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i say the rosary every morning and every evening. For twenty minutes the smooth black beads slip through my hands. The words, the same words , echo thou my lips. I used to have a computer program that would help me along but some things need to be tactile .I become alone and clear. I am not worshipping G-d or remembering the Holy Mother. I am emptying the trash my mind and body has collected during the day. Does this mean i do not believe in the Catholic Church ? I am a strict Apostolic Catholic. If you read the apostles creed, there you have my view of the Divine.

Well this does not not incorporate it all, I believe in aesthetics . I believe in ritual.
I believe in finding the odd comforting corners and resting in them . There is a document on the web culling queer saints. Of the 10 000 allowed by Mother Church, a lot of them seem to have this subtext. Is this because same gender instatutions allow for safety. Do people who fear sex seek ways to destroy it. In the early church celibacy was not at all a commandment. Jerome and Augustine recommended it. But Francis and Thomas of Aqaounis were indifferent. Boswell says it was political . The Cardinals wanted the bishops to avoid having sons so property would always belong to the church.

Maybe this is the case but i was a Mormon. The Bishops ( like parish priests) would have two families. They had to take care of the body of christ and then go home and deal with the turmoil of their own family . Something would fall by the wayside. Mormon woman have huge levels of depression . Maybe compartamentalizng is good.

I am not sure this makes sense.

references :
Book : Same-Sex Unions in Pre-Modern Europe John Boswell
Web site: www.exmormon.org
Web site: http://www.bway.net/~halsall/lgbh/lgbh-gaysts.html
Apostles Creed : http://www.ccel.org/creeds/apostles.creed.html