I went to the optratemist today and i need new glasses, my eyes are getting worse. i got fired yesterday and am exhausted . i spent two hours in a cafe drinking coffee and reading American Gods by Gaiman . Its good , manges to move quickly and still be realtivly deep. It has alot ot say about the immigrant experince. i know i promised a long entry but i have felt blocked lately. I am working on my clumn for D.O.A about vancouver and writing a thing about Catholicism. I am editing some poetry as well.

this will be the last really short post.
i am goign to vanocuver on the weekend and i am a bit harried.

today i walked downtown with a woman dressed as a pyschotic clown , she intoned the word labia a dozen times

i have so much to do and my mother is sick, so i am racing between work and government offices as well as trying to get her well . i have had no time to plan for wednesday and i have slept 12 hours for the last two days .

Lets try those links again :

dadaist poetry

an example of manirettis typography

Geoffs Poem

Geoff Parked recently sent me piece of his web project and asked me to critique it . Much to my shame i looked over it and i sent him a one line email . To my defense i bookmarked it to look over later . I had been reading mostly traditional poetry When i was really young my mind was more supple and made much larger jumps . Now i had trouble picking through the piece he sent me . I was puzzling the meaning and not and not looking through its structures . I went to the library today and sitting down i looked at the poetry it reminded me of . Namely Hugo Ball who used preverbal onamanapeics and Maniretti who used typography to express explicitly political themes. The thing is Geoff's work full in the mouth and gastronomical in its pornography. The metaphor of consumption means the words spread through the page. It erupts, ejaculates . But this betrays the deliberateness of his metaphors It manages to be so well constructed its mercurial nature looks simple. It also riffs between Spanish and english. Geoff was worried about translation and a web presence. I do not think it needs to be translated , Pound didn't translate the more obscure of his references , trusting the intellectualism of his audience .

(OT: I think Pound would have loved the web ; His poems stuffed to the gills with textual references and his paranoia as well. )

Links

Geoffs Poem :

Maniretti Poem :

Hugo Ball :

( a dadaist poetry site )

Today i heard four teenagers giggle and sing "say my name" . it reminded me why i loved pop . then they sang im a slave 4 you and i knew the producer and that kind of made me sad . i cannot remeber the last time i felt so joyus about i song i wanted to sing it along with my buddies . i share music all the time but i have not had a silly loop of joy racing thru my head in ages. i tried paul simon and i tried ween . nothing matched the exuberence .

In 1996 Jack Pierson displayed a sign made from discarded billboards and neon that said fuck you mocking the recent trends in abject and obscene art. Recently the word Fuck has been vital in the bejing art underground, popularized mostly by Ai Wei Wei. It is shocking in beijing not because of what it means but because it is popular and english . full circles .

Today i spent 3 hours installing a show. The artist is quiet and gentle but makes nasty and obscene art full of vital fluids. I own a painting of his with a guy giving auto fellatio and the word genuis underneath him . But the joy of installing is not meeting artists , it is making your hands raw with sand paper and yr clolthes stained with paint. It is constructing, the achemial thrill of making something from nothing . I have to go to work and i am white with plaster but i really dont care.

Today there was 9 anthrax scares in the capital. We live in Bumfuck Alberta guys we aint the whitehouse so settle the fuck down

i spent the day at the dentist, then curled up with a CD and a new book . It was dull and comforting .

from artnet.com news :





CALDER MOBILE FOUND IN WTC DEBRIS

The New York Post reports that part of Alexander Calder's monumental sculpture Bent Propeller (1970), which stood on the plaza at 7 World Trade Center, has been found in the rubble. Alexander Rower, Calder's grandson and head of the Calder Foundation, had asked volunteers at the site to keep an eye out for the work.

you know those two girders fused into a T that people thought were a message of god, the above makes me much more likey to think that God may still be looking after us .

my email has changed to anthonyeaston@shaw.ca , i have netscape so my Messenger name is NPnkMse .

