, they sort of fail, but they do make the work more liveable, and less opressive.

Sleeping Beauty's Castle, Anaheim, Walt Disney, 1955

(Image by Arbus, A Dark Castle in Disneyland, 62)
The central image for the whole park is one that is symbolic of feudalism and of an eternal sleep, and the castle lords over this artifical utopia like some kind of paropticon.

Brooklyn Bridge, Roebling, John Roebling, 1883

O Keefe, 49
Cause it reminds me of a Cathedral to the Machine Age.

Grand Hoover Damn, 1928-1940, Colardo River

mostly, i think, because of how functional it is, how well it does the job of holding that much water in, and how if we didnt have it, we wouldnt have vegas or la or any number of other cities, but also, because of the smooth walls, the wide size, the windows, they made sure that not only functionaly, but aesthtically, it would work.

Vegas Vic, Las Vegas, 1950


Transporting
Union Station, Los Angeles, John and Donald Parkinson, 1939

I have always been impressed at how large they can scale up colonial revival architechture, and i also like how it dovetails nicely into deco

T and P Station, Marshall Texas, 1912


Port of Seattle, Seattle,

Its the Red Colour! (they all look the same, but those container ship cranes are a highlight of new archtiecthual and transportation systems, and seattle intergrates it into the harbour and skyline in a really aesthetic way)

TWA Terminal, Eerio Saarienen, 1956-62

The ventalation grills, starways, resturants, all of the auxilalry stuff, that is added afterwards, is considered as important as the causeways, and the curves swing and fly, in an age of airbuses, and security concerns, the theater of flight as been groudn itno the theater of paranoia, and work this integral cannot be made again, maybe the inability to add secuirty meant that jet blue said no to revising it.

16th and Mission Terminal, BART, SF,
intergrates into the shopping plaza above grond and below ground, scandvian style tile, adn a dramatic roof.

five things

1) got a show at the sugarbowl, of my photos, sometime in late fall.
2) the photos of abstractions didnt work out for aga
3) rm vaughn wants to send me someting in the post
4) got a fantastic, wonderful, drawing,with note and calendar for the ford show, from richard in Nebraska
5) had a seires of seizures, the usual fugey, fall downly, memory gappy things, b/c of sleep, i think but was w. john and he kind of looked horrorfied, and he dealt with it admirably, but i keep forgetting that those who know me post meds didnt really realise how bad the things can be.

the kelso washington public library deveolps a sane system for dealing with potential censors


oddly literal video for an oddly literal spanish ballad about el cortazar, from hard n phim

the largest jain center in the world is the reclaiming of a 19th century LEcister Congrgational church


Scanned Paint Colours from 1958


More Scanned Paint Colours from 1958

hundreds of scanned textures, for graphic designers,

The
LDS Church in SLC successfully bullies a strip club out of the Sqaure




From Ebony Magazine, 1970

Bush Admin Slash

a nasty fight between UC Irvine and the family of DErrida over access to papers.


I know nothing of this, but want to know more, any clues?

tristam shandy

several silent, colour videos of suburbs, that qauver with a quiet intesnity.

a contract intergator for the us army in iraq writes in the washington post with a raw intesnity of what he did, and how evil it was, a jeremaid, in the most jeremiah sense of that word.

steampunk light fixtures




Dolemite Trailer

even though disney is returning to hand drawn animation, i dont thnik that they will work at the levels of even beauty and the beast, the age of masterpeics is long gone

silversteingallery who did the great 20th century jesus show last year, puts together Ryan Weideman who took photos in the 70s and 80s, of his passengers while driving cab and Sarah Stolfa
who is in school, and shoots her patrons tending bar. the photos are great, but togther is a great idea.

hundreds of end time prophecies, the faux kjv is a highlight

putin lays the smack down on Amerika

my husband is a servant of god, there is no way that he would murder a homosexual prositute

law and order

Ricahrd Chai for NY Fashion Week

I am a finalist in the Silver Skate, Winter in Edmonton Now competition. So one of my photos will be hung at city for two weeks, from Friday, Feb. 16th to March 2nd. Mine will be the bleak garage in Norwood with the sea foam coloured garage door. Not sure I will win, but it will be there.

Enter the Religious Right with an array of services and support that could no longer be found elsewhere. For struggling families, the support churches offered was an oasis in the desert, everything from home-cooked meals delivered to women and their families after a new child was born to free maternity clothes, baby clothes, and furniture, a supportive community of willing babysitters, women's gatherings during the week, book discussion groups, men's and women's aerobics, food and clothes bank programs, weekly meetings in homes for Bible study and "fellowship," men's basketball and softball teams, choirs, worship orchestras, child and adult musical and drama presentations and "living Christmas tree" projects, grief support, and a host of programs for people of all ages. Best of all? It was all free....This level of support in a society lacking even minimal support for young families can be hard to resist.

