ok today, got drunk on someone elses dime, and i made out with and felt katherines tits, went to the washroom and felt davids cock, gave mark a lap dance, it was the booze, of course it was the booze, but it reflected the intrimacy of the class, and it added to the whole hitting on str8 people to the drunk pattern.

i talked to don this morning about baudillard and the politics of the real, and he had an anthony qoute, i have become a cliche.



i feel stupid, and admist the drunken grab fest, people told me that i was smart, smarter then swirski, well read, clever.

i want love, when i held daves cock today, i wanted to make him cum.
not because hes queer, but because i was so close then, so affectionate.
it was almost non sexual.
it wasnt sexual.

did it ruin how we deal with each other.
btw he thinks im big..
bryan wont confirm.

today i needed to go to mass,
i didnt.
i talked to bittner.