I still use icq most often though , which is 11237968
just in case you think you want to talk to me

i was reading this article in Jane on sex addiction and thinking about the problems with the twelve step program pattern. There seems to be no connection between who goes there. In sex addiction it is meant for anyone who views there sex or romantic or fantasy life as destructive. So everyone from a 21 college virign who jacks off once a day and a middle aged woman in an unhappy marriage who devolps a massive crush on the UPS driver to a pump and dump pyschotic and violent sadists or pedophiles could be at the same meeting. Can we not tell the college kid and the people who revel in fantasy that they are not evil ?

At overeater anonymus if you talk about your addiction it becomes a temption. For example they do not say cheese they say produce product that may be cubed .

At AA they cannot tell the difference between a complusion, a habit and a binge. Addicts are complex and need to be treated differently depending on there addiction and there habits. People act out differently and twelve steps cannot motivate all .
Those who are complusive will change to coffee or cigarettes or even meetings . If you have an addictive personailty , does the compulsion that underpins your personality ever change ?

I am sure the ritual helps , 12 steps to let you move one foot in front of the other and group therapy is a carthatic
it must help.

today i saw seven, fight club and twelve monkeys back to back. i am willing to entertain the notion that brad pitt is more then a pretty face. i am working on something about the mthod and how it fails for me .

here is a link to the moore, its real video, but powerful

Today i went to teh dentist and they asked me if i wanted white or silver. i said silver thinking that murakami called it the only superflat color .

Yesterday at work there was a fire alaram and we all had to huddle in the train station, i took my book out of my pocket, sat crosslegged on the floor and started reading, thinking all the time of moores underground drawings .

Is this passion or pretension and why do i care .

some links an entry to follow this evening
nasty

death and the army , a southern tale

art or trash , at least hirst was a good sport

the anthrax spreaders cannot tell the difference between tabloids and news, neither can i

i think jesus would be into porn and poltics, like the rest of us netizens
with people reading
the air will never be safe

31 anthrax ridden in washignton

Anthrax because it is well known, cheap and dangerous enough to cause symbloic terror rather then real damage ?

Experiments
I make money playing guinea pig, that was one of these days.
today i got stuck in a tank of water. i was naked and the water was warm and salt saturated.
I had this short clicnican talk to me through out it, like a fire plug, when i got out and they mesured the displacement he offered to tell me my score , i feel comfortabel with my body. If i had numbers i would feel less comfortable. He then got the calipers out . Every inche he mesured, talking softly, his touch gentle. Once again he offred to tell me the numbers, once again i refused. He left the room to let me get dressed in an odd act of modesty. He had seen me naked, examined me thourghly. The removing of clothes and the replacing of clothes , the two most intimate acts the clinican never sees.

When i was dressed he was waiting in the lobby, he lead me to a classroom with 20 other people . We had to fill out surveys about height and weight . We had to sign another set of relase forms . We were handed two decks of cards. There were 6 cards in each deck . The cards had ink drawings of people , one deck men , the other woman.
Cards one picture was skeltal, Card Sixes was corpulent
You were supposed to tell what person you were and then what your acceptable man and woman are. well men are sexaul and woman are aesthic but every one is acceptable , no ?

SMALLVILLE
New show on the WB feautring an adolsecent clark kent. it is set in the here and now and it features a naked man on a cross (as a freshman stunt that someone died earlier), Lex and Clarke saving each other lives, Lana Lane as intrepid girl reporter, Clarke finidng his strength by stacking pickups like dominos in the parking lot of the home coming dance

It seems to be reaching all these refrences from those early discovering your idenity subtexts which seems to tie into superman the comics constant early subcurtenous refrences to identity as a jew and an immigirant. As well it seems to connect to the recent finding literal monsters instead of subconcious monsters (cf Buffy and Rosewell). It has the highschool jocks and freaks compenoant of most teen soaps, the wb pop soundtrack as well. A fascanting excerise in postmodernsim . WATCH IT !

election for mayor yesterday let our current fuckwit of a mayor get a third term

I voted for Tess Ellsworhty, an anarchist dyke who has a heady rep as being too left and clever for her own good.