bbc story on the flood
four dvd collection of four dvds from kino, of soviet propghanda shorts, me want.
the swedish royal library, for some reason, has the whole collection of something called the Ralamb Costume Book, which is like a taxonomic vogue frmo 19th century turkey, some of my favourite illustrations ever, and the links follow the whole thing digitally
gureilla demographics all you need is a sky mall catalog, a five hour flight, and a wry sense of humour.
Photo of Gavin Newsom press conference, one would figure that a sex scandal from SF would be more interesting then this.
sometime freudian readings need it themselves.
christian sex toys (actual uses the word martial aids
beautiful shots of easter island
John McLaughlin
#14, 1963
Oil on canvas
48 x 60 in.
(what looks like a straight bisection is slightly angled.
Punky Chips Ahoy, Oi Oi Oi (with monkey in bobby suit)
paul russell takes some amazing photos, esp of the british sea side.
camille mm does this lightly coloured, sketchy drawings of porny goodness, v. french and v. hot, with some great herge meets balthus at an orgy nrg,
sometimes graphic design can be to insidey to be effective, this is one of those examples.
dissent wonders wehre the english lefts hatred of isreal intersects w. polite anti semitism. i wonder about this w. the radical french engagement with islam in the 70s, genet in lebanon, foucoult in iraq, after reading said on genet in late works, its not easy, esp since said is remarkably unreflexive in his critique of post colonial writers (reading ferguson in the same place as said is a really interesting juxtoposition, because the lefts position on palestine is a little schizophrenic, in the sense that the radical muslim who pays for and provides a foundation for most of palestines activitys, is not only in favour of the destruction of isreal, but in favour of the destruction of he jews, both in the ancient grudge sense, and in the sense of being the only secualr leftist democracy in the region, and you look at the ultra orthodox realtionship to women, mdoesty, sexuality, authority, god and the state, and aside from the prophet, there is a v. large intersected middle, i think if the left is going to be honest w. itself, its gotta say, fuck palestine, shape up isreal (i dont know how to solve this, i dont know how to protect isreal, respect muslim culture, be a good queer, and a good modernist, how to say huntington is wrong and isreal is wrong and hamas is wrong and hezbollah is wrong and the europeans are wrong and the americans are wrong and jesus is sort of right but in a really moderate non offensive way)
weird article on the parnoid tin hat brigade and the more visonary edges of the pentagons future weapons department
haggard decalres himself completely heterosexual (he was never really gay, and surely not queer, but enjoying being pounded in the ass by a hustler on meth, and pounding yr wife to holy babydom doesnt exactly make you straight, and no matter how you construct it, and declaring anything is under control never really seems to work out) (i dont think we are born gay, and i dont think that we choose to be gay, but i do believe that if you find out that you like the cock, there is no need to deny it, i mean i love meatloaf, i feel no need to say, meatloaf is evil, i will never eat meatloaf again)
Jesus is starting to put me back together. I have spent so much time in repentance, brokenness, hurt and sorrow for the things I’ve done and the negative impact my actions have had on others. That sadness continues as my family and I, along with so many others, go through the painful consequences of my actions. Jesus and his followers, though, have saved my life. As part of New Life’s efforts to help me, they sent Gayle and me to Phoenix for a three-week psychological intensive that gave us three years worth of analysis and treatment. We all wanted to
know why I developed such incongruity in my life. Thankfully, with the tools we gained there, along with the powerful way God has been illuminating His Word and the Holy Spirit has been convicting and healing me, we now have growing understanding which is giving me some hope for a future.
Gayle and I have decided to move from Colorado Springs to go back to school. We love Colorado Springs so much, and will always regard the believers at New Life Church as family, but we have to go in order to let the church determine its own course and for us to retrain. We haven't decided where we are moving but so far have been offered two places, one in Iowa and one in Missouri. We are both planning on getting our masters in Psychology so we can work together serving others the rest of our lives. Since we are taking our classes on-line, we can live anywhere that’s affordable. Then we’ll travel to location for short in-class requirements.
Thank you so much for your love and prayers during this horrific time of transition in our lives. For the last three months, I’ve not been communicative because I’ve been paralyzed by shame. But as God and people like you forgive me, the sun is starting to rise in my life. I look forward to communicating with greater ease.
God bless,
Ted Haggard
“We are Easter People.”
i wrote alot in an essay that will be published in june, about this idea of sexual brokenenss, and the first sentence moves me deeply, because i think "Jesus is starting to put me back together. I have spent so much time in repentance, brokenness, hurt and sorrow for the things I’ve done and the negative impact my actions have had on others.", i think that jesus and i are working on the project together, and i think that my sexuality is one of the least broken things about me, i think that the central message of xianity, that we are broken, that we can be healed, hope for those lost, that central line in amazing grace i once was lost and now am found, or that god is working on me, forever, deeply in a transtional often violent way needs to be spoken of. i think that haggard was broken. it wasnt his desire for male sex though, it was his dishonesty, his damage to his child and his wife, his denial and his seeking in dark corners. i think it must be incredibly difficult to fuck for obligation and fuck for pleasure, and combine those two instincts in one man, that was what broke haggard. i hope to god, literally to god, that his wife and his children will be healed, and he will learn how to fuck men with honesty, nobility, genuineness.
(i also think the church is wrong here, they basically said get the fuck out of town, and dont even think of preaching for christ. i think that haggard had a vocation, and i think that those with vocations cannot give them up with any ease, and i think also that christians are obligated to welcome the broken, those that hurt them, into the sanctuaries. they welcomed the hustler and talked to him, they should welcome haggard)
corrine o day talks of photographing kate moss, again.
Jess NEvins is amazing, pulp from the 30s.
jesus is mushrooms
bush budget cuts are like a fratboy prank gone genacidol
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