the proposal is kicking my ass, and the curratorial thing is on the line until until ashley/blair give me materials.

still waiting for two cheques (from scm and from xtra east)

got invited to the xtra west xmas party, which is nice but useless

jones av. took tilda for publication next year

i think i have to wait till feb. for flak to talk to me about julians review

here is mine of the new chesney (which ended up on the front page finally--and is fairly strong wason the front page--i am feeling this weird rivally w. thomas inskeep, who also does country for stylus.

the shrink i was going to so i could be evaulated yesterday didnt bother showing up, b/c of some scheduling fuck up--which means i have to see them in the next little while...

i went for a walk yesterday, a long one, and when i got home mom had spent 45 or 50 minutes calling everyone she knew, afraid that i was missing.

shes doing the weird shit with money again--i have no idea where it goes, because i really dont spend that much of it, and there is this sense of constant guilt--i blew off an interview at mac's two days ago, but he hasnt rescheduled, and i havent had any other oppurtunity...

i am working on an essay comparing complusary hetrosexauality in mr/mrs smith and broke back mountain...which is a deep cliche but may get me something.

still 30 pts either direction for the ACT

i need a vacation