i need to do the install tonite, and i have no idea how and i think that jeff will help me. Terry was going to, but he has kids and other commitments. Jeff apparently is my home teacher, according to Terry. I did ask Jeff, but the weird thing is, that i didnt mind asking terry at all b/c hes a buddy, and weve hung out, and i like him, and so its cool...but though i have known for Jeff for more then a decade, i dont feel like i know him, and he isnt my home teacher at all, i am no longer in the church. asking him to do things that home teachers usually do, is so strange, so isolating in a bunch of ways...but i need it done ,and i cant fucking do construction (jeff called back and said it wasnt going to work out)

there is a reason why lots of artists dont install their own shows--im not sure that blutaking them to the wall will work at all...

ARGHNESS