From the latest issue of Off Our Backs, qouted by the liminal librarian

images from the most recent jakarta flood, 340 000 homeless, 33 dead.

bbc story on the flood

four dvd collection of four dvds from kino, of soviet propghanda shorts, me want.

the swedish royal library, for some reason, has the whole collection of something called the Ralamb Costume Book, which is like a taxonomic vogue frmo 19th century turkey, some of my favourite illustrations ever, and the links follow the whole thing digitally

gureilla demographics all you need is a sky mall catalog, a five hour flight, and a wry sense of humour.


Photo of Gavin Newsom press conference, one would figure that a sex scandal from SF would be more interesting then this.


sometime freudian readings need it themselves.

christian sex toys (actual uses the word martial aids

beautiful shots of easter island


John McLaughlin
#14, 1963
Oil on canvas
48 x 60 in.
(what looks like a straight bisection is slightly angled.


Punky Chips Ahoy, Oi Oi Oi (with monkey in bobby suit)

paul russell takes some amazing photos, esp of the british sea side.

camille mm does this lightly coloured, sketchy drawings of porny goodness, v. french and v. hot, with some great herge meets balthus at an orgy nrg,

sometimes graphic design can be to insidey to be effective, this is one of those examples.

dissent wonders wehre the english lefts hatred of isreal intersects w. polite anti semitism. i wonder about this w. the radical french engagement with islam in the 70s, genet in lebanon, foucoult in iraq, after reading said on genet in late works, its not easy, esp since said is remarkably unreflexive in his critique of post colonial writers (reading ferguson in the same place as said is a really interesting juxtoposition, because the lefts position on palestine is a little schizophrenic, in the sense that the radical muslim who pays for and provides a foundation for most of palestines activitys, is not only in favour of the destruction of isreal, but in favour of the destruction of he jews, both in the ancient grudge sense, and in the sense of being the only secualr leftist democracy in the region, and you look at the ultra orthodox realtionship to women, mdoesty, sexuality, authority, god and the state, and aside from the prophet, there is a v. large intersected middle, i think if the left is going to be honest w. itself, its gotta say, fuck palestine, shape up isreal (i dont know how to solve this, i dont know how to protect isreal, respect muslim culture, be a good queer, and a good modernist, how to say huntington is wrong and isreal is wrong and hamas is wrong and hezbollah is wrong and the europeans are wrong and the americans are wrong and jesus is sort of right but in a really moderate non offensive way)

weird article on the parnoid tin hat brigade and the more visonary edges of the pentagons future weapons department

haggard decalres himself completely heterosexual (he was never really gay, and surely not queer, but enjoying being pounded in the ass by a hustler on meth, and pounding yr wife to holy babydom doesnt exactly make you straight, and no matter how you construct it, and declaring anything is under control never really seems to work out) (i dont think we are born gay, and i dont think that we choose to be gay, but i do believe that if you find out that you like the cock, there is no need to deny it, i mean i love meatloaf, i feel no need to say, meatloaf is evil, i will never eat meatloaf again)

Jesus is starting to put me back together. I have spent so much time in repentance, brokenness, hurt and sorrow for the things I’ve done and the negative impact my actions have had on others. That sadness continues as my family and I, along with so many others, go through the painful consequences of my actions. Jesus and his followers, though, have saved my life. As part of New Life’s efforts to help me, they sent Gayle and me to Phoenix for a three-week psychological intensive that gave us three years worth of analysis and treatment. We all wanted to
know why I developed such incongruity in my life. Thankfully, with the tools we gained there, along with the powerful way God has been illuminating His Word and the Holy Spirit has been convicting and healing me, we now have growing understanding which is giving me some hope for a future.

Gayle and I have decided to move from Colorado Springs to go back to school. We love Colorado Springs so much, and will always regard the believers at New Life Church as family, but we have to go in order to let the church determine its own course and for us to retrain. We haven't decided where we are moving but so far have been offered two places, one in Iowa and one in Missouri. We are both planning on getting our masters in Psychology so we can work together serving others the rest of our lives. Since we are taking our classes on-line, we can live anywhere that’s affordable. Then we’ll travel to location for short in-class requirements.

Thank you so much for your love and prayers during this horrific time of transition in our lives. For the last three months, I’ve not been communicative because I’ve been paralyzed by shame. But as God and people like you forgive me, the sun is starting to rise in my life. I look forward to communicating with greater ease.

God bless,

Ted Haggard

“We are Easter People.”

i wrote alot in an essay that will be published in june, about this idea of sexual brokenenss, and the first sentence moves me deeply, because i think "Jesus is starting to put me back together. I have spent so much time in repentance, brokenness, hurt and sorrow for the things I’ve done and the negative impact my actions have had on others.", i think that jesus and i are working on the project together, and i think that my sexuality is one of the least broken things about me, i think that the central message of xianity, that we are broken, that we can be healed, hope for those lost, that central line in amazing grace i once was lost and now am found, or that god is working on me, forever, deeply in a transtional often violent way needs to be spoken of. i think that haggard was broken. it wasnt his desire for male sex though, it was his dishonesty, his damage to his child and his wife, his denial and his seeking in dark corners. i think it must be incredibly difficult to fuck for obligation and fuck for pleasure, and combine those two instincts in one man, that was what broke haggard. i hope to god, literally to god, that his wife and his children will be healed, and he will learn how to fuck men with honesty, nobility, genuineness.

