today my mom shit all over the floor of the bathroom and woke me up, so i could clean it--i did what i could, took her newspaper and other instruments of hygenine, took the garbage out, but i was retching and puking and i couldnt clean up her shit. after she had cleaned up mine.

its like i should be able to empty her commode, and i cannot get myself to do it.

i shouldnt be blogging this and i will erase it in the morning.