The US department of education, which helps television companies close caption, has denied funding for the following shows. No one is knows why, and the list is so weird that it really does not seem to be strict censorship.

these women have been together for fifty years.

hollow comes and settles
in the base places

the nape of my neck
and the bottom of my spine

where belly widens
and thighs narrow

the arch of my foot
and the crown of my head

hollows of desire
beyond anything
that can be explained

the hollows that the soul
will fit in
like hook
like eye
like hand
like glove

but nothing so simple
we are not born w. souls
but attain them
by common suffering

the missed bus
the ache of desire at
waiters and baristas and
clerks in offices
the click of rosary beads
and the dull patina
on christs right knee

nothing so dramatic
as a miracle of cured cancer
or stigmata
or anyother opening up.

just life.
and hungers
hollow

Hunger
I had been hungry all the years;
My noon had come, to dine;
I, trembling, drew the table near,
And touched the curious wine.

'T was this on tables I had seen,
When turning, hungry, lone,
I looked in windows, for the wealth
I could not hope to own.

I did not know the ample bread,
'T was so unlike the crumb
The birds and I had often shared
In Nature's dining-room.

The plenty hurt me, 't was so new,
Myself felt ill and odd,
As berry of a mountain bush
Transplanted to the road.

Nor was I hungry; so I found
That hunger was a way
Of persons outside windows,
The entering takes away.


ed


i had lunch with colleen two days ago, and her wisdom and guidance, taught me alot, and made me consider things with new implications.

these people agreed to have their stories of trauma and healing told, as a way to deal with violence, and to beg for forgiveness. harrowing and powerful

its powerful because of the inclusion of people who could not forgive, and the legitimacy it gives to ideas of revenge and retibution--i would like to think i belive in the power of love...but do i ?

celibate queer that i am, i will never really have to worry about the ethical implications of breeding--but this week i have been pulled into conversations about abortion--my position is easy on the surface--its not a good idea, it causes trauma, it is done to girls more then boys, but it best to be safe, medical (but does that clinical effiency means that it can be dehumanized?)

the question i cannot answer, is when does life begin. if it begins at conception, am i an acessory to murder. is the potential for life, as traumatic as life itself ?

Rowan Willams discusses contempary depictions of christ in modern art. i love mr williams, i think he speaks for god.

the problem w. me being a priest is that my sexual ethics are skewed...
imagine
a queer 15 yr old coming out and me saying its all ok, god made you whole and holy. '
a man talks about lustful thoughts about a woman other then his wife, and i think of hagar
a man cheats on his wife, and i am not mad about the sex but the lying. (or me offering marriage counselling, w. my cynicism towards monogomy)
someone confesses to masterbating and me telling them it isnt a sign at all.

and i still have that buddhist third way, can kill a starving man by feeding him vs christ as single, eunuchs for the kingdom of god, pauline/augustine/orgienin(sp) attitudes towards sex rolling thru my brain like tumbleweeds

hannah arendt, the grand jewish critic of hitler, and the seductive implications of fascism had an affair with hedigger, who was a nazi apologist, do you think the mutual self loathing made the sex better ?

BBC photos of the haji pretty and holy

An inmate in denver was used for taser target practice by the local sheriff

fark

Mackson Wasamunu a zambian photog, has been beaten up, detained, his camera broken and his film seized, for shooting pics of a police action.

large cross section of the 19k pages of documents that paul o neil left with. nothing too damaging but the attempts at transparency are interesting.

mefi

with anthrax & ricin showing up in the places of the most powerful, one would assume that bush would view decontamation as a priority. he has cut the whole budget.

any reason ?

mefi

good article on the dangers of nigerian writers who chose to dissent, including punishments that range from prison to tortue to exile to death.

Scalia and Cheney are best pals that go duck hunting together.

shouldnt there be more of an arm reach seperation b/w the executive and the judiacary(sp). something about that system of checks and balances.

ive been happier since antioch, lat is giving me some money for peices i wrote, and kissing machines a zine out of toronto may take some of my poems.

me

oh god
you have given me your people, and i am one of them.
i am in him, and with him and of him.

god
you, in your mercy, have given us yr son.
and we are that son--we are the body of christ
all in one, and one in all.

i am not a toe, or an ankle but a blood cell,
interacting with all other cells

i do not want to suffer or struggle.
i want to swim thru the blood stream
bringing oxygen and life to each part.

blood from the hands
from the feet
from the sides, from the crown of thorns
on his head,

blood streaming from him
rivulets in every pore,
and we are that blood.

god, in her wonder,
realized that life is suffering
and told the world--told jeremiah, told kali, told the buddha, told jesus.

make me a channel of yr peace, god
o lord, cast me remake me mold me shape me
strip me of the world
and make me a servant of yr desires.


Mark Wallinger's Ecce Homo.
(for a few months in june, this appeared, 5'7", on a 20 foot plinth in traflagar sqaure, wallinger said of this "i wanted to show him as an ordinary human being Jesus was at the very least a political leader of an oppressed people and I think he has a place here in front of all these oversized imperial symbols.")