before i forget, my grandmother also said this "i got paid for house work, with a home, furnture, spending money.."

that made her sound like she was taken care of, so i asked if she felt subjacated, and she said no, he was never home."

she also blames feminism on rising divorces, and thinks the nuclear family is the most stable...so grain of salt time, but it lead me to think was her marriage, the one that lasted 46 yrs, a mercancy arrangement, where both knew the cost ?

cowtown

I saw a statue of the buddha, with sunken skeletal features, veins crawling over canoe keel ribs, gaunt arms and gaunter legs, and I thot , he took himself to the edge, denied the physical, and then came back the self same way, to somewhere in the middle…is this what i need to do w. celibacy, is this what the church needs to do w. celibacy—i got so caught up in assuming the match b/w buddha & christ was the anihalltion of self, maybe it is temperance, balance and restraint. what next ?

the same place i found the buddha, i saw a disappointing show of the bog people---mysterious souls left persved in the peat bogs of Ireland, Denmark, Norway and Holland, there were some of the corpses there, and some tools, but also a collection of ritual jewelry/pots/adzes/etc that was deeply moving, but the light was so dim, and the display cases for some of the best work prevented a full view…that & they quoted heany’s bog poems but did not sell the volume.

To go along with the was wolfgang bleekers photos of moors, which had a decent colour sense, and some startling compostion, but by the most part, were overly romantic, and almost too cinematic.

The art gallery of calgary had a show of paintings done with acrylics, and clothes line, the gallery attendant described some of it as strong, and some of it as laboured. I was more excited by the eames plywood chairs then the work (which I found too concerned with material & theory, and nont nearly concerned w. form, so we had another show of b&w grids/rondos.

A bookstore cross stephen avenue had a book of censored comic art, including some v. well drawn boy pinups by p craig russell, almostl cadmusian in its details.

(saw some v. good public art, Yoruba murals on the side of a south African resturant, a horse made of farm implements, ekens glossy/blurry/glam/fuck you funny trophy cibrachromes as trophy art in the husky oil lobby/22 blackbirds carved, numbered and placed on a pole, etc.)

terse, wasp fight w. gramma about money, gave me my bday cheque early,

dependent on bryan’s car too much, found that out today, need to change it.

tris mccoll deconstructs holiday favourites

bought a book this xmas, called queer pulp, a coffee table excuse to note the underground history of girl on girl action--i should have looked here, which has the immortal cover "satan was a lesbian"

queer day

I find John Currin to be reactionary, hateful, and not even a very good painter, but those who love art have declared him the next big thing.

David Cohen fucks with the hype, and also tells the world that yale thinks he is as good as botecelli.

mefi

Mozambique may execute detainees summairly.
if the human rights leauge is to be trusted

all africa

marin county feels yr pain.

submitted a handful of haiku to flanuer--those new fangled haiku that unrealte to 575

digital camera for xmas, good for shooty, does this work, in a way that brians isnt.
dinner party w. brians uncle mike. among others (incl. jeff) we talked about god, among other things.

Franz Gehry is ego unchecked, refusing to acknowledge the beauty and diversity of human scale building, replacing it with garish spectacle. He is ruining deco, italianate renaissance revival, and other syles that make New York wonderful.

He did that with the King Alfred Center in Bristol which ignored the idea of pavillion and carnival, the Disney concert hall in Los Angeles, which made a rich persons cathedral on top of immigrant poverty, and the EMP in Seattle, which hoggishly took up almost 3/4s of a central public park.

I do not know why he is lauded in the manner he is.

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on Satan's Laundramat who has original photos.

winter pastorals, alberta

magpie loosens
snow on
heavy pine boughs

nuthatches swerve
landing on
bare poplar branches

crow gleams
irridescent
black night/black feathers

the damage that jack white can do is not only to ones ear drums.

before i forget, had a 3 minute black out at rachels ca 9 pm, two days ago

and almost 24 chicago area priests have called the vaticans gay position "vile and toxic", reminding us that the church is not the vatican, that many north americans and europeans are now in open revolt against the vatican on issues of sex and gender, and that if the next pope is as conserative on these issues as the last one, we may see schisms.

as for me and my house, i agree with the chicago 24

One of the strageties for winning the cold war was bleeding, basically out spending russia until it fell into economic collpase (cf Reagon and SSDS), it worked so well, and chinese might be trying it on america

queer and pacifist events cut from montages of events at the lincon memorial, thot crimes progress.

Breaking down the red/blue state lines, these ten regions still mantain some of the elitist class discourse that surrounds red/blue, but reflects the complexity found in the demograpgics, also attempts to explain race, which is a factor over looked (and not only b&w but asian/hispanic, etc)

Ballard offered CBE Ballard tells queen to fuck off.

huge gallery of african photography, done by africans. interesting on aesthic and anthropological grounds.

last night i had a three minute blank out, and today i slept thru most of it. im sick and scared