so i went to the dr to get on medication. the therapist that the u of a requires one to see b4 the shrink told me that it was my deportmant.

next week, when i get the money together, i will be taking remeron. a tricylic-havent done those since i was 8, he says that my appetite and my anger may increase.

im trying to fit in as much people time as possible, cause im not miserable with people, they distract me.
i feel like a failure, like i tried every thing and nothing worked. i feel like i have betrayed a ton of people who have tried to help.
i feel like god has left me.
eli eli lama samach (correct my hebrew josh)