(i also think the church is wrong here, they basically said get the fuck out of town, and dont even think of preaching for christ. i think that haggard had a vocation, and i think that those with vocations cannot give them up with any ease, and i think also that christians are obligated to welcome the broken, those that hurt them, into the sanctuaries. they welcomed the hustler and talked to him, they should welcome haggard)

corrine o day talks of photographing kate moss, again.


Jess NEvins is amazing, pulp from the 30s.

jesus is mushrooms

bush budget cuts are like a fratboy prank gone genacidol

some thots:

1) syrianna isnt v. good, but i find it intruiging, watching it again last night, the structure has no cohesion, the acting is quiet, the work is underlit, the concentration is on things other then the people, on architechture, on details in stone or rugs on what is behind chairs, on street signs and raquet ball courts. i find the concetration on surface details as signifer of political and personal charachter overdone, and the meandering structure means we have trouble finding one story. but the complexity and refusal towards neatness strikes me as oil works, the spaghetti mess of capital (like those images of the la freeway)
2) matt damon, chris cooper, jeffery wright, tim blake nelson, george clooney are a collection of actors who have refused the method of stainvasky and for it, have decided to disguise themselves, make the work be about how quiet and "natural" they can be, how they evade the cameras in a desire to show that they are above film acting almost, its a neat trick, and i think makes more enjoyable films then actors who decide that near mad ranting is the only way of finding their way thru a script (this is one of the reasons why i want to see the good shepered, b/c it combines the three styles of american film acting that seem dominant right now
a) the suffer for yr craft yell at the heavens work orignated by deniro, etc and perputated by people like sean penn and leo decaprio (as put forth by deniro directing)
b) the fuck me im a star glacial sliding thru scenes, not interacting on a physical level (angelina jolie)
c) the ignore me im an actor digging into scenes, interacting on every level i can find, but not v. loudly (damon)

(i think thats why the depature failed, because the two movies, the one with whalberg/damon/etc fought against the one with nicholson/dicaprio)
(i think maybe damon saying i just want to work, thats all i want to do is work, let me work, which might mean the roles he deserved oscars for, he isnt getting oscars for. (ie in the last 6 years:
departed
syriana
confessions of a dangerous mind
gerry
all the pretty horses)

this american conserative article on the rise of the evangelical left, denies that the idea of a monolithic left or right is no longer on the table for most people, adn a balance of issues is becoming more and more common. which might explain why fewer people are voting. it is a good article from the position of confused ideolouges though.

for example this evangelical baptist church in australia putting up jesus loves osama signs, which might be a xian vs islam thing or a radical desire to forgive thing or something else.

Steve Pyke has done a large seires of photos of philosophers, here is his derrida, which is mesmerizing:


a promising gel that was supposed to impede HIV did the exact opposite. i dont really understand the science, but it seems that much of the research about hiv/aids is conterintutive, and we havent made much progress (cf the 4 cases of drug resitant aids in seattle this week)

quicktime video of Dita Von Teese's new performance complete with stained raincoat


60s era French Cowgirl Strippers

Christopher Wool makes slightly naughty, graphically clean, acts of fairly obvious graphic design, in a way that seems more abstract then it is. The words ae just pop, or just political or just naughty enough to make people think that they are working on a poetic goal, instead of someone who knows how to play the market--i mean black white no surface depth really big, and with a font that is high slumming low, they are intended and succeed in working the market to millions, i dont think his work is any good, and i dont think its worth the millions people pay for it, but that said, they do have a brilliant eye feel, they make me feel pure and modern, and who doesnt want to feel pure:

1.6 Million, 1992.

it makes me nervous about bush giving the state of economy speech on wall street, conflict of interest, and all that, a bad peice of protocol.


Really Effective anti war ad from a vets group, watch this one, the pay off is audicous.

anti korean manga

Superman stars in a porno, but stranger, from 1982, written by John Byrne, which makes him whole purity and family values schitck amusing.


Image from the Loopmanics catalog, i dont know who did it.

9 fratboys are living in their daddies georgetown town house, even though the zone said 6, they are claiming themselves as a religious order.

these collections of tin churches from the 1830s in northern england, combine the anthroplogical instinct with some lovely traditional talents towards scenery.

feature on the mayor of SLC, progressive!


John Waters talking about his Date With John Waters CD, really funny and charming.

charming story about Auden's various readings.

photos of lucha libre the monochrome background, face forward look so common to this kind of enterprise works well here, because it allows for the photographer to recess back, and the amazing costumes to come forward.


New Fly Over Gas Chain


Anthro Narwhal Porn

ersatz and illegal mining in zimbobwae, as a way to feed the poor, in terms of mugabe.


De Kooning, Crucifixion, Ink and Wash on Paper, 195(4?)