all shall be well all shall be well and all manner of things shall be well julian of norwich

Tuesday, April 30, 2002

Distinguished adult film company in search of midgets, dwarfs, and other vertically challenged men and women for an ultra sexy oompa loompa gang bang. The lucky few who will be selected must fit into our stylish crotch less oompa loompa costumes. If you are allergic to latex based makeup, body paint, do not wish to become a rich/famous adult film star, and or do not like rough wild oompa sex please do not apply. Sorry, leg amputees are not considered vertically challenged and will not be considered for this film.



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from craigslist
nine days in london in may

four days in drumheller in june

seven days in vancouver in november

four days in victoria after vancouver



i am a rambling boy

Monday, April 29, 2002


I havent canoed for a year and a half and that was just near home . I yearn to take the big aluminum monster and ride it on the river til my arms are tired and my back aches and when i get to the place where my head will rest , i take my clothes off on the shore and the river water washes over me and every night its another baptism. Then sleeping and hearing the wind thru the pines, a whistle that sounds all the world like the holy ghost . River food too , thick stew and pasta for dinner and peanut butter/cheese for lunch and oatmeal for breakfast and that coffee like an oil slick . If you are lucky the water is so clear you get to fish


And everything you see, the odd owl, the flocks of geese, pelicans, finches


sometimes if you are in the right place you get to the lilly clogged pond and you really become a lily dipper.


i want to go toLa Ronge not London . I want vespers round the campfire.


i want the warmth of a lover under a sleeping bag looking at the stars , i want to be frightened by a lightening storm


I want to keep in rytyhm with land of the silver birch




see thats where i wanna be




Sunday, April 28, 2002

Today i watched coal miners daughter, listened to momus, went to mass and recovered after writing 1511 words on country music tv for freaky trigger. I have got THREE cds coming from dusted, but no worm- that was dealt with by the fine people at symantec.

Wednesday, April 24, 2002

Coming back from a buddies house today i went on the bus and a gentleman with a young child on his lap yelled Anthony. I didnt recognize him at first but it turns out he is an artist buddy of mine. We gosipped talking in half sentences, he's my age and he has this daughter, it was disconcerting at best.

Tuesday, April 23, 2002

Aspergers

I have Aspergers, a high fuctioning autsim which is difficult to explain and is often painful and so i do not talk about it alot. Its like everyone in the world is playing a game and they haven't told you the rules. Thery are not excluding you on purpose, although often it seems that way. They just seem to groke things while you need everything explained to you .

Try being in a small town in Alberta, coming out while having Aspergers - not pleasent and quite miserable in fact. I still keep my AS close to my chest , telling people right off and letting it settle rather then letting it define me, but i think i need to travel more closely with it

A friend sent me This site and i thought two things Thank God for the Interweb and where was this when i was 15
ase

Sunday, April 21, 2002

Kathleen Hannae uses the word fag on the first track of femminist sweepstakes, it bothers me , is she allowed to use that word, is a hipster nod and a disco wink redeem her or is it another J Lo and her n---as ?
No idea if American Gods will win -- that's up to the mathemagical intricacies of Australian Rules Voting, not to mention how many people who liked it vote for it -- but I am starting to really enjoy the fact that so far the book's been nominated for The BSFA award, the International Horror Guild Award, the Bram Stoker Award (and the Minnesota Book Award) and now the Hugo. There's only the World Fantasy Award and the Nebulas left of the genre awards....
Neil Gaiman

From his blog

The (North) America we know is not founded on genocide and slavery - after that waves of immigrants who bullied the previous wave. It is a conteint who is used to resolving conflicts with violence. Even if we parrot "multiculturalism" our citizens are told implictly to leave their G-ds and their culture at home.

Neil Gaiman realizes the horror of this assimlation and tries to rectify it in his book American Gods realizes that culture never dies , and the old G-ds rode on the backs of immigrants to the New World, standing beside them on slave ships and ob ellis island. This is literalized to a sort of Pilgrims Progress for a conflicted histroy- but it faisl to have the answers , it is a next of moving ambigous plurity .


The writing is brilliant as well, a delicte balance between adventure and philosphy, between farce and tragedy. The book is a text that realizes America needs to be restored . It is also a novel that feautures the Gods alive , it is a novel that specualtes on the nature of idenity in a way that makes people who are used to banal domestic dramas nervous . ( I am looking at you Frazen)


So it was released earlier this year, why am i blogging it now . It didnt win the pulitzer,it didnt win the NBA, it only got nomainted for the Hugo-fuck the ghettoazation of American Fiction

Thursday, April 18, 2002

i didnt do the last assignment in phil. because of fear and intimadation so i failed the course .

Wednesday, April 17, 2002

BOB DYLAN
LIVE IN LONDON

FUCK THE MUSEMS AND THE NEW ART ,
BOB DYLAN , MY HEART IS IN LOVE WITH THE CRYPTKEEPER

BOB DYLAN !
THE MAN I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO IN UTERO
THE MAN I LOST MY VIRGINTY TO
AAH

Tuesday, April 16, 2002

There is a new Alberta law that forbids parents from fundraising to buy "essential goods" , so lets me get this straight - there is no $$ for items like textbooks and the like and instead of funding them they forbid money to be raised

Monday, April 15, 2002

You were once a teenager and thought you liked boys and thought it was all glamour like oscar before the trial. You saw posters of a handsome boy in the record store, he looked dangerous and theatrical with that hiry chest and that pale skin, that pomadour and those eyes . YOu asked who he was adn fell head over heels in lustlovenvy with the smiths . It put salt on yr meloncholy and you were a misunderstood matyr.

Friday, April 12, 2002

Today a kid knocked on my door and asked me to sponsor her spellathon. I did and asked what it was for, she responded books for the library . Now we are so Victorian that we depend on sending arround child beggars to support their schools ? AAAAARGh

Thursday, April 11, 2002

Yesterday I got an email from my FMS prof telling me i was bright and talked to my Phil. prof who said it was a privalege to have me in her classes. I got a postive email on my poetry, get to send the sixths to england and well all that nifty stuff. It made me feel really good .

Tuesday, April 09, 2002

i am feeling like shit of late .i had unpleasentness at the paper and my d.o.a screwed up and the black dog looks like he is going to stay a while and i jsut feel like i am bottoming out

Sunday, April 07, 2002

if i wasnt a faggot i would be a banal borgie boring boy

im the Canuck Uni Press Rep for Queer Issues .

See its not fucking ass its social climbing .

Friday, April 05, 2002

What was the point of that

Well 3000 years of dual claim , So much history and so much legitmacy and well there isn't alot we can do can we ?
3000 years ago Ishamel wanted to kill Isaac .

2750 years ago David brought the Ark Of the COvenant to Israel .

For 2500 years , since the destruction of the Temple in Jersluem , Jews have been saying next year in Jersulem, having this need for a home land imprinted in them during the most somber and holy week

For 2002 years Christans have been flocking to Jersulem, since the crucfixtion of thier most sacred prophet.

1750 years ago , Momahed decided that Muslims needed to face north to Jersulem, he latter changed his mind after the angel Gabreil transported him to Mecca. The place where this happened is revered by Muslims (Sura 2 Vs. 314-316)

1350 years ago Caliph Omar Ben Hatav captures Jerusalem placing it under Muslim rule.

1000 years ago Calpih Hakim ordered a purge of the Jews from Jersulem

900 years ago , the first Popes encourage the violent conquering of holy sites in the Middle East, including sacking Jersulem

870 years ago the Muslims caputre Jursalem from Crusaders and invite Jews to Settle

750 years ago Jersalem was sacked by Mongols, providing welcome respite from the infighitng

700- 500 years ago Israel was ruled by Mamelukes. Who were martial aristocats descended from Non Arab slaves. This point of time Israel was part of a larger Islamic Empire .

470 years ago - The Mamelukes are replaced with the Ottomon Empire

450 years ago- For the first time since David , the city is walled this time by Sultan Suleiman

300 years ago -Rabbi Yehuda He'Hassid arrives, starts building "Hurva" Synagogue

170 years ago, There is the first British Consulate delvoped in what is now called Palestine

140 years ago - The first Jewish Settlement outside of Jersulem since Dispora

100 years ago_ The World Zionist Congress visits Jersulsm

85 years ago - The British make what they call PAelstine a protectorte

60 years -56 years ago - Shoah

55 years ago- The United Nations recommends the Partioning of Israel

54 years ago- Israel devolps statehood, isolating Muslim and Christan citizens of the province

35 years ago- The Six Year war between Israel and her Arab Neighbors suggests Israels fire power is strong and that there is plans to be hawkish about thier postion in the mideast

35 years ago - A comprimise is devolped to give Muslims Christians and Jews given access to their Holy Places

The Next 35 years ago run roughly like this - The Arab Palestianans try to find space for themselves, The Israeli bombs them. The PLO gets fed up and preforms terroist actions et. al .


Tuesday, April 02, 2002

Today i have reached the nadir, i used to listen to clever music, music that was complex and bizarre and interesting and had many many layers . Slowly those layers stripped away, i moved from Tender Pervert to Folktronica, John Cage to Plain Song, Johnny Cash to Applichian Ballads. It was along time coming, but it seems all i care about now is stark voices and borderline boring ararngemetns. Where did my love of complexity go ? Why am i obsessed with simplicity all of a sudden ? Its not only music , in art i have been looking at waterhouse, in poetry i have started liking frost and finding pound unpleasent, In photos i have picked up the victorians and in funirture regency . Its like i have slipped from the avant garde to the back ranks, like all i seem to care about anymore is simple things for simple people . Am i making progess ?

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